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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

"it's just one of them days.."

my days have been getting more & more hectic. well, maybe not hectic. it's not the things that i'm doing but the feelings towards the stuff i'm doing. i'm tired when i go to school, i'm tired when i'm in school, i'm fustrated in math, relieved when i can go home, hungry when i get home, lazy when i have homework (& fustrated once i realize it's probably math), tired when i have work, mad when i have to spend money, and lately, i've been really just BLAH. i really cant explain it. well, i can but i'd rather not to the people who'd rather read as opposed to call me up or talk to me in person. yea. thanks.

sometimes, i wish there wasnt such thing as time. because then i'd have all the nonexistent "time" to do all my stuff & there would be no deadlines?! oh man. but that wouldnt make sense. i'm confusing myself. i'm making myself as clear as mud.

mm.. -.-

monica - someone i havent talked to in MONTHS! called me up last night & she was like 'yea, i read that entry about how people think they know you.. etc etc' & it just bugs me because seriously - that's whats UP. no one knows. why should i bother trying to explain myself online? letting everyone know how my days are? how i feel? whatever? on my blog? whereas, there are those who already do know me, how i am, how i feel, what i do/did, all that good fun stuff off of the interweb.

for instance, let's see if you can answer me this:
- how do i feel about my math class now? why?
- how do i feel about my major? why?
- what's up with me & the family?
(you either know or you dont know)
- what's my schedule/life like?
- how am i feeling towards people??
- why do i want to be antisocial??
- why am i SO WEiRD?!

if you can answer that, i'm pretty sure your name is either clare, diana, or debbie.

dang. i sound pretty damn bitter. & no, i'm not on my rag!

but you know what? when you have a bad week followed by a week where your hopes go up just to get crushed at the end of the week, then another bad week, let me know how YOU feel.

yea. i could so contradict myself right now in all i'm saying.. & i'll most likely be a hypocrite & go back to my blogging ways by the end of next month.. but you know what? i dont care. really. that's how i wish my attitude would stay.. in the 'i dont give a shit, leave me alone or i'll beat you up' kind of 'tude.

l B l L l O l G l G l E l R l

.. my anti drug. <33

* teresa 3:55 PM l

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

so.. it's possible.

i talked about him last night without crying.

i do miss him.. but i realized that i'd rather remember the good memories than to dwell on the sad ones.

kiwi boy. <3

* teresa 11:59 AM l

Sunday, September 26, 2004

breathe . stretch . shake

. let it go .

* teresa 9:13 AM l

Saturday, September 25, 2004

"you think you know, but you have NO iDEA!"

it makes me mad whenever people think they have me all figured out. yea, maybe i am predictable in my sayings & doings - but does that make up who i am?? well, it's a part of who i am, but really - you DONT know. it's kind of funny how my family sees one side of me & my friends see the other. only i see the whole picture. for me - it's all based on my level of comfort with people. there are things in my past that friends dont know about, but my family does. and vice versa. in a way, i dont want people to know all, but at the same time i do. WHY? because i'm WEiRD like that. i want to be understood. but at the same time.. not.

you know how there are those moments where you are just like "i SHOULD be happy"?? honestly - i should be. there is NO reason for me to be unhappy, yet i.. am. i feel like i'm losing parts of who i am everyday.

i asked debbie the other day if i changed from when she met me. (back in 10th grade) she told me the most noticeable change was my bitterness. & the reasons for that were the boys. in a way, that made me see how it's not worth it. but then in another way, it's protecting me? i know that boys shouldnt be a reason as to why i'm such a bitter person nowadays.. it makes me feel like a cynical person.

when i was talking to a friend who was down last night, he told me that he was like "yea, i'm going to call teresa.. she always sounds happy!" it made me happy, but at the same time it's making me think! the whole thing where i'm covering up my feelings with pretending everything's okay. i tend to do that more than i think.

change is a part of life. so are risks.

i really should stop complaining all the time.

