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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

clare told me that my entries were depressing! .. which i guess they sorta maybe are.

anyways! i learned the other day that one of my neighbors was a porn director! hahaha.. this was after i learned that a friend from class lives at the bottom of the hill from me! "i live by _____." 'REALLY?? ME TOO!!' haha..

i really should be watching the movie & taking notes. yar. i've wasted enough time. haha..

this just cracks me up. i miss the monster.

* teresa 9:48 PM l

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

t: i forgot what else i was going to share..
naris: .. your LOOOOVE?
t: .. that was UGLY!

*followed w/ 5 minutes of just LAUGHING*

so you guys know how i laugh.. KRRRhahaha..

n: what IS that! it sounds like a tv! *KRRR* over. hahaha!

"keep it real, SON!" - nik. o.O hahaha..

i told my friend shannon to call me when she gets to school so we can eat. i missed her call & her message (the end of it) "you're such a bitch! .. but i guess i'll forgive you because youre on the other line!" hahaha..

ahhh.. what a nice change. i <3 laughing! =)

* teresa 10:07 PM l

Sunday, September 24, 2006

i didnt realize it's only been a little bit over a month since i've last been home. funny sentence, but let's just go with that~

it makes me sad that all i think about is school. seriously.. KICKING my ASS. it also makes me sad that i havent been social. but whatever. i was reading my leadership book earlier (i'm caught up now! YES!) & it was talking about the different cultures. it talked about how our culture is more individual as opposed to being collective. this means, we focus on SELF-confidence, SELF-control, SELF-expression, etc.. & i thought about it. it's true. we only look out for ourselves. we want to make ourselves better than others. ... gross, huh?

you know what sucks? i put a lot of time & energy sometimes into others, but not as much into what i'd do for myself. i dont do things for myself. i dont buy things for myself anymore (f bills, f stupid $7.10/hour, f a lot of stuff).. i dont know. yea, there isnt a price tag on happiness & i know if i'd get something materialistic, i know it's only going to be a matter of time until i'm not as happy w/ it when i was the first time i got it. geeez. but it's just the fact in.. not having time to myself. there's no balance. school takes up a majority of my time & energy. i wish i had more of a social life to balance it out. but i really want to finish school. for me. for myself. THAT'S what i want for myself.

BUT. have i lost sight of WHY i want it so bad? WHY am i kicking my own ass to get to the end? to get that degree? WHAT am i going to use it for anyways? is it going to set me apart from others? what other qualities are going to set me apart from the million others in the workforce? yea. FREAKING. OUT.

* teresa 10:32 PM l

Thursday, September 21, 2006

this week was SO CRAZY.
next week doesnt look any better.

siiigh. i honestly dont even know.

it feels great to be consumed with something. but dang. to be drained of all your energy by the end of the day?? THAT sucks. or even by the middle of the day because you didnt get enough sleep the night before? so you're just tired the whole day trying to get stuff done, but you cant because you cant really focus? YEA. welcome to my life.

i wonder if i werent working, if that would make it any better. or if it'd just give me an excuse to take my time doing everything. ARGH. it's okay. it keeps me super busy. the friends who i do talk to make time for me, so i do the same.

"youre a senior right?" WOW. haha.. that felt so weird! but ahh.. feels so great. i dont know what i want to do! man.. honestly. i make things more complicated than they are. "teresa, youre KILLING me!" hahaha..

* teresa 7:31 PM l

Sunday, September 17, 2006

i wonder if my sister will see this. haha. =P

danny: lets donate 50$
d: hahahahaha
d: cause she doesnt even talk to us
d: jerk.
d: hahahaha
d: and lunch lol

.. it feels like the calm right before the storm. the storm being the crazy week i know i'm going to endure. sigh. should rest up..

