Sunday, August 31, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLY!!!
- and -
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE!!
i hope you guys have a good day today!! esp. since it's 8.31!! =)
hehe.. for you people that dont know.. i prefer
831 over 143.. ;D so yea.. happy 831!! lol.. like that makes sense!! just yea.. i love yooou!!
haha.. this picture is great for today!! lol.. most of you saw it already.. but whatever!! haha.. i finally got it up!! or let's hope it'll show up!! *crosses fingers*
anyways.. my cousin diana left this morning with my uncle. the house is a lot quieter.. =X it's nice.. but i dont know.. it's also kind of empty.. my plans for the day are to hang with my bf later today..
oh man.. school is starting in.. 2 days.. eek.. haha.. dude..
i'm excited.. i want to meet some new people!! haha.. oh man.. yea.. i think i'm more excited than scared right now.. haha.. let's hope that feeling doesnt change.. =)
i was listening to hilary duff's "so yesterday" .. yesterday.. haha.. this one part stuck out..
"if you're over me.. then i'm already over you.." and "if you're moving on.. i'm already gone.." heh.. yea.. i just liked those parts.. =P haha.. then i finished 'the rescue' today! i liked the ending.. heh.. pretty sad though!! =( it was kind of predictable, but oh well.. still fun to read.. blub.. i feel like a book worm..
no more. =) have a good day you guys!!
* teresa 1:11 PM l
Saturday, August 30, 2003
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ALEX!!!!
yayy!! al of ex is now OLD!! hehe.. or yea.. LEGAL.. hope your day was great.. as it should be!! =)
today. i was woken up at 9 by the relatives yelling at each other. mm.. yea. i decided to ignore it & woke up around 11:30.. =P from there.. i showered. then went to zany brainy. argh. i have to go back next week. mm.. yea. then got myself some starbucks. i decided not to wait in the long butt line that was in jamba juice. freakn' crazy. um! then i went to visit clare @ the library.. =) hehe..
reading is good times. =) so i made her find me a book. lol.. she gave me "the resuce" by nicholas sparks.. it's interesting so far. =) i sat in there for a good hour reading! hehe.. then.. we went to coldstone.. dude.. the creations are good ish!! =) i think my ice cream places are ranked.. ben & jerrys to coldstone to baskin robbins.. heh.. yep yep.. we saw mrs herman! crazyy!! haha.. freakn a.. i dont think she recognized me.. =/ plus, i didnt know how to bring it up.. "SO.. do you know who i am?!" haha.. yea.. ima nerd.
came home. kevin came over! heh.. i was trying to amuse him with the things i had in my room.. which was not a lot.. haha.. dudee.. he almost touches my ceiling!! xT but yea! we went back to school shopping @ office depot.. ehehe.. i got 2 binders & 4 packs of paper for $3.97.. =D haha.. i dont know what else i need.. bleh.. then we went back to his house.. haha.. played risk.. which is a game.. the point of it is to
take over the world.. when he told me that.. i was thinking.. "john would loveee this game.." heh.. yep. but yea.. half way through his mom & i got sick of it.. lol.. so we decided to stop. then we watched 'tuck everlasting'.. & part of 'blue streak'.. now.. i'm at home!!
i talked to kat yesterday.. haha.. she's soooo coool.. not like she wasnt before, but yea!! i love my k!! =) we were talking about dudley visiting her.. & yea.. haha..
kat (3:45:09 PM): hehe i think thats why im not that unhappy here its cuz im looking forward to it
kat (3:45:14 PM): now once he leaves..
kat (3:45:16 PM): =((((((((
kat (3:45:27 PM): hehe u can be what i look forward to everyday teresa =P
kat (3:45:28 PM): hehe
me (3:45:54 PM): hehehe
me (3:45:55 PM): niceee
my friends are great!! =)
* teresa 8:29 PM l
Friday, August 29, 2003
so for the rest of yesterday, clare & i went to utc.. saw lots of BOX like cars on the way.. rawrr.. they're so darn ugly! haha.. but yea! i got my AE shirt.. weeeee.. we match!! hehe.. gots ta represent, ya know?! hehe.. so yea.. then we went to la jolla to watch the
sunset.. awww.. yayy.. that was cool.. we caught it right as it was going down.. but dang.. it went down fast!! lol.. but yea.. i think we sat out there for a good hour.. just talking & sitting.. good times.. =)
i like hanging with my oslagab!! <33
sooo i came home.. ahahaha.. teresa likes not eating!! weeeeeee!!! yea.. i dont know.. water is my substitute.. =P blub.. got bugged by my little cousin.. talked to marlon.. damnit.. i was supposed to call sam back & albert that night.. but yea.. sam made me treasurer of his "we saw mars" club.. lol..
i saw mars!! the other night!! i think wednesday? heh.. yea.. it was like the only bright & biggest star out there.. yep. then yea.. went to sleep around 1am..
charles (11:17:47 PM): i went to san diego the other day
charles (11:17:50 PM): didn't see you
charles (11:17:51 PM): so we left
me (11:18:48 PM): haha
me (11:18:49 PM): aww!
.. i miss talking to that guy!!! he makes me laugh.. =))
today.. i woke up at 6:30am.. showered.. picked up clare.. then we went to denny's in mira mesa.. yayy!!
BREAKFAST CLUB!! hehehe.. it was the breakfast club + some of the guys!! (glenda & anton, shaheen, vinnie, annie & leo, jane, clare & yours truly!) it was interesting.. haha.. shaheen & that waitress.. sooo hilarious..
clare: why arent you eating shaheen?
shaheen: cause i dont want to pay extra!!
lol!! oh man.. that's great stuff.. i was sooo full after eating breakfast.. which was my dinner & breakfast.. lol.. dang.. i swear.. not having a regular eating schedule is really messing with my stomach or something.. bleh.. =T oh wells.. soo i went home & took a 2 hour nap.. before being woken up at 12 to go dim sum with the family.. so we went to jasmine.. blub.. then they get into the topic of me not being able to speak chinese.. but understanding it.. rawr rawr.. yea.. i hate that.. but whatever.. THEN my freakn uncle goes on & on about comparing me to my other girl cousins.. "they're all skinny & you...." YEA... fuck that.. i seriously stopped eating. whatever.. i hate that.. i love how family is like that.. always judging & criticizing.. but out of love.. argh.. rawrr!!!
anyways.. yea.. i need to be productive. do laundry or something! sheesh. =P
* teresa 3:28 PM l
Thursday, August 28, 2003
man.. my blog is being weird.. & imagestation isnt letting me post pictures outside of their site.. just like all the other sites.. =( anyone know any good picture hosting sites?
yesterday.. wednesday was my grandpa's funeral.. it was just sad.... we'll leave it at that.
i also got to talk to monica for quite awhile last night.. heh.. i always love the conversations we have. but yea.. we talked about guys & relationships.. yea.. that's always a fun topic.. heh.. i realized.. that..
i miss liking someone.. i think the best example of the best relationship would have to be when i was with eddie.. hehe..
i like going down memory lane.. but yea.. it was 8th grade. he was in my algebra class.. i thought he was pretty cute.. =) halfway through the year.. we started talking as friends.. i always told him my guy troubles.. haha.. oh man.. then.. i think after evan (the guy i was crushing on that year) turned me down.. HAHA.. yea.. not like i ever had a chance.. but hey.. yea.. lena asked evan to go to the 8th grade dance with me.. but yea.. course he didnt know me.. soo dERr.. he said no. xP but that's okay! something good came out of it! .. eddie asked me. it was a great night. =) 3 red roses.. a beautiful ring & him telling me he liked me & asking me out during the last song of the night.. sometimes by britney spears.. & from there.. yea.. it was great. i remember both of us having pe 1st period.. & after pe.. we would meet in the middle & he'd walk me to class.. sigh.. & i remember all the girls in my classes teasing me.. everytime they said 'eddie'.. i would smile.. just like *that*.. i always had that tingling feeling with him too.. argh.. i'm such a loser for breaking up with him.. for the lamest reason ever.. "you're too nice.." .. SHIT.. if i knew guys would be not so nice & as sweet as he was... arRrgh.. yea.. he's the one guy i regret breaking up with.. & wonder the "what if's.." dang.. i miss those days..
ok.. that's a long paragraph. here's a new one.. heh.. but yea.. i want a guy.. who i'm friends with.. because it'd be better.. when monica was telling me about how she actually got that "tingling" feeling whenever she's with brian.. aww.. & how she gets weak in the knees.. dude.. i'm surrounded by couples..