"Nothing can bring you happiness but yourself." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

* teresa 9:07 AM l

Friday, September 24, 2004

first things first.. LOOK WHAT MY BWORD GOT ME!!! =DD!!

green fish - chino jr!
yellow fish - ?!
orange fish #1 - ?!
orange fish #2 - ?!
blue fish - quasee jr!

haha.. you guys should help me name them because i'm clueless as to what i should name them!! =)

* psssssst.. THANKS AGAiN BWORD!!! =DD!!

a N Y w A Y S ~ today's my 2nd mother's birthday!! =D!! which reminds me.. i should probably call my mother. i told her i would yesterday. whOops!! =T

the sis of ter & i went to costco yesterday. haha.. lots of yummy stuff! she got me GOGURT!! kRrrhahahaha!! i LOVE that stuff!! =D!! i also bought circus animal cookies! (halloween kind!! ORANGE, what! =D) ugh. i need to work out. SERiOUSLY.

on wednesday i had my math test. mm.. the chances of me failing? 50%.. krrhahaha.. because THAT'S not the obvious. alex is a great friend. =D he offered to help me with calc later on this semester. sooooo NICE!! made me =DD!! hm.. i had my spanish test today. easy stuff! i even forced myself to finish the workbook pages yesterday. so i have nothing to worry about over the weekend. YEAUH! i love being productive! =))

dudee. clare pointed this out a few nights ago. school's going by FAST!! it's going to be the 5th week of school. whaaaat?! it's cuRazY! i think i want to go back to having 2 classes per day 4 days a week again. it just makes things less hectic. kinda sorta. heh.

it's kind of sad how i feel like i havent talked to anyone in awhile. like with debb, kat, alex.. you guys are far & doing your own thing.. but i miss knowing what's up. same goes for some friends here in san diego.

i'm getting sick of the music on my playlist. siigh. i wish i could dl music. rawrrr!! soooo.. friends!! want me to send me some good songs?? =))

"it's a family thAng!"

someone should take the cookies i have on my desk & EAT them for me! k thanks.

i hate money. and time. it seems like i never have enough of either one.

i dont even know what's going on with myself. how awesome is that?! ....

ew. i just checked my horoscope:

Melancholy feelings that don't seem to have any basis in reality may plague you throughout the day, causing friends, family and the special person in your life to worry. On days like this, dear Taurus, it's best not to give in to gloom, but to throw yourself into work, and into projects you love. Even though you may not feel much like socializing, the company of others can get your mind back on track. Give it a try!

* teresa 1:35 PM l

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

i always say no one calls me & i dont call people. and it's TRUE.

.. but i guess only to a weird degree.. because CHECK THiS!!

Peak Minutes: 600
Off Peak Minutes: 1,199
Weekend Minutes: 769
IN-Network Calling Peak: 101
IN-Network Calling Off Peak: 145

iNTERESTiNG stuff, FOR REALS.

it's good to say i didnt go over my minutes! <3 the plan! =D

soooooo!! today i got to hang out with my sister, then kevin.. thrift stores, jamba, stories!, utc, dinner, SMALLViLLE!! (which was freakn AWESOME!! too bad "lois lane" looks all old. =T), part of the bachelor, home. good day. *minus the school part of it* so all fun today means all work tomorrow!! at least i get paid!! then again on friday!! YEAUH!! =D

ok. goodnight. =)

* teresa 11:38 PM l

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

i've said it once & i'll say it again - i'm a blogger addict.

it's really kind of sad because there are things that happen that i want to remember & i'd take a mental note to mention it in my blog or what's even worse is when the friends are like 'you're going to write about this in your blog huh?!' =T sorrry! i just like.. looking back on things & remembering the good, the bad, the ehh.

anyways. yea. it's been awhile & a lot has happened.

quick birthday shoutouts, since i didnt blog on those days:

17th - HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY CHRISTA!!
18th - HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KATRINA!!
* i'm sure both of you had good days!! =DD!!

