Sunday, October 31, 2004
out of the loop. once again.
i feel it.
it doesnt happen in school, but outside too. focus on one thing, & get lost with everything else.
i'm growing distant from people. i can feel it. can you?
I. DONT. LIKE. THIS.
* teresa 10:14 AM l
Saturday, October 30, 2004
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CHRIS!!!
work these past 2 days have been sooooo awesome. =) closing at 10 on friday was FUN! my coworkers are cool. haha.. lei & i concluded that a lot of the people that work at macys went to mt carmel & that most go to palomar? haha.. then we took our 10 *ahem 25 ahem* minute break.. 0=) then since it was so freakn DEAD in there at 8pm, we were talking about how if we ask for days off, our manager asks us to work/make up for it! haha.. boo to that!! =T but it makes sense.. i GUESS!! i have to work an extra hour (which isnt THAT bad!) on sunday to get next sunday off.. heh.. then today!! my coworkers are freakn hilarious! i thought it was sooo funny.. one of them is always SO BLUNT! she was like "that little BITCH!" blahblahblah.. i was like HAHAHAHA.. OMGOSH?! i dont know.. she's SO freakn chill though.. soooo yea.. it's cool like that. =)
then!! i decide to take my break & go to the smoothie place next to macys.. then the girl that works there was all like:
her: do you work in the mall?
me: yeaa.. right over there! *points to macys*
her: oh.. how old are you??
me: um.. 19..?
her: OMG!! you're 19?! i thought you were 16!!!!
.. -.- mm.. YEAAAA.. haha.. i guesss!! so yea. fun stufff!! work wasnt that bad & we get to dress up tomorrow! BUT! i dont know what to dress up as! hmph. haha.. i only want to dress up so i dont have to dress all nice for work. IF that makes sense! heh.
p (7:17:45 PM): and my friend said that he was going to take me to this one haunted house but its a strip club at the same time
p (7:17:49 PM): =-O
t (7:18:27 PM): haha
t (7:18:29 PM): whaat?!
p (7:19:28 PM): well its called mini demons or something
p (7:19:35 PM): and like...i guess their stripping
p (7:19:40 PM): but they have blood on them or something?
p (7:19:41 PM): ionno
t (7:19:48 PM): lol
i'm playing this song over & over :: youre the one - guerilla black.. =DD
i got to talk to andy the other night. =) i was studying spanish & thought of him. haha.. i'm weird like that, SORRY! "and when the teacher calls on you, speak louder, kay?!" =) good stuff.
my mom's coming this weekend!!!!! =DDDDD!!! i also found out i'm going to get to see my cousin EVA & get to drive back to vegas w/ her in mid december!!! YEAUH!!! i'm EXCiTED for sure!! =DD
i hate this. i have soooo much to do!! [writing up lab 5, 6 AND 7 - each take up what, 3-4 pages?! =( reading 3.. now 5 chapters for psyc (each chapter is of course 20+ pages), the psyc study guide, and i should probably finish the rest of my calc problems (only 7 but still!)] and i SHOULD clean my room because it really pisses me off when it's dirty.. but i'm so DAMN tired all the freakn time now.. i think i'm going to wait until after i register for spring 05.. if i want to work at macys still. we shall seee!! i know i'm definitely not going to babysit/tutor billy.. so if anyone wants to do it, let me know! haha..
tired. rawr rawr. haha.. guess what i did last night? .. so my manager put a bag of candy in everyone's cubby & so i was tired and hungry last night when i got home, but was too lazy to get out of my room to look for real food, so i decided to eat a piece. right after.. i realized how DUMB that was. i couldnt sleep til 12..? and that's late to me. i can hardly stay up past 12 nowadays! =(
ok. no more. too tired to type.. =P
* teresa 8:05 PM l
Friday, October 29, 2004
booo.. i wish i were in vegas.. so i could enjoy nevada day & not have to go to school!! hahaha.. it's really on the 31st, right? hm.. oh well.
it's cold. i finally bought my csusm sweatshirt!! =D
i actually did my calc hw w/in the week it was assigned! =D
my neck hurts.. i think i slept on it weird. this sucks. =/
i need to buy more poptarts..