"i want to be half of a couple.." (hehe.. my bf says the most quoteable stuff!) yea.. blahh.. & oh yea clare.. i think that guys being able to communicate & hold a conversation with you should be added onto the list.. i think that'd be a really good quality.. & with me.. i like guys that talk.. *preferrably not about themselves either* so yea.. guys that talk & share their opinions.. great trait.. sooo yea.. moving on..
you know what.. i like the fact that the people i talk to.. fluctuate.. it's never the same people.. it's kind of nice.. haha.. i know who's there for me always & those who arent.. heh.. oh wells.. yea.. random! =)
i just got home from going to csusm with clare.. we got our books.. BOO to them giving us new books when we wanted USED ones.. rawrr.. my total came out to 218 instead of 186.. & OOOH!! when i was preordering my books, only 3 showed up so i thought they didnt have any more of my 4th one.. NO?! i looked for it & there were like 20!! wtf?! w h a t e v e r ! ! =) so after that, we went to north county.. ehehehe.. AE shirts are great..
"alaska is for players" .. hehe.. that's SO for PB&J.. the PiMPiN bob & joebob.. =)
OH OH!! know what's AWESOME?! ..
clare & i have a class together!! weeeee.. we'll be study buddies for.. uhh.. that one class.. =P hehe.. yayy!! soooo coool!! =)))
yea. soo.. plans for later today.. utc? then la jolla beach to watch the sunset with my oslagab!! alrighty. my butt hurts. have a good day peoples!!
* teresa 1:48 PM l
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
i'm not tireddd...
my family got in yesterday. (tuesday) bad stuff happened. oh man.. my parents are oh so great at giving guilt trips. for serious. "you know.. in the car.. if you open your door.. there will be cars coming from both sides.." then.. in the parking lot.. "watch the cars next to you.." UHH.. the parked cars?! ... yea.. it's hilarious. heh.. um.. i got to see most of the group today.. it was nice. =)
i miss seeing everyone everyday at school.. so weird!! and for the girls.. we need to hold our breakfast club meetings!!! cause we havent for quite some time now.. xT so yea.. that was nice.. i liked it.. i wouldve been nicer if i couldve stayed to do some actual hanging out with everyone.. =)
after that.. went to dinner with the family.. i dont remember what the place was called.. "this used to be a mcdonalds".. "hey! that white guy can speak chinese... how cooool!!" .. "teresa looks like danny!!" .. yea.. that last one.. was bleh.. my 7 year old cousin diana kept saying that.. rawrrr!! it made MY self esteem lower.. =( then went to tapioca express. yum..
teresa wubs boba! then went to patrick's.. my boba melted.. =( then went home..
albert: shouldn't you be sleeping!
me: haha
me: what are you, my dad?!
me: =P
albert: no im albert or
albert: =)
me: hahaha
albert: no relation to you =)
me: cute albert .. cute
albert: lolz
yayy.. that's why he's my super nerd!!! that's super hott!! =)
..
my brother & sister are fun to hang out with!! =)
man.. a lot of people are talking about school.. i kind of want it to start.. & i kind of dont want it to.. heh.. i'm getting my books with clare on thursday.. crazyy!! =) i want to try to crash a math class.. because as lena pointed out.. it's hard to take math after not taking it for awhile.. bleh.. that's why i took a stupid math class last year instead of.. no math.. =P ooh.. while we're still talking about school.. heh.. i've been reading ame & lily's journals & YEA!! they have barber!! oh man.. i cant stress on how cool he is!! haha.. & in ame's journal.. she's all talking about the song.. "tv.. is the drug of the nation" HECK YEA.. it's a real song!! (Television, the drug of the nation by Disposable Heroes of Hiphoprisy) and the lecture on slaves & philosophers.. aww..
greatest lecture ever.. i remember it.. =))
anyways.. i really want to put up part of a reply monica wrote me after i somewhat to her about.. guys.. haha..
"YES i agree that guys should be blunt with their feelings..it would make half the population much easier to understand haha...im really sorrie you had to go thru this..u'll meet someone else..let love find u..forget about guys..they're jus a side dish anyway..jus here to please us once in a while when we want them too..
their main purpose in life really is to grovel to us..hahah"
.. NICE!! .. i am SO havin' that.. ;D
jonson: yo yo bonqueesha
jonson: up in the hizzy?
jonson: wow.... went for the natural look on the buddy icon eh?
me: haha
me: =P
me: whatre u doing still up?
jonson: you just went hunting for food.... we're ALL awake
me: hahaha
aww!! i miss jonson teasing me about that!! hahaha.. oh man..
man.. it bugs me when people say they'll call back & they dont.. rawrr.. i remembered talking to mike the other night.. "keep your line open!" haha.. cutee!! too bad he didnt call back.. lol. oh well.. so if i ever sound surprised when you call me back.. it's because yea.. i've stopped expecting people to call me back.. heck..
i'm happy whenever people call me in the first place.. i'm always like "whaat.. who's calling me? i have no friends!" heh..
dude. everyone in my house is awake. what the feegeE?! but yea.. i should get off now.. watch part of shrek.. get a few hours of sleep before 6am.. then.. yea.. long sad day coming up... =/ man.. yea.... goodnight..
* teresa 3:29 AM l
Monday, August 25, 2003
HAHAHA.. looking back on that post (..which is now deleted.. haha.. no one needs to know all of thaaaaat!!) makes me laugh.. i'm so stupid.. =)
but yea.. as i've been saying.. but half-heartly believing.. and NOW i REALLY mean when i say that..
I'M OVER IT!!!
last night.. i realized.. how yea.. i probably never liked marlon.. i just liked the idea of someone caring for me... but then.. maybe i did.. i dont know.. then.. this morning.. i thought about the whole situation.. if he's really leaning towards his ex.. why am i even bothering? .. plus.. it's not like it's my loss.. cause (hey hey.. clare.. you're going to like this!!) ...
"how can you lose something you never had?" ... =D lol.. but yea.. he's a great friend.. just maybe not potential boyfriend for me? yea. oh wells. sooooo i hope he'll be happy with jen.. whenever they hook up! =)
and yea.. if you guys think i'm like.. saying that out of bitterness or just because.. well.. no. i really mean it. i mean.. why would you wish someone happiness but not mean it? especially me?! dang.. lame. haha.. but yea.. i dont know..
i'd rather have a friend than no friend.. =)
soooo..
patience is a virtue.. too bad i'm impatient.. but if i'm patient & in turn.. get a great guy later on.. yeaaa.. i just cant wait for that day.. =)
my friends give me hope.. =)
kat (1:53:01 AM): haha i'll keep a look out for nicer guys here
kat (1:53:02 AM): =)
kat (1:53:12 AM): i'll tell dudley to too
me (1:53:21 AM): haha
me (1:53:22 AM): yayyy
me (1:53:23 AM): =)
kat (1:53:24 AM): so u kno.. u have 2 of the 52 states covered
kat (1:53:25 AM): =P
me (1:53:27 AM): LOL
me (1:53:29 AM): nicee
me (1:53:36 AM): i'll tell debb to keep a lookout in reno
kat (1:53:42 AM): haha wait.. if u add SD n LV thats 5
kat (1:54:02 AM): haha thats more than most girls get in their lifetime
kat (1:54:03 AM): =P
me (1:54:11 AM): LOL
me (1:54:16 AM): whOoo
me (1:54:22 AM): but lv & reno count as one state kat!
me (1:54:23 AM): =P
kat (1:54:29 AM): oh yea!!!
kat (1:54:30 AM): hahahaha
kat (1:54:46 AM): well.. how about.. u got 5 cities..
kat (1:55:00 AM): haha wait.. no.. 5 outta alot doesnt sound as good
kat (1:55:03 AM): 4 outta 52
kat (1:55:06 AM): thats still good
kat (1:55:07 AM): =P
me (1:55:09 AM): LOL!
sam (2:03:28 AM): its going to be his lost on wat kind of person he could of been wit
sam (2:05:04 AM): your a great person to be wit and if he chose to be wit someone else hes going to be missing out on lot of things
me (2:05:15 AM): awww
me (2:05:17 AM): =)))
sam (2:05:33 AM): hey u are a great person to hang out wit and everything
me (2:06:36 AM): =)))
alan (2:29:18 AM): wat if i found ou a guy
alan (2:29:24 AM): and he had friedns with benefits
alan (2:29:27 AM): what would u think of ath
me (2:30:25 AM): errr
me (2:30:25 AM): bleh
me (2:30:27 AM): dirrty
alan (2:31:42 AM): haha
alan (2:31:46 AM): so none of that
me (2:31:58 AM): haha
me (2:32:00 AM): YEA
me (2:32:03 AM): no thanks
me (2:32:04 AM): =)
alan (2:32:05 AM): gotcha
alan (2:32:06 AM): haha
me (2:32:07 AM): haha
alan (2:32:28 AM): well its hard to find a specific guy liekt hat
me (2:32:32 AM): whaat?