* teresa 10:09 PM l

Saturday, September 16, 2006

supposedly, i get an hour of overtime today. but i SWEAR my company doesnt let us. *shrug!* we'll see on thursday. haha..

i'm excited that i get a friday off next week!

so much to do before tuesday again! =( this week, i have two presentations to do on wednesday. =( one for class & one for work. HAHA. yar.

last night, i got home before 10, but went online to work on homework. yay, nerd status! haha.. then got off around 10:30 to sleep! granny status! but yay for 10 hours of sleep! =))

time to shower. then work for the next 9 hours. =( .. which should be interesting/boring! no products = no customers/angry customers that take it out on the employees! JERKS! sigh. going to be a sucky day!

* teresa 9:50 AM l

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

patrick: i mean u r majoring in mangement right
t: yea
t: haha
p: so USE it
p: i would imagine u opening up a stationary store
p: i dunno why
t: ... rawr

.. i really shouldnt have taken that 2 hour nap. =( ugh. such a waste! but it's okay. not as much homework tonight. so.. =) even though i DO need to catch up on all my readings! .. sigh. woe is me.

just now, i was looking at older blog entries because i was looking for something. wow. i had some angry posts. haha.. geez.. i dont think i've used the word "pissed" as much lately. haha.. i guess it's because.. i know that you can only take so much disappointment from people. just.. let it go.

i KIND of miss all the social stuff too. geez. i've become more & more antisocial since freshman year. haha.. but you've got to prioritize, yea? yea. the handful died also. i have a lot less. =/ OH WELL. life goes on.

DU TA DU!

i dont think i like the new nanos. they're too much like the minis.

i miss my family. isabelle can say YEE YEE now. =(

SUCKAGE! ... i just checked the prices for southwest for thanksgiving weekend. TOO EXPENSIVE. =( i dont want to drive. =((

* teresa 11:28 PM l

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

"sometimes we're so focused on the end result that we forget the reason why we're doing it in the first place.." - db

in career development last week, we were talking about that. WHY are we getting degrees? i'm so glad they have this class. because.. that quote up there? .. it's SO me. i really dont know what i want to do with my degree. should i stay in school longer to take more classes? to make myself more marketable? what's the rush? what qualities set me apart from others? what am i passionate about? do i want to work to live or live to work? (the second one is the right answer.) yea. this class makes you think! but in a good way.

* teresa 10:19 PM l

Monday, September 11, 2006

if you have these, could i please borrow them? = )

- remember the titans
- dead poet's society
- hoosiers
- crimson tide
- twelve o'clock high
- the godfather
- apollo 13

* teresa 11:32 AM l

Sunday, September 10, 2006

fun times at work!

little girl: CANDY!!
the mom: VEGETABLES!!

"you suck!" 'what, do you want me to suck as much as you do, teresa?' rawr! haha.

*sees guy running* *then sees him get tackled* *BAM!* hahaha.. freakn awesome! that's what you get SUCKA!

"candis, DO SOMETHING!" *looks confused, then does a little dance* haha.

yea. i have WAY too much to do now. =(

* teresa 7:41 PM l

Saturday, September 09, 2006

i have so much studying to do. =(

i was able to fit in a few hours of fun friday night. went to on broadway w/ diana for catherine's 21st. it was alright. lots of tall people! =P sucked that we didnt know they had other dance floors w/ better music until we were leaving! rawr!

lots of working this weekend. friday, saturday & sunday. it sucks because work is late afternoon-night. so, all my energy is gone. i WANT to study, but i also WANT a few hours to just relax. blar!

i made a to do list for studying/homework this weekend. there are 10 things on the list. i did 3. -.- SUCKS! =( i could do the rest monday night, but ugh! i want to cross them off my list NOW.

i havent talked to my mom for awhile. =(

actually, when i think about it.. i havent talked to anyone in awhile! sadface. i havent been going online as much. at least i dont think so! & i dont have time to talk to people on the phone. unless it's right before i sleep. or something! blah. tevs.

ahh, i'm listening to the cd kris gave me for christmas. this is like, my third time listening to it. haha.. 152 songs! crazy! but good songs. yum! =)

can you tell i'm running out of things to talk about? haha..

i learned the other day, that if you want sweet apples, get the ones w/ a lot of spots on it. yeaa. i have to try this out!

i'm cold right now. but ahh! i cant wait until its cold! sweaters/hoodies! <3! then my little heater at night! aww.. being freezing cold is better than sweating hot. yar!

okay. i'm tired. & cant think of anything else.