* teresa 1:45 PM l
Thursday, October 28, 2004
love. such a strong word isnt it? it isnt just something between couples, but within family, friends, and strangers even. depends on the kindness of your heart.
love within family. it's something that's there from the day you're born. the love is.. just there. throughout the arguments with your parents, the family drama, the petty/big fights with your brothers and/or sisters.. it's still there. deep down, it's there. as for love and friends? love between friends is grown. you learn to trust that friend and to love them for who they are. then that love is like love within your family. and depending on how much you love that friend, they may become another "brother" or "sister" - making them family. and that love stays.
have you noticed how if you love someone, you'd do things out of your way for them? or maybe that's just the kind of person you are. but i've noticed how i always go out of my way to do things for others. yea, i would complain to myself about it saying i ALWAYS do what others want me to do.. taking the time out of my life to do this & that.. but in the end - it's worth it. when i get that 'thank you' or a hug or a smile.. honestly - it's the simple things that count.
someone asked me awhile ago if one of my two best friends were to die, which one i would want it to be.. with no second thought or hestitation, i just answered that I'D want to die before they do. sacrifices. another thing that happens with love. you always want the best for the other.
your feelings also go hand in hand. when they're happy you're happy. when they're sad, you're sad. when they're mad, you're mad. etc etc..
i'd like to think i have a good heart, but why do people take advantage of it? why cant i hate people? especially when they've HURT me in one way or another? why do i always have to CARE? i used to say i was heartless. there are times when i still do and wish i were. but that just wouldnt be me.
ahhh.. incomplete thoughts! =/ but you get the gist of this, yea?
* teresa 1:16 PM l
Monday, October 25, 2004
today is my
DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!! <33333
my dad wakes me up every mwf @ 5:20am.
d: are you awake?
me: yea.. appy burfday
d: what? i cant hear you.
me: appy burfday.
d: i cant hear you. what are you saying??
me: HAPPY. BIRTHDAY.
d: oh.. THANKS!
ahahaha.. i love my daddy!! =DDD
sooooooo.. update time..?? ready? set? GO!!
so i had work friday-sunday. as usual. there are SO many people that piss me off! customers that arent considered customers because they STEAL!! motherSUCKERS!! >=T people seriously AMAZE me on the lengths as to how far they'd go to steal something and avoid paying $60 for a piece of frabric sewed together. -.- i've said it once & i'll say it again - if you cant fuckn afford it, get OVER iT!! rawr. i sound like i'm preaching. =/
but yea!! at work, i was SO AMUSED on sunday because my coworker & i were folding the sweaters, shirts, whatever on the tables & she brings over this folding mobile of some sort. it's so AWESOME.. it's like one of those trifold posterboards? but laid upwards.. but anyways.. you lay the shirt facing down, then you fold the sleeves over the back in the shape of an X or whatever - are you following me? heh.. & then for one of the side flaps, you flip it over to the middle & do the same to the other side & then you fold the shirt from front to back & ta da! it's all NICE!! hahaha.. holy shit.. i just explained how to fold a shirt & i'm pretty sure NO ONE got that.. hahaha.. oops?
what else happened over the weekend? hung out w/ brian. my other brother. haha.. may, brian & i watched 'perfect strangers'.. SUCH A WEiRD MOViE!! no.. seriously. i wouldnt recommend that to ANYONE. heh.. SO WEiRD!! went out to eat @ olive garden. they dont have the endless pasta anymore!! it supposedly ended last week. BOO to THAT!! =( "is he your friend?" 'no.. i just come here a lot.' hahaha.. oh so funny.. good times.. =))
oooh.. i watched 'mystic river'!! it's a good, yet depressing type of movie.. thanks for lending it to me dr. ok!! ;D
mm.. what else.. school.. today. it was okay. long. i hate mondays. =) my only 3 friends in spanish decided to skip, so i was a total loner & the profesora made it a point to let everyone in class know when she asked me a question. =/ actually went to psyc. =) haha.. i'm glad i dont have a super F in calc anymore.. =)) always a good thing.. yea. that about sums it up for school?
hm. my heater just died on me. i'm sad. and mad. i'm cold & i dont want to go buy another one. that's the 2nd one in 2 years!! err.. yea. =(
my brother's more social than me. dude. i cant get over it. haha.. i miss my friday nights out!! iNNOUT. OGMP. the "missions"!! oh man oh man.. the adventures..
ok. i'm tired now. i'm an old granny.. =(
* teresa 11:34 PM l
Saturday, October 23, 2004
i wish i had a PAUSE button for life.
then i could catch up on sleep, do all the things i didnt have time for, then resume going on w/ ENERGY - actually WANT to do stuff, hang w/ the friends, etc!