me (2:32:33 AM): haha
alan (2:32:34 AM): i mean i bet i can
me (2:32:38 AM): uh huh...
alan (2:32:42 AM): but hell prolly be all dweebed out
alan (2:32:42 AM): haha
alan (2:32:44 AM): jp
me (2:32:50 AM): man!
me (2:32:51 AM): haha
i KNOW its lame of me to
FINALLY figure all of this bullshit out.. but HEY.. at least i finally got it figured out, right?! hehe.. i bet chris is proud!! & clare & michele & everyone else that didn't like the idea of me & the *fish*.. haha..
sooooo yea.. let me talk about the rest of my sunday..
lena invited me over to her place to bond.. *ahem* and soooo since i knew no one else would be down.. or be allowed out.. i asked marlon to go with me.. that poor sucker. so we met up with her, ricky & johnny @ TGIFridays.. then went back to her place.. haha.. i hate small parking spots!! rawrr.. but yea.. it was quite interesting.. haha.. met her neighbors john & dave.. fun..
alright.. so if you guys dont want to know about me getting wasted.. skip this paragraph.. and yea.. if you know me.. you should know that i only drink when i'm stressed & BOY OH BOY.. have i been stressed.. i know drinking isnt the answer.. but i know that when i drink.. i get calm.. & yea.. that's the start of how i started realizing lots of stuff afterwards!! haha.. soo yea.. if you dont want to read.. skip.. if not.. then read... yepp.. soooo... i've decided that i dont like MGD at ALL.. from the 2 sips i had... YUCK.. fuckn gross shit.. then i think john made lena a screaming orgasm on the beach.. yeaaa.. i thought it tasted like medicine.. =X THEN.. lena made me a flaming dr. pepper (mgd + bacardi 151 & something else) or whatever.. haha.. yea.. that was a LOT.. DAMN.. my stomach was freakn warm.. and my face.. DAMN my low alcohol tolerance.. ehhh.. haha.. i felt bad for marlon.. i think he was bored.. & i was being so freakn weird.. nickel?! =) so yea.. just sat & chilled there.. sobered up.. lena's so funny.. she made me go on the balcony with her, john & dave.. she was like "this is teresa.. she's SINGLE.." lol.. then when i was still out of it.. i was telling lena to find me a guy.. haha.. "he's aiiiite".. =) funny shit..
but yea.. when i was all sober.. i called up my sister at like 1:30.. because i left my cell in lena's apt.. xT and yeaa... BIG ASS MISTAKE... my sister & mom have been trying to get a hold of me & yea..
it was BAD..... but i ended up sleeping over at lena's..
when i woke up.. i just laid in bed.. thinking... about my grandpa.. john.. my sister.. mom.. how they cared.. but i dont know.. is everyone caring extra more than usual because of ... certain events? probably. =/ sigh.... i felt like the crappiest sister this morning for even being mad at my sister for looking out for me... & my mom.. yelled at me for good reasons...... rawr.. soo yea.. i'm going to be house bound cept for the majority of whatever we have left of summer.. cept for the exceptions of hanging with the group on tuesday & getting my books with clare on thursday... oooweeee..
so yea.. while everyone else was still sleeping.. i was out in their living room thinking.. just looking up at the blue skies & the palm trees outside their nice big window.... it was nice... if you guys dont know.. i have a tendency for looking up at the sky whenevers now.. especially when it's clear.. i just like.. thinking that john & my grandpa are up there looking down on us.... yea.. i'm a big nerd like that... x] so yea.. i was just thinking.. that i shouldnt dwell on things such as the whole "my sister did it before.. sooo why am i getting the 2nd degree" bs.. i need to fuckn grow up.. but then double standards suck.. but then.. that was their way of showing they cared.. ahhh.. yeaa.. then the whole marlon thing.. why am i going to chase after him if he's going for someone else who's interested in him also? pffft.. dang.. sooo i totally gave up on that.. =)))) i'm so happy about that.. lol.. it's really not affecting me..
last night.. when i was venting to lena about everything.. eunice, marlon & dave came into the room & we were talking about.. guys.. lena was saying how she still gets hurt if she goes after a guy & he doesnt like her.. yea.. & i said.. it's the whole idea of rejection..
rejection is one of the worst feelings... bleh.. it is.. but whatever.
i dont know.. it's kind of weird how i thought about all of this after.. uhh.. events from last night.. i like having marlon as just a friend.. & knowing that my family cares for me.. friends also!! =))) yayy..
I LOVE MY PEOPLE!! ^^
* teresa 5:25 PM l
Saturday, August 23, 2003
REST IN PEACE
QING YAN SITU
2.11.1924 - 8.21.2003
... i miss my *Yea Yea*... =*********(
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i can honestly say.. this is the worst summer ever.
i feel so... empty. like i have no feelings or emotions. but i do. they're all over the place.
i cant believe this happened.. after John's passing... i dont know.. it's all.. still.. surreal. i was already missing John.. now i miss my Grandpa also..... then.. seeing all my family members.. my Grandpa's sons.. my uncles.. & dad.. i cant even image what they're going through.. & i wouldnt want to know right now... i've just been hit with all this saddness in the past 2 months. i HATE it. make it go away. *SIGH* ........it's really crazy. my summer after senior year.. the summer where we all live it up.. is now the summer i'll remember as.. a harsh slap in the face as to what the real world is going to be like... people are telling me that death is a natural process of life.. i dont know... it had a different meaning to it before this summer.. i never really thought about it.. until now. it really teaches you to live life to the fullest, do your best/work hard, take chances/risks, & make the best of everything. i hate how these events had to occur for me to learn something like that... it just... bites. like, everyone would tell me all of what i just listed, but now... it has a more meaningful lesson behind it......
* teresa 9:04 PM l
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
today!! was actually fun!! had myself some good times with the guys.. =)
yeaa.. haha.. i got to hang out with
my favorite san diego guys (vinnie & chris) today.. =) they're fun.. haha.. so freakn' mean.. calling me by my middle name.. xT saying it WRONG too!! haha.. geez.. you can at least try to say it right.. =P sooo yea.. went around to.. circuit city.. "you can read! .. i can too!" .. haha.. then barnes & noble.. "c d b" by um.. some author's name who starts with an S.. =P vinnie didnt like it!! pssh!! then.. we went to.. borders.. then best buy.. i got the YELLOWCARD cd!! omb..
RYAN KEY is SOOOO HOTT!!! dangg!! SO worth the $14!! haha.. i'm a nerd.. =)) then.. went to chris' house.. i loveeee his chair!! =) hehe.. sat around.. it was nice just.. hanging.. haha.. then vinnie brought me home..
i got home.. my grandma told me my friend came by.. haha.. i guessed that it was clare.. =) i was right!! lol.. so yea.. just sat around.. then dinner.. then hung out with the sis of ter.. went to walmart & target..
*beep beep*.. omb.. embarrassing.. thanks a lot!! haha.. then came home.. & she made me watch this chinese movie about a PiG!! named mcdull!! .. omb.. wtf?! .. it was funny.. ("once upon a time.. there was a boy that lied.. the next day.. he died!") but DANG.. what a LONG movie.. xT
so yea. tonight.. i've been hearing a bunch of stories on how guys are being such ASSHOLES.. oh man.. just whatever. i seriously want to burn all of YEA.. or throw that stuff away.. -.- i was talking to clare earlier about this whole.. thing.. it sucks because we're both in the same boat.. it sucks.. but it's cool because we can relate.. but
RAWR.. why did he have to make everything so fuckn complicated?! .. man.. right now.. i'm just thinking.. "chris was right.. i should have listened to him.." so yea.. it sucks.. because i'm still freakn' confused.. but then.. everyone's been giving me the thumbs down on this guy.. i know he can be .. a good guy .. i think back on all the good stuff.. like.. i dont know.. how we used to talk on the phone for hours til the early morning.. now.. yea.. a different girl on his mind.. just.. whatever.. am i assuming things? i dont know.. the whole day.. i've been mad.. because i thought that.. everyone was being messed up.. like i was thinking.. "why cant i be friends with him even if he doesnt like me??" .. and now i know.. it's
HARD.. but just.. having him out of my life like *that* would be like erasing my whole summer.. i turned to him in my times of sorrow, anger, boredom & happiness.. arghh.. i dont know what to do....
debb: ah u shouldnt waste ur emotion on him
debb: ur moving on to
debb: bigger and better things
debb: =)
debb: and plus if he obviously thinks u not good enough to treat u liek this
debb: there is no reason to waste time on him
debb: find a really nice white guy
debb: =)
me: aww.. man.. i wish i could have a guy like yur guyses..
debb: one day...it'll be worth the wait
debb: ______ seems super cool
debb: hint hint
debb: lol
me: hahaha
me: oh mann
annie: me n clare were talking about how much we missed you!
annie: we also missed teasing you... heheh
... =) they helped.. kind of.. but i am SO confused.. you dont even know..