so my bad week carried over stopped being so bad for a day - FRiDAY. it was one of the most interesting days in awhile. haha.. first there was that weird guy who works at the school who offered to split his free breakfast burrito with me. haha.. i learned that not everyone knows what HASH is!! =T just because i know what it is, doesnt mean i SMOKE it!! =( then i had work at night followed with a trip to iNNOUT to meet up w/ friends. it was the ogmp girls, randy, fireboy & peter. funn stuff! then we all ended up @ the marketplace. heh.

fireboy: i'm going to make my own club! with me, myself & i.. that's.. one member!
me: that's THREEEEE!!
everyone: *laughs at teresa*
(i was seriously kidding guys!!)

dang. we're super loud.. but it was awesome because seriously.. i havent laughed that hard since i dont know when! soooo =DD!! take that, stupid bad week! then there was the whole "\/\/O\/\/ /\/\O/\/\" thing!! clare, you are too funny!! you too, bword!! and randy, fireboy & peter!! hahaha.. so yea.. that was a good day. for REALS.

now i seriously need to be anti social. YEAUH.

i was thinking about it last night. (thoughts from GEL.. heh. honestly.. i thought it was cool, but now i'm just like RAWR!!) so yea, there are 168 hours in a week. i was trying to figure out how much i dont use. (these are all approximated.)

49 - sleep
29 - classes/school
36 - studying/hw (what it should be =/)
13 - work/macys
7 - eating
3.5 - grooming (showers, etc)
4 - tutoring billy

so give or take a little - that's 131.5 hours out of 168 in a week where i have stuff to do! =/ shiiiit. so that gives me about 37.5 hours of nothingness or just being tired.. so that's a little over 4 hours every day to do NOTHING. damn. i'm SO not havin' this!!

m: she said she misses you
m: and that your busy nowadays and that she hasn't had the chance of kicking it with you

i suck. sorry friends. =/

my study habits need to change. i get distracted too easily. sigh.

there's still so much to do. at least after wednesday, i'll be somewhat okay. probably more fustrated with the whole math spheel. whatever. math just causes me to become mad at myself. dont you hate it if you know you're capable of learning something (we're ALL capable of learning..), but you just cant process it?! or YEA?? rawrr.. happens to me more often than i'd like.

ok. i should get off & try to sleep. math test tomorrow. spanish test friday. spanish & psyc hw due friday. going to do it all THURSDAY! & part of wendesday. the part before SMALLViLLE, that is!! =D

okay. goodnight. hope you're all doing swell~

* teresa 11:14 PM l

Monday, September 20, 2004

"i don't WANT to!!!"

^~ that's the phrase i've been saying WAYY too much!!!

holy crap.. i just dont want to deal with some things anymore!! there's school - but i'm only feeling that way this week because i'm freakn STRESSiNG like NO OTHER!!

fUCK SHiT dude. i've wasted too much time. back to "studying" for calc..

* happy updates after wednesday! maybe! most likely on friday though. because people love READiNG about my life?! -.-

* teresa 9:08 PM l

Thursday, September 16, 2004

i havent been blogging about my days.. mm..

- psyc hw
- couldnt do spanish hw =(
- highlight of the day #1
- picked up & dropped off billy
- got paid!
- library for cousin kevin
- rushed to work/macy*s (eff traffic! i'm so lucky. i got there @ 4 on the dot!)
- worked 4-8.. sooo slow, but time flew! cool coworkers. =)
- home.. highlight of the day #2
- ate while talking to clare
- justin called! (we havent talked for more than a month?! whaaat?!?!)
- online! blogging! like the nerd i am! i like exclamation marks!! =D!

highlight of the day #1 :: clare's note & friendship bracelet.. =D sooooo nice.. i LOVE MY BEST FRiEND!!! <3333 sooooooo AWESOME!! i love the meaning behind BOB! haha.. yea.. seriously.. clare's GREAT. that totally made me smile. =D

highlight of the day #2 :: it's agood knowing you have a friend again. i dont know. that message made me smile too..

i'm dealing with it.. one at a time..

i cleaned my room the other day!! i'm super excited about that! haha.. good stuff, fosho!! =D more room to do my homework!! .. -.-

seriously. i need to study hardcore. for math. this weekend.

i want to hang out with my favorite sd guys before they leave!! =(( i suck. sigh.

krRrrhahahaha.. i'm on the phone with the siblings.. they're telling me how they're saying YEAUH! & how it's all my fault.. YEAUH!! hahaha.. =D!!

ok. sleep. 7am class tomorrow. ugh. goodnight!!