* teresa 11:16 PM l

Thursday, September 07, 2006

i want a massage.

* teresa 6:49 PM l

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i want to learn how to swim.
because i feel like swimming.

AHH! SO MUCH READING!
my head is going to explode!

(@.#)

* teresa 2:55 PM l

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

in leadership today, the topic was how you learn leadership through education & experiences. to emphasize that leaders are not also born to be leaders, he showed us a documentary that showed great leadership during a crisis.

with the fifth anniversary right around the corner, my teacher showed the whole class the HBO documentary of 9/11. there are.. no words. it's crazy how we were supposed to focus on the leadership qualities of the mayor & how he handled the whole situation, yet all i focused on was.. what a sad ordeal it all was. i'm amazed at how well he had handled the whole situation, gave the people of new york the confidence that they were all going to get through it & how he kept checking up on the site.

it seems like it happened so long ago, but five years does not seem that long. with the 3,000+ lives taken for no justifiable reason, it's not just the families & friends of those who had died that are affected, but everyone in the u.s. towards the end & when he turned on the lights, you could hear everyone sniffling & just.. being quiet. even if we werent directly affected, we still feel their pain.

just like my teacher had mentioned, he was showing us the video for two reasons - to show us how leaders act in the time of a crisis & to never forget. it's part of history.

* teresa 8:29 PM l

Monday, September 04, 2006

last night was interesting.

the best pickup line:
hey, how you doing? *if they turn/walk away* you shouldnt be picky! .. i wasnt!

productive so far! =) taking a break. rawr.

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eva: i think it's cause i'm a good girl
e: i'm going to see my cousin TERESA too
e: =)
e: puhahahh
t: hahaha
e: santa's real
e: lol

* teresa 3:46 PM l

Sunday, September 03, 2006

get to do a presentation for work! weeeee!

filled up today! $2.95 for regular! yar! AWESOME!

my brother got two pairs of converses for $15. TOTAL!

people visited me at work! =) katie & paul. diana & karl. ryan f & gf.

* teresa 6:53 PM l

Saturday, September 02, 2006

when i had lunch w/ clare yesterday, i realized.. my schedule isnt THAT bad this semester. it's full of interesting classes & i cant wait to see how much i've learned at the end. it's nerdy, but whatever! haha.. that's me. for 444, all of the things i've been learning in finance or oganizational behavior or just all the other classes.. they're all coming together. i LOVE it when things relate to one another. it's like "OH! THAT'S why i had to learn that before this!" =P

then in another class, i was talking to a friend & she pointed something out. when we were freshman, we didnt know anyone, but now when we look around the classroom, we can point out who we've had in what class & whatnot. it's great. i thought i wouldnt remember people or anything - you know, me being antisocial & all - but it's nice. yeaa.. i dont know what i'm babbling about. it's just funny how much can happen in 3 years.

i feel blah! for only having school to talk about! =(

well, there's work! but nothing really new there.. ehh!

i saw my niece the other day! i miss that monster! i miss my family. i miss vegas. i miss home.

i really need to cancel netflix sometime soon.

hm.. who was i talking to the other day.. i think it was pam! we were talking & she mentioned NO DRAMA THIS SEMESTER. haha.. i totally, whole heartedly agree. i dont have the time to deal w/ anything drama-related. i can show you my schedule for the next 3 months.. it's pretty full! seriously - this semester will keep me on my toes.

i miss writing good entries. *sigh*

* teresa 9:26 PM l