* teresa 12:19 AM l
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
[ monday, o8.18.o3 ]
woke up at 7am & eventually left vegas @ approx. 8:30am. whoo. haha.. the 5 hour trip was FUN.. -.- as all car trips are!! =P but yea.. my mom told me some interesting stuff.. the thing about my brother & the retirement home.. *shakes fist* .. messed up!! lol.. stupid brother.. may & i still need to have a "talk" with him!! sooo my mom & i were talking about relationships.. haha.. i'm allowed to have a boyfriend!! lol.. that's funny.. it was pretty cool because i asked if it had to be a chinese guy.. etc.. & she was like "i would prefer it.. but it's your life.." & etc.. =) good stuff! then we talked about.. stuff.. =P i dont know.. i just learned about how much my parents had to go through to bring their families over to the US to create better opportunities for us kids. i dont know.. i have a LOT more respect for them..
um.. sooo got in sd around 1:30.. freakn' sister.. haha.. didnt help us bring all the junk in.. rawr.. but yea.. we took a trip to ikea.. i got a shelf!! yay!! then we went to costco.. i got my contact solution.. YAY!! lol.. 2 big bottles.. for $12.. heck yea!! haha.. i'm a nerd.. then.. went to walmart.. then went home.. sat around.. then had dinner.. then visited my grandpa in the hospital... =/
after i got home..it was 8:30ish.. YEA.. i was going to drop something off at marlon's.. too bad he was at tapioca express in convoy.. so since i had nothing better to do.. i went.. after calling lena up to meet me there.. yea.. i forgot the thing i wanted to give him.. but yea!! i got to see lena!! & meet stephanie!! she's freakn cooL! haha.. but it's cool how she's going to move in with lena.. yep yep!! hm.. which reminds me.. i'm supposed to call lena later.. but yea.. they left early.. =/ so i just hung with marlon & dean.. then left.. then felt.. BLAH.. sooo driving 90 on the 15 is good times!! -.- not really...
came home. talked to vinnie. haha.. i get to hang with the guys later this week!! YAYY!!! GOOD TIMES!! =)
then.. i talked to albert.. the super nerd!! =) he's so cool.. lol.. and fun to make fun of!! haha.. we're both cursed!! .. yep.. =( but i dont know.. talking to some people.. helped me feel.. not so bad..
[ tuesday, o8.19.o3 ]
i need to pay for my books, id, parking permit, & get a shot..
woke up at 4:40am.. my sister & i brought my mom to the airport.. dang.. blahh!!
i cant wait til kevin comes back!!!! =D
sooo you know what? when i say "this is stupid.. but.. " & tell you anyways.. you dont need to freakn' tell me how stupid i am.. or like.. degrade me.. it's what i did already & i cant go back & change my actions... and it coming from you.. yea.. that just sucks.. whatever.
katrina left to go to NM this morning!!! =(
my sister wants to go up to LA next sunday..sooo i might see al of ex?? =))))
* teresa 12:11 PM l
Sunday, August 17, 2003
so my last day in vegas goes as followed:
woke up! & bugged my mom about taking me shopping.. =P but instead, i went with katrina around.. 1? we went to drop her car off to get an oil change.. or whatever.. but they said it'd only take 10 minutes.. sooo we went to baskin robbins!! haha.. my last summer job.. =P whOo.. saw my old manager.. it was kind of cool.. i think the girl was in training.. sucker. then went back to my house. worked on the tkd site. then went to meadows.
we sat amanda, joe & teresa in AE!! haha.. funny.. walked around.. i was trying to look for brown shirts. mission not accomplished. T.T then debb joined us.. then we took booth pictures.. HAHAHA.. we all liked the 3rd one.. =) good stuff.. then went back to my house.. at my house.. we sat around.. talked.. blahblah.. yep.
so dinner!! was at espn zone.. 7pm.. the people that came: TKD, brian, chris, andy & iris, christie & kenny, hanna, teresa, joe & amanda, juan, nick, jonson, bruce & sarah, albert, ame, lily, sam, stephanie & anna.. nice big group.. haha.. i kept moving to different tables because i thought people were being bored.. or feeling left out.. or yea.. i just wanted to talk to everyone.. sooo i hope i did a somewhat good job at that.. xP um.. dinner was.. BIG.. haha.. i had the espn burger.. YEA.. i gave 1/4th of it to chris.. THANKS!! hehe.. kat gave him a 1/4th too.. soo he got a half! haha.. we should have shared.. xT OH!! ame & lily to the E gave TKD cards.. that was sweet.. THANKS GiRLiES!! =) um.. what was interesting? .. my life altering decision on having mayo & mustard on the side.. hehe.. omb.. the HOUSE thing.. you'll see what i mean in the pictures.. lol.. i think i was scaring jonson lots for some reason.. haha.. but yea.. for some ODD reason.. i was really HAPPY.. like REALLY happy.. lol.. he was like O.O!! haha.. nicee.. i tried to sell albert's watch to brian.. "it's for $100.." 'but it has a scratch' "ok fine.. $95!" =) then.. i dont know.. it was just nice.. i loved hanging out with everyone.. and seeing everyone.. =)
i LOVE MY VEGAS FRiENDS LOTS!! <333
after dinner, we were deciding where to go. what to do. it was decided that we were to go bowling @ the orleans.. too bad the majority didnt go.. oh well.. so yea.. said my goodbyes.. aww..
i LOVE GREAT BiG LONG HUGS!!!!! =)))))) haha.. it was cute how andy was like telling me to go over.. then "1..2..3..!!" and him & chris hugging me.. =)) i loved it. i TOTALLY LOVED it.. =)) so then we all parted ways..
THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO GO HANG OUT WITH US BEFORE WE ALL LEFT BY THE WAY!!! =))
kat brought me home. i made her hug me. hehe.. then jonson gave me a hug too.. =) then i finished packing. called mike. sooo nice. =) he still owes me a dance.. him taking 3 minutes to talk to me before going to eat made me feel special.. lol.. i'm a nerd.. =P then i talked to albert.. "call me.. put me to sleep".. i took it as a bad thing.. haha.. as in.. i'm boring so i'll make him sleepy.. lol.. but nahh.. albert was being nice. =) debbie came by.. i was happy because i didnt want to leave on bad terms either.. so yea.. =) then debbie left..
i called albert back.. haha.. he's fun to talk to.. "give me the scoop".. then i start telling him how i went to baskin robbins earlier.. "oOH.. they got a new flavor!!" LOL!! =P but yea.. it was fun.. i didnt realize that i've known him for 4 years.. DANG.. & it all started with kitty going up to albert saying how i wanted to meet henry.. xP oh man.. haha.. oh well..albert's a super nerd that's super hott! plus, i'm master albert's slave!! haha.. ;D
ahhh.. talking of people i've talked to.. i got to talk to andy.. i missed talking to my 6/10ths cool homAy.. it was nice talking to him.. i should call him more.. =)
but yeaaa... overall.. it was a pretty good night out with all my friends.. =) i LOVE YOU GUYSES!! =) & i'm going to miss you.. =( so you all better
KEEP IN TOUCH.. or i'll have to go back to kick your butts!! =P
* teresa 11:10 PM l
......... i'm sad.
so... i'm the next domino to fall.. =( man..i swear.. junior year was the best.. i wish things would stay that way forever. but.. yea.. if it were like that, we would never move forward... right? ...
but yea.. i'm really depressed now. this is.. it. everyone has been saying sunday night is going to be the last night we're all going to see each other.. gee.. what a way to be optimistic! -.- but i dont know.. it might have it's own truth to it.. i mean.. i just look back on this past year.. & rawr! it makes me feel.. sad.. & disappointed i guess in how people have changed.. and i dont know.. i'm trying not to let things get to me.. but sometimes i just cant help it.....
i hate this feeling!! .. when i leave las vegas.. i feel bad for leaving my friends behind.. but i'm happy when i see my san diego friends & vice versa.. man... =((((((
* teresa 2:47 AM l
Saturday, August 16, 2003
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JOHN JOHN!!!
i looked back on my posts & this is what i remember you put this in my birthday card: "anyways, hope you have a happy birthday. eat some chicken (not that one) & drink some.. whatever you wanna drink (just not that) haha.." .... =) the message goes to you also - i hope you're doing well.. eating all that chicken!! (any yummy kind!) & drinking... YEAA!!! lol..