* teresa 10:37 PM l

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

my horoscope for the day:

Tempers might be on edge in conversations between you and some of your close friends, dear Taurus. Even you, who are usually very laid back and easygoing, might be tempted to snap at people. There's tension in the air, and nerves are strained. Realize this and control the urge to lash back if someone says something insulting or otherwise inappropriate. You won't want today's stresses to affect tomorrow's conversations. Be patient!

WOW. ME? SNAP at people?! -.-

yea. the end. cause kat called me back.

[ cont'd @ 11:29 pm ]

so yea. i've been getting this a lot: "youre too nice! I wouldnt do that!"

haha.. i loved kat's reaction.. "do you need me to go over there to smack you?!" haha.. "what'd you apologize for?!" .. "what's wrong with your conscience?! do you have two?!" haha.. yea.. awesome. makes me =)

seriously though.. sometimes.. i want to go with my gut feeling, but i never have ONE! i have like, 84157603729 all at once! =( so i'm always like "yea, that person sucks.. BUT they WERE nice to me at one point.. but then!!.." etc.. so i'm like.. arguing with myself.. -.-

anyways. there were good parts today! such as getting jamba juice w/ bword & doing hw! then going to the gym w/ clare & randy! haha.. "interrupting cow?" HAHAHA.. dude. that was just.. hilarious. i <3 my friends. =))

but now.. i suck because i had crackers because i was hungry = stomachache!

oh well.. time to catch up on my sleep! =)

* teresa 9:12 PM l

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

it's a whole new (& already different) week.

soooooo i'm already not liking my new schedule of not having any days to myself!! RAWR!! =( for the people who dont know what i'm talking about, i'll break it down for you:

monday: school 7am-3:50pm
tuesday: tutoring billy (my "2nd job") 2-5:15pm
wednesday: school 7am-12:45pm
thursday: pick & drop off billy 2:15pm
friday: school 7-10:50am, work 6:15-9:30pm
saturday & sunday: work 1-6pm

* all the time i have free = STUDYING/HOMEWORK

but then!! yea. that's always a toughie because after school or work, i just want to do NOTHiNG. ugh. =( i keep looking at it & it makes me sad.. =(

P R o C R a S T i N a T i N G :

s: haha...you know your going to do it too soon
t: already way ahead of you on that
t: =T
s: haha
t: yea
s: there there its ok dont worry your not alone
s: be happy you know someone whos in the same boat you are
s: now you got me to keep you company along with all those other poor bastards out there that are just like us

everything's been kind of.. weird. but not.

so yesterday in our cool lab, i learned that if you put one hand in cold water & the other in hot, when you put it in room temperature water, the one in cold water gets hot and the one in the hot turns cold! =D and i also learned that there are different senses on your tongue! you taste bitter stuff in the back, salty in the middle, sweet in the front & sour on the sides. YEA. i'm already talking about school. yeaa.. -.-

my eyes are blurry again. it's pissing me off. hm.. time to change contacts!

people are so darn interesting! .. o.O!

i want to go work out!! wednesday after school. sounds like a plan batman!!

my stomach hurts.. =(

ok. i need to change my contacts > get ready > homework > pick up/tutor billy > homework > sleep.