8 more weeks of this. then 4 weeks of life that doesnt mean SCHOOL! =)
[ cont'd @ 10:05 pm ]
c (9:36:03 PM): haha i looked on ours for our quizzes and they ARE really similar :D
t (9:37:41 PM): haha
t (9:37:46 PM): we have quizzes posted?!
c (9:37:54 PM): yep!
t (9:37:59 PM): holy shit!
t (9:38:00 PM): really?!
t (9:38:01 PM): fuck
t (9:38:02 PM): i suck
a (9:42:18 PM): when did you get off work?
t (9:42:22 PM): 6
t (9:42:26 PM): it was soooo freakn BUSY
t (9:42:33 PM): i had to run all over the place checking the 3 fitting rooms
t (9:42:38 PM): and we have like, 6!
* teresa 10:26 AM l
Friday, October 22, 2004
myspace reminds me of all the up & downsides to the whole 'online' thing..
downsides:
- the stalkerish people
- the people who think they can hit on you because they feel more comfortable doing so online
- it can get addicting -.-
upsides:
- keeping in touch w/ friends
- finding long lost friends =)
- keeps you from being bored
- meeting people you can actually talk to (none of that instant 'hey baby..how YOU doing' bullshit)
wow. all of this makes me feel grown up, but not. haha.. i remember back when asianavenue was cool, i was one of "those" people who wanted to befriend everyone. come to think of it, the only people i actually met off of AA was erick & justin. hahaha.. oh mann.. so those were the only good things that came out of THAT. now myspace.. it's cool, but some people on there need to get a reality check. i mean, i'm all for it if youre in it to expand your networking & to get more FRiENDS.. but an instant hookup or whatever?? .. sorry, but that's just lame. because i dont think it'd ever work out if youre halfway across the country from one another and i dont know.. i was so anti meeting people online because YEA.. heh.. taken from dana's myspace awhile ago (its stuck in my head!) "make friends w/o the internet lazy asses!" or something along those lines.. but hey.. i guess there ARE some instances where you CAN meet people online & be friends or even more.. but we shouldnt rely on these internet communities to meet people.
so WHY am i still on it? because i'm a loser like that. hypocritical in all i say. sigh.
sooooooooo that was my insight on that. sorry there were just some things that were bugging me but it went off in that huge tangent. heh..
aw. i'm an even bigger loser. i just checked asianavenue & wanted to see who still updates that and yea! andy has cute pictures of him & iris. =)) dang. i miss double ac. i miss a lot of things and people.. =(
in psychology today, we were talking about memory & what causes us to forget or misremember. there was this thing on motivated forgetting - where people unknowingly revise their own histories. the whole what we saw is not always what we say. then there was this thing on imagination effects and how we fill in the blanks to the parts we dont like.. haha.. so making it better than it was? bleh. i do that sometimes. i have a selective memory. haha.. i only remember the good things! so if you ask me about an embarrassing moment, unless it was recent, nothing will come to mind! =T
then there was the whole retention thing or whatever, how things are still "fresh" in your mind when it happened & as time goes on, you dont really remember it as vividly. bleh. i dont know. why am i talking about THiS! haha.. i'm so weird.. =/ but i dont know.. i guess i just miss my times in vegas.. i feel like i'm starting to forget lots of things! and it's bothering me. blub..
okay! no more. my head hurts more now! =(
* teresa 1:52 PM l
Thursday, October 21, 2004
i love getting cool emails.. (thanks bf!)
NATURAL HIGHS
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla or strawberry)!