I LOVE YOU JOHN JOHN!!! <333
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[ friday, o8.15.o3 ]
had myself some katrina time.. lol.. we visited someone today.. funny!! =) "wait until you go back to san diego to find a boyfriend!" and.. "you dont need a boyfriend! being single is good!!" haha.. or something like that.. and "have ______ look for good chinese guys for you!! they're good looking too!!" LOL.. it was just great... then we hung out & eventually ended up at cue d's for debb's surprise going away party..
"i was out all night with some STRANGER, but they said it was okay for me to come home all late!!" .. lol.. riiight.. great excuse!! .. especially if you're half concentrated!! hehehe.. all i've got to say is.. DARN iT.. i wish i could've bonded with debbie.. "i like you better buzzed.." ... =P and "i can ACT like i'm DRUNK!!!" hehe.. oOH!! i got to CAKE debbie.. hehe.. i know i know.. it's dirty.. but it's FUNNY!!! =) too bad juan & everyone else made me feel bad afterwards! =( um.. mark & ron (was that his name??) were interesting!! haha.. "the fao schwarz girl that works on the 2nd floor!!" good ish.. "teresa pride!!!" yeaaa!!! lol.. debbie was just being funny.. omb.. speaking chinese & all.. lol.. damn.. then the skyy blue made me remember.. yea.. last summer.. first time bonding.. the good ol' TKD + JA days... sigh.. but.. weeeeeeee.. yeaa.. anna was sooo hilarious.. "the wind beat me up!" let's see.. what else what else... haha.. i got the blue chalk thing on my shirt.. on the chest area.. brian was all like "oH.. you missed a spot!" lol.. dang.. oOH!! the dancing of debbie & david.. DANG.. he's a good dancer!! ;D hott too! looked just like an a&f model! mm.. yea.. i dont know.. debbie's other friends are fuN people.. =) some things said & done tonight.. just made me smile.. =D yea... then my mom finally called me.. so i had to go.. *honk* hehe.. ok yea.. done!
* teresa 12:33 AM l
Thursday, August 14, 2003
you know.. i think it's somewhat refreshing hanging out with old friends you're on somewhat okay terms with.. haha.. IF that made sense!! =P but yea.. i hung out with sandy today. we went to the forums. had lunch @ the cheesecake factory and then we parted.. it was nice.. we got to talk a little.. but one question she asked me.. i couldn't answer.. doing what i do best.. i laughed it off.. followed with some good ol' teresa gibberish..
what was the question? well, we were on the topic of why i wouldnt move back.. "what's so wrong with us vegas people then??" ... nothing.. WELL.. some people DO have their freakn' drama.. but then i never got into it with people because it was always STUPiD iSH.. -.- some people never learn.. but yea.. i guess she was referring to my friends.. and i dont know.. i always get blah whenever that topic comes up.. i would do anything for my vegas peoples.. (JAKD) .. but i dont know.. we're all going to be going off in our different directions & junk.. soooo blah.. plus.. i think that if i stay in vegas.. it's like staying where my comfort zone is.. life is not all about comfort.. there are lots of challenges/obstacles/bullshit you go through in life.. sooo ahhh... =/
AND THEN!!! when i was hanging out with teresa (haha.. "are you guys related??" 'what...?? yea.. because we have the same first name??' .. haha.. funny.. =) yeaa.. we got onto that topic.. like me leaving vegas.. not having so many friends when i came back.. it shows who your real friends are.. because they're the ones that kept in touch.. i mean.. yea.. it really hurts that some people couldn't find the time to talk to me throughout the year.. i mean.. its nice when they acknowledge you whenever they see you, but it's not the same.. it's "mexican" like that.. but i guess it's cool how i have two groups of friends.. "spreading your friendship throughout the world".. or something like that.. haha.. i mean.. its cool & all.. but it reminds me of the whole "karen two two" thingie.. haha.. if you guys ever read "the babysitter's club", you know what i'm talking about! =P she has two sets of everything.. cause her parents are divorced.. blahblah.. but me.. i dont know.. two sets of friends.. two houses.. two rooms.. etc.. yeaa..
then yea.. when i got home from being out.. my parents.. er.. rather my MOM started to freakn' lecture me.. or nag at me about stuff.. it makes me mad.. but yea.. thanks for the cute/caring messages people.. lily's was the cutest..
lily: no! stop your day from sucking, teresa to the A!
Auto response from me: this day is suddenly starting to suck...
lily: you should intimidate it. tell it you'll kick its ass.
lily: that should do it.
lily: if it doesnt. it has lily to the A to answer too! -shrieks from the audience-.
.. i also talked to my bf today.. =( GUYS ARE SCUM!! omb.. rawrr.. i wish i could say something to make you stop thinking about it.. or being so down... =( you just wait! we'll eat all the cookies & creme ice cream we can.. then go jogging!! then make use of your punching bag!! (or your brother's!!).. =)
i LOVE YOU CLARE!!
* teresa 10:54 PM l
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
today! i hung out with ame for the first half of the day. haha.. we went to eat lunch @ red lobster.. on the way there.. "two corners..." '.. there are 4..' .. xP hehe.. oOh.. but yea.. the bread there is yummy in my tummy. lol.. =P after lunch.. we went to my house.. & watched lotr2.. omb.. long movie. but it was cool.. ame was having fun.. haha.. =) debbie showed up halfway through the movie.. the moving treees!! haha.. "you're not being slow enough!!" =( haha.. then debb's statement!!! omb..
".. and the people without hair have HEADS.." LOL!!! =) hehe.. love ya debbie!! =P
after i dropped ame off.. i went to drop something off.. then went to walmart.. on the way there.. i saw the hottie dan webb driving behind me!!! =))) dang.. SO HOTT!! .. haha.. good stuff.. then came home.. finished my secret mission!! yayy.. no more!! then yea.. cleaned a little..
i found out what cologne austuny wore: azzaro chrome.. NiCEEE.. =)
soooo yea.. i've been trying to call people for sunday.. but i've been talking to some i havent in awhile..sooo that's always good.. =)
the rest of my stay in vegas will go as follows:
thursday: forums w/ sandy then....?
friday: pick up paycheck, bank (visit bruce!), then i dont know..
saturday: cemetary in the morning.. then john's thing..
sunday: hang with family? then espn zone thing at 7..
monday: planning to leave at 6am. so i'll be in sd around 11? gime a call. i want to feel special. haha..
my K is back in las vegas!!!!!!!! =D
debb: ah i'm gonna find myself some hot white guy
debb: i freakn swea
debb: haha
me: man.. you could do it
debb: do well in schoo
me: =)
me: haha
debb: and find 'him'
me: =)
debb: haha we'll both do it
debb: puhahaha
debb: we'll take over
debb: haha
me: =D
me: haha
me: good stuff
after her 4 attempts:
debb: blow drying my haRR. [ }-~ (/'_;\)
[]
me: wtF
me: LOL!!