[ cont'd @ 10:07 pm ]

this totally made my day!! =DD!!

alex: Hey! I remember what school you go to now! Cal State San Marcos right?

and hanging out w/ my cool new friend billy was interesting. he's super mean to me for a 6 year old! haha.. he makes fun of me. just like everyone else. it was so bad because he got bionicals.. or whatever. lego stuff. & it was for ages 8+. he asks me how old i was.. i was like 19 & i open it, look at the directions & seriously i was like "whaat?! i dont KNOW how!" hahaha.. & he was like "but youre 19!!" haha.. yea. it was great. lots of fun. =)

so i was thisclose to listening to 'the reason'.. WiLLiNGLY. *gasp* what the HECK was i thinking! haha.. whatever! as i said to kris last night: "i'm over it.. it just BUGS me!" heh. i'm good like that. dont hate.

ok. i've been tired this whole.. past week. sleep is my friend!

* teresa 1:29 PM l

Sunday, September 12, 2004

parts of me & vinnie's convo..

v: still weird how it keeps happening tho
v: like the same thing, huh?

ugh.. TOO WEiRD for my liking! =(

v: do u think ur doin nethin wrong??

i think what MY problem is.. i'm TOO FUCKiNG NiCE!!!

just another experience. adds to the STORY OF MY LiFE! -.-

seriously though? ..... fuck this. ALL of it.. i'm tired of all this bullshit that happens.. especially when it happens to ME. it's too damn repetitive.. and it fuckn hurts every time.

work + school + no sleep + family = my new life

* teresa 11:56 AM l

Saturday, September 11, 2004

ahhhhh.. crap.

i thought i'd have time to do homework today. surprisingly, it was one of the first thoughts that crossed my mind.. haha.. sad, isnt it?! =) but yea. i cant anymore. so SUNDAY night = homework!

it's bad because the past 2 days have been.. not that great. i thought thursday was going to be good, but unless i get some kind of explanation on why certain people were acting certain ways, i'm going to say "WHATEVER!!" about it. then there was some other crap. then friday was just long. school in the morning. then meeting that lady & listening to her rules was just.. long. the good part was getting paid for it. so =) then.. i had work which was always pointless. 3 hours. i got paid more for listening to that lady than going to macy*s.. HMM.. but then i went to the marketplace to hang w/ bword, rhona, randy & fireboy. it was nice seeing their faces.. =)

i have a feeling that i'm taking on more than i can handle.. but at least i'll be busy all the time & all my free time = study/homework time = no going out for me. after today, that is. it's alllll about PRiORiTiES.

ugh. i need to find a day when i can go to the gym!! rawrr.. i suck!! =(

i need/want to hang out with kevin and vinnie before they go back to school!! so (note to self: call them! sometime this week!)

oooh yea. what else can i put here? hm.. if you guys want a $20 gift card to sunglass hut/watch station/watch world (that expires on the 30th of this month) so HOLLER. because i'm never going to use that.

sooo.. i was thinking.. after reading a person's blog, what the extent you can take before totally dropping a friendship? cutting off all ties? for me - if they betray me, that's the ultimate. if i cant trust them, what's the point in having a friendship? because i think you should be able to trust people.. or yea.

it's kind of bad because there are soooo many qualities in people i dont like. or just cant handle for long periods of time. i think i have a low tolerance for people who are annoying. so that means i get annoyed easily? depends.

rawr! i need to get ready for work now.

* teresa 1:06 AM l

Friday, September 10, 2004

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AME!!!
you're legal! yay!! =D hope you had a super duper day!! <3

* teresa 1:42 PM l

i'm annoyed.

today will be long.

i'm still tired. 6 hours suck.

school > meet lady > work > marketplace(?)
(for people who NEED to know where i go?!)