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
* teresa 9:57 PM l
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
i got to study for a good 3.5 hours yesterday w/ some classmates. "lo d hi - hi d lo.. square the bottom & off we go!" hahaha.. YEA. =)
BUT.. i missed out on getting korean bbq w/ the family. =(
the moment of yesterday: diana's "can i tell you a secret??"
the moment of today: soooo i was talking to akmr on the phone & i was eating ice cream cake from my aunt's birthday.. it was in a cup because i didnt want to find a bowl. i was mixing the cake & the ice cream together in an attempt to melt the ice cream faster? haha.. or actually - i dont know what i was doing! =P so yea.. there i was mixing it & i scoop it up, but i guess i scooped it up too hard & fast because it flung in the air & landed on the ground & all over the place! hahahaha.. sorry for yelling akmr! haha.. i'm such a SPAZZ!!! -.-
so.. seriously? i'm becoming extremely paranoid of getting fired from macys.. heh.. hopefully it's just a feeling!! =T whoa.. i've been working there for 5 months! weird! haha.. i'm weird for pointing that out. kay. no more.
aww.. what the crap.. my brother's telling me stories right now & it kind of reminds me of the missions, but NOT! haha.. i miss those days.. =/
so BOOGiE over winter break, right?! haha.. dude.. i want to go clubbing in vegas.. mm.. but i'd want my OGMP people to be there too!! shoot.. haha.. =)
let's see what i have to do:
- read for psyc! ch. 23-27! O.O!
- spanish workbook/lab manual
- write up lab 5
- read/write up lab 6
- STUDY FOR GES MIDTERM ON MONDAY!!!!!
but hey.. NO MATH!!! hahaha.. i'm such a nerd. sigh.
okay! well, that's all. my head hurts & i have to get up early to hang out w/ billy. rawr. it never ends.. i'm telling ya.. =/
* teresa 11:10 PM l
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
i wish i had more time to do things.
i wish i could be in two places at once.
i wish i didnt put off all of my calc homework.
i wish i could study for AT LEAST an hour & do good.
i wish people actually did the things they say they'll do.
i wish i would actually listen to myself every now & then.
* teresa 1:39 PM l
Monday, October 18, 2004
let's try to see how much i remember.
[
friday ] skipped spanish for the first (& ONLY) time for the semester!! =T bad choice on my part. then work. i love closing on friday nights - even though it prevents me from hanging w/ friends, YEA. haha.. my coworker lei & i were fixing this rack of clothes that were smushed together & having this conversation when this lady comes & asks her where the boys clothes are.. i hear her tell the lady where they are & yea.
l: the boy's department is upstairs right??
t: uhh.. the KIDS!
l: OMGOSH! did i send them to the wrong place?? the guy looked small anyways, right?
t: haha.. dang.. yea! he was scrawny! i wouldve told you if you were wrong, dont worry - i got your back! haha..
then my other coworker who was across the aisle from us heard the end of that conversation & thought i was giving her advice on guys! so she was all laughing at us.. yeaa.. haha.. weird!! =)
[
saturday ] hung out w/ michele in the morning! =D got pho in rb. yummy. stupid segregrated seating. wtf. hung out w/ KEViN for awhile! =D went to work a little early w/ him & his mom.. then yea.. GOT $20 AT WORK!!! =D because we won some contest.. everyone (on the 2nd floor) got it!! YEAUH!! haha.. then!! after work!! i'm just going to copy & paste from my myspace blog:
csusm's masquerade ball [10.16.o4]: WHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
yea. it was fun. =)) it was great seeing people i havent seen at school!! so YAYY for my non antisocial night!! so i had work 1-6 yesterday, then i was lagging & got home at 6:30 only because i sped. =T i suck, i'm sorry! but got ready, clare came & we went to iNNOUT!! OGMP meet up - YEAUH!! haha.. people STARE when you go in all dressed up. psssh.. whatever!
so it was clare, diana, randy, christa & rj.. we ate. then headed off to pechanga in temecula for the ball. there, we met up w/ adam & carrie, then trish & paul came!! YAYYY!! FRiENDS!!! =D so yea.. the ball was super fun!! dancing for 3 & a half hours.. heck yea!! haha.. it's all about the non dressy shoes! haha.. diana & her "drunk dancing".. the ice cubes! "i totally kicked that guy!" haha.. paul & trish's cooool moves.. stacking boxes? you guys are hilarious.. kicking the balloons away.. & what's stuck in my head is the whole "get down & get your eagle on" line.. haha.. i dont know WHY!! [and i didnt even get THAT low! hahaha.. jk..] haha.. but yea.. lots of diRrty dancing around us!!
the only downside to the ball was the lackage of GUYS!! freakn csusm & the 3:1 girl to guy ratio!! [is that right? or is it 2:1?]