.. gotta love boredom! =)
vinnie: your two fave guys are in the room right now
vinnie: and he says ur so hot
vinnie: and we want to give you this 8=======D
vinnie: x2
vinnie: yeah
vinnie: QUIETGIRL AWAY!
me: hahaha
me: niceee!
vinnie: haha
vinnie: wahts with the lack of verbal action?
me: sorry!
me: on the phone!
vinnie: oh
vinnie: so chris and i arent important enough?
vinnie: were taking our cocks back then
me: NO!
me: lol
vinnie: haha
vinnie: you have sexy eyes
vinnie: chris says: if you can find them
vinnie: haha, but seriously, i liek your eyes, theyre cool
vinnie: even tho i mess with them
me: hahaha
hahaha.. oh man.. the guyss.. SO great.. =) TKD to DKT?! hahaha.. NEVER!! =D
i got to talk to my oslagab last night.. dudee?! i didnt know jane was moving.. or that she worked at jamba?! wtheck!! rawrr.. =/ i havent really talked to anyone in the group cept for clare, vinnie & chris.. =/
anyways.. this is a long post.. haha.. thanks to the interesting convo's i posted! haha.. good times you guys.. =)
* teresa 9:41 PM l
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
i like the quote in allan's info:
"Men have to work on enough emotions while speaking, females have to work on restraint." - Jim Rohn
oooh yea.. SOOOOOOOO true.. =)
on
MONDAY.. i didn't do much? haha..i got to hang out with people in the afternoon.. brian & the whole bandaid thing was funny.. "i dont remember putting this here.." lol.. and then the whole
"we love will!!" thing.. oh man!! the las vegas guys.. gotta love them!!! =))) they make me smile.. lol..
then!! i did some errands with my mom.. went & did the smog check thing.. saw gary there.. lol.. then later in the day, i met up with austuny at fashion show.. bought stuf.. visited erick at work!! that was fun.. haha.. "you paid $3 for this?! .. stuff is missing.. like the stuff inside?!" lol.. =P but yea.. austuny & i walked around.. he drove me to my car.. his civic is niceee.. haha.. so clean!! (it better be if you took 3 hours washing it!! xP) but yea.. we hung out at tea planet playing card games.. i was actually winning!! hehe.. YAYY!! =) yep yep.. i like austuny's hugs... and his cologne! =P
soooo came home.. did loads of nothing. lots of thinking. haha.. bLaRr. then got to talk to marlon. man.. i'm soooo confused. =(
today is
TUESDAY.. i got to get lunch at sushi factory with my other half.. went to pick up my swim suit from goosey.. then.. came home.. showered.. sat around.. watched movies. i feel like cleaning my house dude.. i'm weird..
i think we should have a movie night.. yea??
you know what.. i'm sad. i dont want to think about all of us leaving.. & yea.. yesterday.. i noticed the lackage of people to hang out with.. because it's usually the K or D or A.. TKDA baybee.. *sigh*.. yea.. i dont know.. it sucks.. i'm just.. sad.. we're the only ones moving away.. and blahblah!! =/ i guess i'm just sad & scared that we'll lose touch? =/ but we all have las vegas.. it'll be our meeting spot for when we're back in town on beaks, right? ...
.... should i bring my yearbook back to san diego with me?
i'm talking to my bf.. yayy!! i miss you oslagab!!!
tosze: man..seriously..he makes me confused..mad and happy and sad all at the same time
oslagab: you hate em..but then you gotta love em
oslagab: don't worry teresa
oslagab: that's why we have girls in our lives :D
oslagab: we make stuff better in the world ne waise
.. good one. =)
yea. i should get off. online is not that amusing anymore.
* teresa 5:46 PM l
Monday, August 11, 2003
i really like talking to vinnie & chris.. they never fail at making me feel better.. about any situation.. chris puts it into perspective.. or well.. actually.. he just tells me how it is.. & i feel stupid because i know how it is.. i just needed to hear it from someone.. (HAHAHA.. omb.. did that make sense?!) and then vinnie.. is just great. =) so
THANKS YOU GUYS!!
vinnie: no need for worries
vinnie: its just ______
vinnie: you still gots me n chris!
me: yea.. you guys make me happy
me: =)
vinnie: duh, thats my purpose for living
vinnie: making turrressah happy
vinnie: haha
vinnie: and eating meat
me: aww
me: =))
vinnie: theyre both up there
vinnie: haha
me: aww
me: youre cool
me: =)
vinnie: but yeah
vinnie: you'll be swimmin in cali guys when you get back
vinnie: college guys too
vinnie: hopefuly more mature, but probably not, haha
me: haha
vinnie: its not always a bad thing tho, heh
me: i dont know.. not worth my time.. right chris?
chris: well obviously
chris: ive been telling you that since you told me about the jackass
chris: he's not even thinkin' about you, its not worth the effort
me: yea....
me: grrrrrrr...
me: what a waste of a guy!!
chris: heh, theres a lotta other better guys out there
chris: don't worry about it
chris: its not worth the stress
chris: 8===========D
chris: vinnie said to send that to you
me: hahahaha
chris: and i agreed it'd be a good idea
chris: nothin' like a digital cock to cheer you up
me: hahaha
- then onto another topic -
chris: just gotta go in with a positive attitude
chris: attitude really is everything
chris: especially when you're in your downtimes ya know?
me: yea..
chris: no sense in ever feeling sorry for yourself
chris: things happen when they happen, just depends on how you wanna take it
then there's also michele.. haha.. but yeaa.. we're just having a nice convo with the words "fuck" "guys" "gay" "mother fuckers" repeated many times.. GOOD TIMES..
oh yea.. BITTER-FUCKIN-NESS..
i cant help but then what john would have to say about this.. haha.. i think he'd be like.. "teresa, go yell at him & tell him it's over & that you like someone else".. or something like that.. just so that.. i could reject the guy before he rejects me? haha.. aw. i miss him...
whatever.. as the guys would say..
i'M OVER iT!!!!
* teresa 1:20 AM l
Sunday, August 10, 2003
yesterday was somewhat unproductive for the majority.. haha.. i even watched 'scooby doo'.. the movie.. xP oh yea.. my
oslagab called me!! =) she told me some interesting and GOOD stuff.. it made me
smile.. =)) then around.. 5.. debb came to pick me up & we went over to amanda & teresa's.. there we just sat around & yeaaa.. haha.. around 7.. we (teresa, amanda, debbie, nick, kelly & myself) left to go to the
paintballing place.. yeaa.. the whole thing was interesting.. it was freakn hot wearing 2 layers.. at least it wasnt during the daytime? =P but yea! i got hit 2x!! only because i ran out of ammo after the 2nd game.. lol.. i got hit in the arm & the head.. xT haha.. i have a bruise on my arm!! =DD haha.. whOoo!! after paintballing.. we went back to amanda & teresa's.. then we went out to eat at
chevy's.. yep.. then debb drove me home & yea.. that was my yesterday..
today!! .. hm.. hanging out with my mom & maybe swimming? i just want to tan.. my legs.. =P
soo.. i have a total of
8 days before going back to san diego. so much to do!
- finish up *stuff*
- buy film for camera..
- buy batteries for cd player..
- pick up my swim suit from my mui mui..
- go pick up my last paycheck & turn in card
- visit john on the 16th..
- hang out with everyone again..
- p a c k . . =/ yea.. its always depressing..
should i have a get together before i go? just like last summer? it'd have to be on the 15th or 17th..
[ EDiTED @ 11:28 pm ]
sooo.. i hung out with my mom today.. yep. fun stuff.. i learned something new. haha.. then went to
cue d's with debb, anna & stephanie.. my #1!! haha.. playing with anna was fun.. "nudge it!!"/nugget!! haha.. then playing w/ teams.. "dont touch my partner's stick!!" .. xP geez people!! haha.. but yea.. that was fun.. it's fun hanging out with people you havent hung out w/ in awhile.. =)
chris was right. it's not good to get into a relationship if you dont TRUST the person.
i HATE fish.. =)
* teresa 12:15 PM l
Saturday, August 09, 2003
me: oslagab!!!!!!!
clare: tosze?!
clare: esater?!
me: haha
me: yepP!!
me: thats meeeeeee
me: =D
clare: is it really yoOoU!?
me: haha
clare: YAYYYY!!!!
clare: bizzle shizzle
clare: hahaha
me: LOL!!
haha.. aww.. so the group had a get together today.. or yea.. my group in san diego.. i missed out on a good talk!! and yea.. good times!! haha.. clare says
BiZZLE SiZZLE (better vinnie?!) like the guys.. oh man!! =) i wish i was there..
today was my
last day of work.. it was so slow.. soo that means it was boring.. & long.. i'm going to miss it.. maybe i'll work there again next summer.. if i come back.. xP i know i'm going to miss some cool coworkers. like my supervisor matt!! =) i'm going to miss him making fun of me.. lol..
"my lady".. aww.. =) oh well.. if i miss them too much i'll see them again on friday!! haha.. when i go to pick up my last paycheck.. =P
argh. tired. hungry. yea. goodnight.