-.-

* teresa 6:05 AM l

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

i wonder if my tiredness will catch up as the day goes on..

yea. -.- couldnt sleep til 2am just because i couldnt. now i'm supposed to do this whole day running on 3 & a half hours of sleep..... BOOO!!! =(

yep. school 7am-12:45pm. then hanging out w/ jerel..

then home > homework > sleep > school > then yea! ^.~

siiigh. okay. i need to leave in a few minutes, so hope you guys have a great day! & hope you got more sleep than me!! =)

[ cont'd @ 06:41 pm ]

ugh. i'm tired. =)

i'll do my psychology stuff tomorrow. shoot.. i'll have 6 hours. i'll spent it in my room in the library. YEAUH! =)

so school was okay. i kept yawning! haha.. boo to that! math is going to suck this semester. mmHMM. after classes, i went to eat @ grappa w/ adam. YUM! i like their fettucini alfredo. =) adam, i still feel bad!! =(( but yea.. it was a good lunch w/ adam. good talks! =) after that, i went to meet up w/ jerel @ edwards in san marcos. we were the only ones in the theater! but then people came. haha.. we watched 'paparazzi'.. dude. it's a good movie. i feel bad for the big time movie stars though. that'd suck. yep. so we did that. then i went home.

rawr traffic on the 78!

it's all hott here.. what's up with that?! this is CALi!! =(

i need to make a list of my ish. it's easy for me this way. =)

- read/write up lab
- study spanish
- study for ges quiz/monday
- read & do study guide for psyc
- finish math (5 problems left! =)

yea. i hope that's all of it. =T

ok. i'm going to take a shower. then sleep. then thursday will be here!! =D

* teresa 6:07 AM l

Monday, September 06, 2004

last night, danny & may tried to make me watch 'shaun of the dead'.. yea. first 10 minutes SUCKED. good thing i didnt stay up & watch the rest because they told me it sucked. haha.. i win!! =D

visited the lehmans today! good stuff. =)) i definitely need to go over more. "american dream.. so you wrote about me??" haha.. so funny.. =)) then yea.

went to the mall w/ mom, may & dan. haha.. my coworker thought may was my mom! it was funny.. =P but they were saying lots of nice things. *^.^* got black dvs' from journeys & said goodbye to my hard earned money. =( as i described/explained it to randy: "they were prettty!! yea! $70 pretty!!" haha.. then had lunch @ pat & oscars. good food! always! =) i didnt know you had to tip them! =T but halfway through, i got a stomachache, so BOO!! it's okay. just watched them eat.

so then we went home & said goodbye. =( but i'm super glad they came this weekend! even though it was for a day & a half, i loved it & love them for doing so! =DD!!

after they left, i hung out with my sister. we watched 'godsend'.. i SO called the plot! haha.. or yea.. the bad guy & his motives. i want to watch a good scary movie still!! =T oh wells.. then yea.. i had work. =(

WORK!! hahaha!! it was FUNNY today!! i was kind of bummed having to work on labor day, but it's ok! more money in next week's paycheck. =) so yea. all i have to say is.. my manager's a funny lady! haha.. but yea.. work was chill. it was cool talking to lei & chrissy whenever she'd walk through.. i listened to lei & left when she did.. haha.. because yea.. i wasnt on the schedule & wanted to go home so i just clocked out.

ooooh!! clare & adam visited me at work!! yayy!! you guys ROCK!! =D "was i being loud??" .. 'YES!!' hahaha.. you guys make me laugh.. =))

now i'm here.. tomorrow i need to work out then do homework. yay.

* teresa 11:07 PM l

Sunday, September 05, 2004

sooo.. saturday was a good day too. =)

i'll keep the reasons why to myself though. haha.. =)

today is sunday. & will still be for the next 35 minutes.

sooo yea!! i'm glad my mom & dan came up/down/whatever! this weekend!! this morning was sooo funny! my mom woke me up @ 9am. i was all disoriented. haha.. but yea. out of her THREE children, she woke ME up?! haha.. sooo nice.. then i was telling her how i want to have dim sum tomorrow & she was like "oooh.. let's have PANCAKES!!" so yea. we took a trip to albertsons @ 9:30am to buy pancake mix. hahaha.. "does your mom like pancakes??" hahaha.. =DDD!!

then we went to target after breakfast. "i'm gonna!!" HAHA.. =P then they dropped me off @ work. "excuse me!" haha.. sooo great. =)) work was RAWR. it's the same STUFF every week. i dont know. it's nice to have something constant, but at the same time, it's.. ugh. so yea. whatevers. =/

after work - had dinner w/ the family. it was.. interesting.