afterwards.. there was the after party!! haha.. too bad we only stayed for 5 minutes. it's alll good. had a few sips.. of whatever trish had. goood stuff.. then off we went.. trish running through the sprinklers.. and randy.. "diana wont let me!! i wanted to!!" hahaha.. oh man.. you guys are just too FUNNY!! =D
[
sunday ] got a wake up call. went & had breakfast w/ kevin & family. haha.. cinnamon bagels are YUMMY!! especially w/ strawberry cream cheese!! haha.. weird, but YUM!! =D so yea work. whatevers. wasnt as productive as i wouldve liked.. =/ but got to talk to akmr for awhile.. that was cool! haha.. i never get to talk to anyone anymore.. bahh.. i suck..
brother: teresa
brother: how come you never call
brother: anymoreeeeeeee
t: cause i'm too DAMN BUSY
t: fuckn a
t: haha
brother: hahaha
brother: well i guess
t: sorry
brother: thats a legitimate answer
[
monday ] i woke up late! =( sped to school. rawr. got to the parking lot at 7 on the dot! it RAiNED!! boo & yayy!! boo to my BLACK DVS' getting WET!! =( but YAYYY for rain.. i LOVE it!! <333!! skipped psyc, went to math, ate w/ adam, then had lab. came home, went to the bank & target w/ may. mm.. yea.. i WASNT PRODUCTiVE!! sigh.. what am i going to do w/ myself? =(
wow. so much. haha.. i havent blogged that much in awhile! i hope no one read all of this! haha.. =T
i have SO MUCH STUFF to do!! well.. SO MUCH STUFF=studying for calc.. =( i HATE it.. why cant i be naturally smart?? (especiallly when it comes to math? =()
* teresa 9:49 PM l
Sunday, October 17, 2004
t: i talked to my manager the other day
t: n asked about the whole working in vegas thing
d: mhm
d: ohh suppose to snow wednesday
d: ok random
d: go on
t: and yeaa.. she just had this skeptical look & i think she' just gona let me go back for a week or so
t: NICE
d: YAY!!
t: hahaha
t: i want to stay longer
t: =/
d: yea....
d: that is really gay...haha
d: sorta
d: not really yay ne more
d: afte i think about it
d: ahha
t: hahahaha!!
d: why a week..u'll be there a week..getting accustom to ppl..and their routine..u know
d: gotta take a lil longerrr
d: hehe
d: =]
d: get in the groove..and not just feel all uncomfy for a week
d: :sending waves of :let teresa stay longerrr:
d: =DDDDDDDDD
i love my other half!!! you make me =DD!!
* teresa 9:47 PM l
Friday, October 15, 2004
my =) moments of this past week:
- finding the dresses with my sister!!
- watching the last episode ever of FRIENDS!!
(aww.. now i want to get all the seasons!! =X)
- hanging out with MiCHELE!!! =DD!!
- figuring out what my MAJOR will be!!!
- being SOCiAL on school nights!! =X
my not so =) moments of the week:
- calculus homework. that says it all. -.-
- not having time to go work out!!
- the mothafuckn 78% on my psyc test!! >=T
- finding out i HAVE to take accounting & econ spring 05
(yep! SUCKS. a LOT. but you gotta do what you gotta do.)
- gas prices. wtf. $2.37 a day ago now it's $2.41?? >=(
- realizing things will be different before christmas comes.. =(
so.. i was thinking about things & yea. i dont like some things but at the same time, i knew it was inevitable? blar. i know i'm going to be feeling blah the next few months. =( or yea, after december. haha.. but yea.. besides that, there ARE exciting things going on!! or will happen!! haha.. CRAZY.
yea. that's me. CRAZY or INSANE.. [it's the same thing!!] (@.#)!!
communication is key to any kind of relationship. we all know that. right?
i dont know what to do about macys anymore.. heh.. BOOO!! i want to stay for my cool coworkers & the job's not that bad.. it's just the HOURS that suck & the pay too.. (i know i shouldnt be complaining because it's not that bad for a minimum wage job, but ughh.) i guess i just have to talk to my manager & see if i can move up to being an oh so cool sales associate that can ring people up.. haha.. if not it'll be time to move on from there.. hm.. i guess that solved that! it's like thinking outloud, but not. =P
so i'm confused. i think. i think by fall 05, i'll be able to start working on my major? & then by junior year, i can start on my upper division? can i take summer school this summer?! to finish up my 3 GE's?? hm.. why do i always get more questions AFTER i LEAVE?? -.-
ok. i'm done for now. i wish i had something more interesting to share that's not school or work related or me being antisocial. i think i should do some more calc. but i'll most likely take a little nap, eat, then go to work. yay. always SSSOOOOO busy bUsY BUSY!!