[ EDiTED @ 1:3oam ]
hahaaaa.. ate.. so now i'm digesting.. blarr..
vinnie: you were missed 2nite
... =) things like that make me
smile..
my stomach hurts. =(
soo.. tomorrow's plans are.. to go
paintballing at 7pm.. but before that..? HAHA.. open!! =) dudeee!!! when i was driving home at like midnight... i remembered that dickson is going to japan!!! =( that freakn' psycho didnt call me up!! i wanted to see him before he left!! him w/ his short hair!! haha.. or shaved head now.. mann..
you know.. something made me mad the other night.. a friend told me that they wanted to ask me to go eat with them so we can catch up on old times.. but i was distracted with my surroundings.. sooo they took it as i was busy & couldnt talk.. AND didnt bother asking because they thought i'd just want to spend time with my k & d.. & no one else?! ... wtheck. you know.. you're my friend too.. whatever.. it just made me irritated.. rawr..
sooo that's why it's always good
not to assume....
* teresa 1:09 AM l
Thursday, August 07, 2003
i like seeing all of my friends in one place. =)
so my day started off with going to
fashion show with katrina. OOH! but before that we made a stop at walmart to pick up our utensils for our evil plan later in the evening.. haha.. dude. shopping for guys is hard! but yea. we ended up getting alex his going away/birthday present.. we got him.. a swiss army pocket knife (those are freakn awesome! haha..) & a pen that changed colors.. it's cool.. =) haha.. he was amused with the pen. =) it was great.
oh. before i went to pick kat up.. i got a call from ame. she was in the carmel mtn. area when i was in vegas.. haha.. it was funny.. her being in sd.. & me in lv.. how trippy!!
um.. sooo kat conned alex into getting a car wash!! haha.. you are SOOOO SLiCK!!! so he went & got a car wash.. then we got mcd's.. then went back & just chilled at his house.. then we moseyed on over to kat's.. she got a package from dudley & yeaa!! DUDLEY sent us (tkda) college survival kits!! omb.. he's SOOOO COOOL!!! =)) haha.. basically..it was food.. the rice! & a rice bowl! (i like mine!! it's orangeee!!), chopsticks!, candy! & coffee!! haha.. so that was cool..
THANKS DUDLEY!!! then yeaa.. haha.. after that.. we walked over to jonson's.. haha.. that comedian.. "guns dont kill people.. people kill people.. bang bang!! boom!" lol..
a little before 6, we headed over to
claim jumper for alex's dinner.. it was a nice dinner.. before we got to ordering our food.. tkd excused ourselves to go to the "bathroom".. HAHA.. what we REALLY did was go outside in the parking lot & put
POST iTS on alex's car!!! ^^ we're good!!! hahaha.. oh man.. stupid wind blew some off & some ghetto people were taking them off his car.. lameee!! but it was funny.. =) during dinner.. the part that stuck out.. was chris eating.. all that meat!! omb.. kind of reminded me of the guys back in sd & their love for meat.. haha.. i guess that's a universal thAng.. =P and then... the whole joke about andy.. "chop phui".. =) haha.. then oanh telling chris she loved him & him burping in her face.. haha.. dang..
i love my friends.. i've missed them..
yeaa.. sooo i had to go home.. & i'm talking to debb & yea.. she mentioned something about this being a domino effect... where.. yea.. its basically us (tkda) leaving las vegas.. it's crazy.. =/ it makes me sad.. then.. when i was in the car dropping kat off.. i made this comment where.. it's yea.. going to be the same people hanging out whenever we go back for breaks or whatever.. & i guess that's cool because it'll be easier to kit.. haha.. i think it's basically
tkd & double ac.. plus whoever else.. it's all good..
* teresa 9:45 PM l
vinnie: why do you wanna bring gifts?
me: haha
me: nM!
me: =)
me: i'm being weird
vinnie: oh
me: blah
vinnie: want to bring gifts cuz ur weird?
vinnie: ...
vinnie: ?
me: yeaaa
me: no
vinnie: hahaha
me: =)
vinnie: are you gonna wear a red hat?
me: ... for what
vinnie: perhaps a white beard?
me: ew
me: hahahaha
vinnie: heh
vinnie: took you a sec
me: hahaha
me: EW
vinnie: s.zeto claus?
me: LOL!
me: oh heck no!
vinnie: comes once each year in august?
me: hahaha
me: yur meannnnn
me: omb
me: lol
vinnie: ahhh
vinnie: that reminds me of that one santa joke
me: what joke?
vinnie: you know... why is santas sack so big?
me: ..why?
vinnie: because he only comes once a year, haha
hahaha.. oh man.. talking to vinnie is great!! =) him & chris always manage to make me smile.. =) i miss the guys!!
but yea. since i've opened up blogger, i might as well blog! today - wednesday - i worked. i was kind of blah.. because of thinking about everything.. & my manager says to me "what's wrong? you dont look so happy today.." dang.. if HE can notice.. i bet everyone else did.. xT rawr!! whatever.. the whole day.. i was just.. annoyed & fustrated about the whole idea of.. yea. whatever.
but yeaaa!! work.. today's my last day.. IF i dont get called in on friday.. i bet i will..soo yea! haha.. friday will be my last day!! =)
you know.. i think monica's right.. when you get a missed call on your phone.. you feel all special because someone called you.. & yea.. surprisingly someone other than my sister or mother called me up. too bad it all went blah.
anyways. tired. fun day tomorrow! katrina time!! plus more!! ^^
* teresa 12:49 AM l
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
soooo i talked to monica last night. we talked about everything. from school/college.. john.. guys/relationships.. friends/distance. all that stuff..
school/college - i dont know.. it's so crazy.. we've grown so much.. & i dont know.. i regret not taking the chance to go to cchs.. [for non-vegas people.. it's like a high school while earning some college credit..] because if i did.. i'd be going into my junior year of college.. like how she's going to do it. it would've saved me money & time. darn it. -.-
john - the whole thing for the 16th.. makes me feel.. funny still.. =/
guys/relationships - a quote she said last night:
"if girls are understanding, guys screw them over. whenever we want to spend time with them, they think we're demanding.." now.. how does that work?? that sucks so bad. i dont know. i mean.. i can understand if a person's busy.. but ALL the time? so that there's no time at all in the whole day.. to call just to say hi? i remember .. that person making time for me.. but whatever.. i guess i'm asking for too much.. i'm trying not to care so much. then i talked to michele earlier that day & we got on the topic of guys.. & her whole theory on me & guys is so true. it sucks.
friends/distance - monica & i got into this topic.. because i got sad.. because i'm so distant from everyone for some reason. she was talking about how she & alex hung out & i got sad. i dont know. i remember being close to alex..at some point earlier this year. now we're just.. friends. i dont know.. it sucks because he's such a great guy & a cool person to hang out with.. it's just.. people change. & things happen. come to think of it - i've been close to everyone at some point in my high school life.. there was carrie.. monica.. katrina.. alex.. john.. sandy.. lena.. andy.. yea.. i dont know.. i felt.. ever since summer started.. i've only been talking to debbie.. & excluding everyone else in las vegas.. i'm sorry.... i dont know.. blah. i suck.. i'm so confused. i guess the whole drifting thing is true.. or it's inevitable.. but that's probably partly my fault? =/
yeaa.. time for work is approaching. joy. to be stuck in a happy place for 8 hours when you're feeling blah is pretty.. interesting.
* teresa 1:05 PM l
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
[ monday, o8.o4.o3 ]
had work. was supposed to get lunch w/ dickson, but he was working!! pfffft.. all good. he woke me up at 10.. "it's noon! why are you still sleeping?!" rawr.. messed.. haha.. "i smell like tosze!!" haha.. ew. but great conversation. i miss talking to that psycho! =)
[ tuesday, o8.o5.o5 ]
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY MAY!!!
you're old now!!! hope you had a good day!! <33
my day was kind of a waste? haha.. i woke up late. at 12. xT then showered. ate lunch. sat around. went to the meadows w/ debbie.. my goal was to find flip flops. found them!! @ AE!! heck yea baybee!! haha.. so i got that & a tank top. =) good stuff. we took booth pictures!! haha.. those are fuN!! =)) then!! we went to kinkos.. then walgreens.. called people to see if we could go visit them.. i called albert.. "7 days!!" haha.. whata nerd! =) ended up visiting.. person!! then went to roberto's.. then went back to my house.. watched 'american wedding'.. INTERESTING!! haha..
ahhh.. need to blog more later!! but on the phone with monica!! sooo yea!!