then went to hollywood video w/ the brother.. dang. that guy was SUPER slow!! "so.. dont i get my change?" .. 'HUH??' -.- rented 'laws of attraction', 'godsend', & 'the passion of the christ'..

my mom & may bought clothes for me from aeropostale!! dude.. i likeee!! haha.. cuteness.. =)) i havent shopped @ ae in awhile though. uhoh!

i have work tomorrow. from 4pm to close. =( i wonder if they close early? probably NOT!! darn their greediness! =X

OOOOOH!! so i have a question! why arent we allowed to wear white after labor day? i never understood it. =T i feel kind of dumb asking. =X

my "4 day weekend" really is.. 3 working days & one day offff.. where i "get" to work out & "get" to do my "homework".. haha.. ugh. good stuff!! =P

ok. my head hurts. goodnight people! =)

* teresa 11:25 PM l

Saturday, September 04, 2004

friday's always a good day. =)

well, after work & school, of course. =) got a message from diana. sooo yea. the ogmp girls met up at (where else?!) iNNOUT!! =D haha.. no balls.. =( it's been almost a year since the whole "missions" thing. haha.. GOOD STUFF! saw leonard, quan & friends. "what, are you guys doing - MiSSiONS?!" .. "what are you going to do? go CLUBBiNG?!" haha.. dangg.. we do things OTHER than that!! haha.. thought of reasons for me. haha.. clare's good @ that kind of stuff.. FOSHO bf! =D "so my friend teresa is in a speech class and she's doing the topic of.." HAHAHA.. sooooo out of no where but funny!! =D "we're trying to start a food fight!" haha.. "if opportunity knocks, i'm going to answer the door..'hellooooo!'" hahaha!! & my favorite of the night!: "he's cute.. except for his face, his hair, and his purse." HAHA!! dude.. seriously though. there's always good times that come out of hanging out @ innout!!

i want the list of the "words!"

my mom & dan are coming tonight!!! =DDD!! may called me at 7am to let me know! but i already knew!! rawrr!! haha.. made me think it was a school day.. =((

k: like i was watching chinese tv in vegas right?
k: u kno william hung is acting in hk now??
k: i was like wtf..
t: whaaaaaaaat the hell!!!
k: haha i kno!!!
t: WHAT THE CRAP!
t: I DONT GET IT!
k: i dont either
t: ughhhh
t: WEiRD
t: =T
k: man.. when some ppl get lucky.. they get lucky..

k: its like its not enough that he made a ridiculous cd.. now hes acting too?
k: ppl actuall bought his cd.. which made it even worse

good points, kat!! haha.. but seriously.. whaaat the heck!! =T

yayyyy.. i'm excited to hang w/ the brother!! haha.. he wants me to help him with his paper.. =D i just want to bug my mom! =DD!!

i dont know what to do with the orange plastic flatware may bought me. haha.. soooo weird. maybe i should put it in the orange cup she got me. mm.. haha.. soooo weird!! but i love it!! haha.. =D

ok. i need to finish getting ready for work. so yea! have a good saturday!! =D

[ cont'd @ 07:53 pm ]

i dont think mom & dan are going to be here until 11? =(

kat's trying to persuade me into moving to NM. haha.. her reasoning:

k: NM not that bad in business
k: some korean guy came here for hotel management
k: hahaha

k: we have macy's here too

t: the skys red
t: =T
t: weird
k: haha that is weird
t: yea
k: come here!
k: our skies are gray
k: haha
k: and blue
t: LOL
t: what the crap

k: i kno why else u should come here
k: theres this like really really cute white guy in my jap class!

k: oh! and richard has this chinese friend
(followed w/ her emphasizing the fact that he's CHiNESE!! haha.. =)

kat's funny. dang. this entry is alllll you!! haha.. it's ok. i love my k!! i havent talked to her in forever!! so yea!! =DD!!