* teresa 1:21 PM l
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
so.. check this.. i'm not tired at midnight on sundays, tuesdays or thursdays when i should be sleeping for my 7am class that take place on the following days.. but i'm tired when i have to wake up to when i have class and by the time my day at school is done with, i'm suddenly awake. uh.. whaaat?? -.-
weird wEiRd WEiRD.. @.@
so the 50 math problems i said i'd do yesterday? i did a little more than half and now i have that plus a good 40? i'm a big time LOSER! =(
ashley - billy's 3, almost 4, year old sister called me 'mer-esa'.. she says my name's weird. that's because THAT'S not my name. =(( booo.. i even watched dora with her.. haha.. oh wells..
i want to see how i did on my psyc test!!! ahhhh.. =T
saturday's almost here!! haha.. kind of, sort of!! =)
hung out w/ fireboy at the marketplace last night. an interesting conversation. then randy & diana came! went to jamba juice to bug rj & paul! (havent done that in awhile! =D!) went back outside.. "are they in the nfl??" hahaha.. =))
it was a nice break from being antisocial, but afterwards i realized that i had a lot of stuff i shouldve done!! rawr!! oh wells.. after saturday, i'll be back to my antisocial-ness!! =/
ok. my head hurts. =(
* teresa 5:59 PM l
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
HARRY POTTER & THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE is the title of the 6th book!!!! oh man oh man.. i CANT WAiT!!! =D!!
anyways. just wanted to put that there.. because i'm a bookworm & darn PROUD of it!! haha.. good stuff.. =)
but yea.. my 50 or so calc problems are beckoning me. (& that's only last half of chapter 3! - i have to do the first 3 sections of chapter 4.. i LOSE!! x9876543210) but yea.. it's my fault it all piled up. i ignored calc & focused on psyc for the past week.. but now the tables have turned. it's all calc for the next week - until the 20th. whooo.. so here. i. goooo!!
* teresa 10:00 AM l
Monday, October 11, 2004
adam & i were having a conversation in our lab waiting while our dna was boiling in water! (krrrhahaha.. dont ask because i DONT KNOW!) when this guy nick was all like,
"hey, you guys act the same!" .. HAHAHA.. aww.. poor adam!! it was funny though!! =))
ok. that was my funny highlight of the day. what was yours? =)
* teresa 4:51 PM l
Sunday, October 10, 2004
so i'm cleaning my room right now & dang.. i have these little pamphlets/ads/whatever from macys.. they just go to waste.. and my 10-15% coupon goes to waste because i dont want to go shopping. haha.. so if anyone ever wants to take advantage of it - let me know! i'll gladly pass it on! =))
i told myself i'd do my calculus homework over the weekend. i have 4 sections to do. but my sister dragged me to go out w/ her last night & omgosh.. SO COOL! i stayed up til 1am last night!! hahaha.. CuRaZY!! =D good conversatins.. FOSHO. =)) then today was work. yuck. then i had to do laundry, shower & then do homework. yea. so i've been doing that for the past 3 hours. waiting for my laundry to finish.
SO MY COWORKER LEI IS SOOOOO COOOL!!!! =DDD!!! i was telling her a couple of weeks ago that i was probably the ONLY loser who hasnt seen the last episode of friends & today she comes into work & she told me she found it & brought it so i can watch it!! =DD!! SO AWESOME!! i swear!! =D
yea. weird blog. one thing to the next. krrrhahahaha..
"while many a 20 year old wonders where the party is, older adults prefer a smaller social network marked by emotionally meaningful relationships w/ relatively few close friends & w/ family." - from my psyc book.. haha.. i dont know why but i thought of it when debbie & i were talking.. many topics.. yea.. i'll let this thought be unfinished (like my oh so many others!)
this week i need to:
- do calc hw!!!
- go to macys for cups
- call/hang with michele
- get dress for ball!!
- watch the last episode of friends!!
.. am i missing something? probably!! =/
ok. need to fold laundry! i need more hands/time!!