* teresa 10:52 PM l
Sunday, August 03, 2003
michele: and lately everytime I poke its immatiation
michele: ..
michele: like crab
me: hahaha
michele: but worse
me: good one!
sooo i'm a crabbie puff now, eh? haha..
me: geeez... we're getting OLD
christie: soon everyone will be retiring
christie: hahaha
me: haha
me: soon as in 30..40 years
christie: time fliesssssss!!!
me: yeaa
christie: i'm a weirdo and i fast track my life to when i'm 80 years old. i totally imagine myself swimming with a swimcap on and gardening orchids or something
me: haha.. how cuteee! i can totally see you doing that
me: i dont know where i see myself..
christie: being adorable and eating ripe fruit! haha
haha.. my twin is great!! <33
i called people today. it's great when no one picks up. it's okay. i love leaving long, weird teresa like voice messages. hehe.. ^^ oh yes.. hahaha.. katrina called me back to tell me that she'd call me back later.. you're great kat!! <33
debb came over.. we took a trip to sav-on & walgreens.. "nothing made her happy".. hahaha.. the cashier lady was making fun of her!! debb helped me dye my hair.. THANKS!! =) but yea..i dont know what color it is. =) haha.. now my head hurts. soooo sleep will be soon! goodnight!!
[ e .. d .. i .. t ]
vinnie: im gonna hafta talk to him
vinnie: protect my lil vegass chic sis
me: aww.. how cutee
me: =D
me: vinnies the bestest big bro!
me: =D
me: haha
vinnie: heh
vinnie: only the best for you!
me: aww
me: =D
i like talking to vinnie!! =)
chris is fun to talk to too!! =)
* teresa 11:53 PM l
[ saturday, o8.o2.o3 ] - detailed -
soooo ok. a little background info i guess.. my mom's been kind of "plotting" to throw my sister a little surprise thing for her birthday since she wont be here on her birthday with us.. pssh! loser! but yea.. so the plan was to wake her up & blahblah.. when she comes down.. she'll see the cake & be all surprised! lol.. no. like i woke up my brother & sister & told them we're going to dim sum so they should get ready.. mm.. then! i looked at the cake & it was melting! haha.. so my dad goes to my sister's room door.. knocks & says..
"come cut the cake!!" lol.. apparently she didnt hear him.. because she came down & was all like ".. i thought we were going out to eat.." haha.. good stuff!! soo yea.. did cake.. presents.. HAHA.. fao baby!! mm.. then dim sum.. haha.. freakn boring!! especially when chinese parents run into their friends & eat with them with you sitting there going.. o.O?? yep!
after dim sum.. well.. yea.. luckily i drove.. because i thought i was going to leave inbetween to meet up with debb & brian.. no. haha.. so i drove my brother & sister home.. my brother was trying to give us hugs while i was driving.. soooo of course i freaked out & screamed at him. =) went home. did laundry. then debbie called.
sooo i moseyed on over to brian's house.. his family was having a bbq.. dudeee.. yea.. i love their backyard. =) brian was already picking on debbie & yea.. the other way around. =P you guys amuse me. haha.. sooo yea.. from there we went to the cemetary to visit john. i dont know.. the skies were clear.. with some nice puffy clouds & there was a breeze.. and trees.. in the area.. i dont know.. it seemed very.. peaceful.. & i just thought.. when i was there.. yeaaa!! ...
after that.. we went back to brian's.. drank his water & debb ate.. brocoli!! yum. then! i left. to go to 7-11. to buy a starbucks double shot.. dudeee!! that ish makes me JiTTERY!! .. but it does the job!! xP so yea. got home. called kevin back. talked to him for a little bit. then got ready for work & left.
on my way to work.. i got a call from marlon! what the feegEe.. he never calls me.. sooo that was nice. talked to him while i drove to work.. #1 on my list!! haha.. when my list only has 1 person on it!! loser.. =P work actually went by fast.. maybe it's because
j.. my cookie monster came to visit me with his friends?? haha.. AND my dope butt
TWiN CHRiSTiE!!!! christie & her boyfriend kenny are sooooooooo cute!!!! oh man!!! cuteness!! =)) my friends are cute.. trying to hide the fact that they're there to visit me.. "hi.. um.. do you have a christie doll that plays soccer?" haha.. my twin is soooo cool!! =) lala.. then yea.. closing sucked. as always. i hate stuffed animals that shed!! haha.. my shirt is diRrtay!! =(
got home around 1am. bad times. talked to vinnie & chris online.. dudee.. seriously.. i miss the guys over in san diego.. xP haha.. "how does it taste?!" .. them & their whole meat thing & ahHh!! dang it.. it's all good.. 15 more days.. =) but then dang!! 15 more days in las vegas... =((((
i added some pictures to my photo album.. of debbie sitting on me & my sister's "surprise" thing.. haha..
[ sunday, o8.o3.o3 ]
sooo yea.. my mom was annoying me this morning.. she woke me up at like 8am.. saying "may's leaving.. come downstairs!" soooo i was like ... yea.. ignoring her & sleeping more.. but she came back & i got mad & got up.. & all she wanted was for me to freakn' tell her how much my tuition is.. blahblah.. she could've asked before.. rawrr.. sooo after that.. i couldnt sleep.. -.-
BUT!! the
BEST part of my day so far!! i'm on call today for the 12-8 shift.. BUT.. NO ONE CALLED IN!!! sooo that means.. I DONT HAVE WORK TODAY!!!!!!!!!! ^^ sooo happy!!! =)))
* teresa 11:01 AM l
Saturday, August 02, 2003
.. i dont know why i blogged last night. whatever.
so today!! after my 5 hours of sleep!! i had to drive to work for a meeting.. which was an hour & a half long.. good thing i got paid for it!! =) what an easy 7.50 & more. haha..
sooo today!! consists of.. something i cant say.. then something else i cant say.. then going to the cemetary to visit john.. then.. home.. then work.. then i have no life.. then.. yea.
my sister's leaving tomorrow.. so after sunday..it'll be just me, my parents, & the "do you want a hug?" kid..
i wish some of my san diego people would come visit.. but yea.. people & their busy lives.. =/
dude clare.. i swear.. i think i'm more addicted to blogger than you.. xP crazy thing..
i'm hungry.. but must not.. eat.. food.. evil.. no.. more.. =)
yea. have you ever had that feeling where.. no one cares? mm.. yea.. i dont know.. maybe i need to be told that people care.. or certain people.. and yea.. i'm being weird.. i dont know.. i miss john.. dang.. i've been thinking about him sooo much.. he was the kind of person that would tell me .. stuff.. up front.. or anyone.. what was on his mind.. i love that quality in a person.. oooooook.. yea.. too much thinking.. i need to go get off & get ready for the thing i cant tell you about.. =P
* teresa 10:42 AM l
dana: so whatve you been up to
dana: just working?
me: yea..trying to hang out with ppl too
dana: i read your blog and i just see boba and work
hahaaaa.. breaking up my thoughts because i'm tired but yet i want to blog.. how that makes sense.. i dont know!! o.o?!
my supervisor matt is soooo awesome!! he's sooo funny!!
i talked to amando before i went to work.. koala bears & bamboo, eh? =P
guys? .... riiiiiiiiight.
i called people today! people like not picking up their phones!
i miss kevin.. i wonder how he's doing..
i got my paycheck!! =) i thought it'd be more.. but whatevers.
my next days off:
tuesday - hanging with j
thursday - open
saturday - PAiNTBALLiNG!!! .. hopefully.. =)
i want to go cliff diving.. thanks to the talk i had with my 2 cool coworkers.
ok. tired. night.
* teresa 1:39 AM l
Friday, August 01, 2003
had work. it sucked. i worked 3rd floor - electronics. too bad i dont know iSH about it!! =) i was surrounded by boys toys!!! ahhH!!! yea.. but it's cool!! because later today - it being FRiDAY & all.. i get PAiD!!! whOoT!!! i am SOOOO excited!! haha.. i'm a geek! =)
my mom bought me boba. ooOh yea.. she loves me.. haha.. =))
annie: hahah are you meeting ne HOOOOOOT super hot guys there?
annie: hahhaa
me: haha.. i have excuses to talk to them when i'm at work!!!
me: hehe.. "how are YOU today!!"
me: =P
annie: hahahah SLICKKKK!!!!
annie: pimpette
me: =DDDDD
me: haha
me: and plus.. theyre tourists.. sooo i'll never see them ever again!
me: lol
annie: im shure all those guys just go to the barbie section jus for YOU!!
annie: hahahaha
me: LOL!
me: i'm life size!
annie: =DDDD
me: .. JK!!
me: =D
annie: HAHHAHAHAHA
me: hehehe
... =P
i want to get the yellowcard cd. yep. that's #2 on my list of what i'm going to get when i get paid!! hehe.. first being.. my secret mission & all!! =) lucy passed this song to me.. because she said it kind of related to me.. soooo yea.. "view from heaven" - yellowcard.. i like the lyrics..
* teresa 12:50 AM l