* teresa 11:43 AM l

Friday, September 03, 2004

i would consider myself a morning person more so than a night person. but dang. today was just WEiRD.

so i had a 7am class today. i'm driving on the 78.. i'm really close to the exit (twin peaks? ugh. i take this exit every other day but i cant name it? ugh. =/) and then this car on my left distracts me - i dont know how & i totally pass my exit. =( so i take the next exit & go in a circle. yes. i'm good like that.

and then.. when i was walking from the parking lot to the dome.. you know that area? it's a hill for cars & when i was walking, i was like 'hm. i'm walking kind of slanted.' hahaha.. like yea. my body was leaning more to the right than it should be.. upright & stuff. haha..

so anyways.

i've spent too much money on food this week. ugh. but i got paid today!! =D!! but still..!! =/

i kind of want to cut my hair again.

the stupid pop up ads on my computer BUG me!! DAN!! you didnt do a good job!! >=T rawr rawr..

i want to go shopping, but not. shopping=spending money=less money in bank account=BAD!! so therefore, shopping=BAD. haha.. philosophy does wonders to a person.. heh.

ok. i think i'm going to go hang by myself then get ready then go to work for 3 (not even WORTH it!) hours.. oOooh.. and i BET my managers going to ask me to come in earlier for either saturday, sunday, both or maybe even monday. yippie~

but yea. i hope you guys have a GREAT weekend!! =)

if you have no plans: you. me. tuesday. let's DO THiS! =D

* teresa 4:03 PM l

Thursday, September 02, 2004

"don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. all they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves." - albert camus

i got this from monica's info awhile back. because i really liked it.

havent you noticed that when you ask your friends what they think about something, they hesitate before telling you? especially if it's concerning you. or they do that whole "*deep breath* wellll.." i guess it is true how they would rather be in your good graces than.. anything else. i can understand why friends wouldnt be upfront & truly honest with me.. because i'm like that too.

i dont know. this applies to some people i suppose. some are comfortable with being upfront & blunt.. while others are not so comfortable. with me - it depends.. on the situation & person.. just like any other scenario..

why am i writing about this? my thoughts are never complete. i dont know. i just hope that all my FRiENDS are being truly honest with me.. because that's what friends do?

hm. that brings about white lies.. and how people use them to make others feel better? or not so bad? yea. dont EVER use them on me. spare me the bullshit. i'd rather you hurt my feelings than lie. besides, it'll only make me a better/stronger person in the end. yea. k thanks.

i kind of want some drama right now. just so there's SOMETHiNG going on. but at the same time.. i dont. drama's nothing but trouble. ugh. and my emotions get all over the darn place.

i'm at some kind of standstill.....

* teresa 4:27 PM l

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

i think my pre business classes.. the teachers.. are WEiRD!! and when they start talking.. it makes me want to fall asleep. =T

shit fuck. maybe it's the subject. maybe i need to change majors.

so in math class today, my teacher is still doing review & he said we were going to do this one problem.. he starts it. it's about surfboards & how many you could produce.. so he starts it off.. but then he goes off on some tangent on if this were applied in real life, he asks how much real surfboards cost & puts it into the problem. so he started this problem from the book, then started putting different numbers into the problem (when all the numbers were given cept for one, obviously.) & then he just stops doing it saying "i'm not going to finish this problem." so HOW are we supposed to know how to do it?!?! oh MAN!! yea. i was just like "WTF!!" the whole time. -.-

but other than that.. my day was good. =P classes went by fast. after school, i returned my other spanish books. my eyecandy from math last semester works in the bookstore! haha.. i was like mm.. =)! then adam & i got carne asada fries from mr. taco. yum. "i can feel my stomach!" .. 'of course you can.' haha.. =P then the whole ACTR thing was pretty good! i didnt think of that! go adam! =)

i had to kill a daddy long legs today. =(

i dont know if i want to go out later. i'm tired. & being really lazy. sigh. not much of an excuse. =/ i think i'll take a nap.. then decide.

* teresa 3:28 PM l