* teresa 9:51 PM l
holy crap. blogger has been opened for like an hour waiting for me to write in it.. but i suck & myspace is distracting. haha.. =)
- 15 minutes pass -
i suck.
hahaha.. so yea! i was thinking.. how COOL it would be if i could transfer to work @ the macys in vegas for a MONTH (winter break!) & hang out there?! =DD!! YEAUH. we'll see if THAT happens though.. haha.. how COOL would that BE THOUGH?!?! =DD!!
yea. anyways.. i'm still being distracted by myspace. rawr.
soooo i'll take this time to say goodnight & have a good week guys!! =D
* teresa 12:09 AM l
Friday, October 08, 2004
i'm iNSANE!!!
............. (#.x)?! yea.. exactly.
* teresa 1:31 PM l
Thursday, October 07, 2004
* i really like kelly clarkson's "breakaway".. =)
sooo i hate studying. =) it sucks. i have a feeling all of this "studying" will be for "nothing" & i'm going to end up "failing" anyways. "nice." -.-
my weekends are nonexistent. i hate it. a lot of people at work have already quit because of that. heh. BAD. the other day my coworkers were talking about people, heaven, hell & my coworker was like 'yea, i'm not going to heaven because i put clothes away for macys' then this lady comes & asks if we can hold something for her.. we usually dont but my coworker said yes & she turns to me 'maybe i'll get into heaven for that!' HAHAHA..
yea. life = school + work.. and i havent even mentioned the other stuff going on. because i choose not to. dontcha just HATE me? ]=)
everything's so.. routine.
[ cont'd @ 11:51 pm ]
i cant sleep. & i have to get up in what, 6 hours?? by the time i get sleepy, sign off & lay in my bed, it'll take another hour for me to fall asleep. what the HECK?! .. totally NOT HAViNG this.
maybe i'm stressed. maybe i'm mad & that's why i cant go to sleep. mad? why? PEOPLE ARE DUMB & SUCKY & NEED TO GO AWAY!!! yea. i dont know why but i just thought about people that have sucked in the past year or so & tonight's one of the many where i'm like '..and WHY do i still CARE?? fuck 'em. blahBLahBLAH..' but.. i say all this shit & dont listen to myself. i SUCK like that. why do i let people GET to me?!
i know i know.. this is the same stuff i've been complaining about over & over.. but SHIT! people just SUCK sometimes & it BOTHERS me. WHY must i try to be "cool" with everyone?? when really - we dont talk as much, so it just makes us aquaintances - which means we're back in square one. i love how there was that little strand of hope.. yet now.. there's NONE. i dont know why i bother TRYING. or even HOPING.
i hate trying & not getting the end result i'd like.. (this applies to everything)
.. just like the test i have tomorrow. if i fail the test because of my lack of sleep as opposed to my studying all week not being enough.. that'd be dandy. just DANDY.
i'm so bitter sometimes. gotta love it.
i hate people like myself sometimes. complaining all the motherfreakn time - when it could be a whole lot worse.. finding excuses for their failures.. ETC!
i wish i could take something to knock me out.
* teresa 9:03 PM l
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
when forming a smile, the person's left side of the mouth starts it. (ugh. bad wording.) yeaa!! or maybe it was just for babies. but i noticed i do that. sooo.. =
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kayden is such a cute baby!! =))
i watched smallville & they were talking about serotonin.. i was like I KNOW WHAT THAT IS. thanks psyc 100 for forcing me to learn about the brain & the parts of the brain! hahaha.. dang. because THAT doesnt show that i'm a NERD.
seriously, even though it could probably be a whole lot worse, i feel like i have a kajillion things to do. i feel bad not having time for friends. i'd be regretful if i went & hung out instead of staying home & studying.. yet those who give guilt trips make me feel bad if i do so.. thanks "FRiEND"?! i love how w/ regrets.. you dont realize it until after it's happened. mm. yep. maybe i will regret not going out w/ friends because that might mean less friends? but honestly - real friends would understand. or on the other hand, i might regret going out w/ friends all the time & not learning anything.
"i feel BAD for you!!"
can i just get through school for the next 3 and a half years? then deal with life? for a good year or two.. then work for the rest of it??? that'd be great. k thanks.
so the other day, i was talking to someone who knows me pretty well.. i was telling her about certain people & she told me 'you let people walk over you a LOT' & etc.. it made me feel =( but i guess in a way, it's true.. just because i dont hold grudges for forever. i wish i were more like my friends. i want to not have tolerance for everyone. or at least be able to not talk to someone anymore & be "alright" with it. sure that tolerance wanes every now & then, but yea. mm.. i love not finishing sentences & thoughts! .. YEA.
d: honestly
d: its like politics
d: i dont know
d: bush
d: or kerry
speaking of which - i dont know if i'm registered to vote or not. once i have free time, i need to get my butt down to the dmv. for REALS.
tomorrow: study forever for psyc > pick up & drop off billy > more studying until i pass out.. YEAA!! looking forward to it!!
* teresa 10:49 PM l
Sunday, October 03, 2004
so today, the same phrase was being repeated over & over in my head. that phrase was: "what the FUCK?!"
when i get to work, my coworker lauren tells me to go with her & as we're walking into the fitting room, i smell this funky smell.. we walk towards the back & the smell gets stronger.. we stop, she points @ this dark stain on the ground. yea. SOMEONE PEED iN THE ROOM!! how fucking disgusting!!! so they decide to close that fitting room, but you can freaking smell it still!! UGH!! THEN! my other coworker elizabeth went in because lauren showed her also & she picked up a shirt (i dont KNOW WHY!) and there was PEE on it!! DISGUSTING!!
so as the day goes on, i keep telling my coworkers how digusting people are & all that fun stuff.. then my coworker who used to work down in men's told me it's worse down there & i didnt think it could be any worse, so i was like 'how?' & she told me that YEA.. people do number 2's down there!! WHAT THE HELL?! fitting room does not equal bathroom!! again - DIGUSTING.
and then.. so work's whatever. i'm trying to do my shit & the go backs for the other fitting room. i'm just all fustrated! then this lady comes up to me & asks me where the cashmere stuff is & i lead her to the wrong spot. (fuckn shit.. they always move their stuff around on the floor, so i seem all lost every weekend! which looks bad on my part!! SHIT!) so i ask my coworker to point me in the right direction. so me & this lady walk over to the cashmere sweaters & so she's all like 'thank you' so i'm like 'no problem.' & walk away. -.- so i put my clothes away then i walk back into my fitting room & just as i go in, the first door opens & that lady walks out w/ the sweater, so i smile at her then i go in & i see two sweaters i KNOW she DIDNT want, but she had them?? so i was like wtf.. yea, i go in, she hid the tickets she RIPPED off of the cashmere sweater. FUCK! yea. this lady was like a grandma & she fuckn STOLE?! an $80 cashmere sweater?!?! .. wow. you would think she would've learned right from wrong a long fuckn time ago! whatEVER. so that ruined my day for reals. but it's comforting to know karma will get back at her in some way & form. yea. "karma's a BITCH!"
so the things i've learned today:
- people are DIGUSTING.
- it doesnt matter how old or young people are; everyone is capable of stealing.
but that brings about other questions:
- WHY are people so DISGUSTING???
- what makes people steal??
(.. if you cant fuckn afford it, get over it.)
ahhh.. yea. i think that's all.
time to tend to my neverending pile of homework.
* teresa 7:34 PM l
Saturday, October 02, 2004
at work yesterday, my coworker was telling me a story about the store manager and how the whole store was invited to an awards ceremony awhile back & i was like 'how nice' but she told me how he only praised those who got awards, not the whole store - so it left her feeling like crap. & yea. that does suck. singling people out.. so i was all anti-working at macy*s because of him. and it makes me want to quit even more. but then i go in my manager's office to get my stuff so i can leave & i didnt know i had a little box or whatever until chrissy told me that she was going to check hers, so i looked & i DO have one! haha.. & it had stuff in it! & talk about irony - it had a little certificate that said "associate of the month".. krrrhahahaha.. too bad i dont know WHAT month!! that was kind of funny though!!
dang. that was a long paragraph. haha.. so yea. i dont know when i should quit. because i know i have to go back to vegas for my dentist appointment on 12.22.. & i WILL be gone for christmas.. hm.. whatevers! the end result is the same - i wont be working for macy*s in 2005. =X
aww.. i cant wait to see my k & d!! =D
.. i wonder if i'm going back for thanksgiving.. rawrr.
t: i have a bruise on my leg
t: sooo weird
d: dang mushrooms!
d: yea i dunno
ahahaha.. i LOVE my other half! =D
so with everything else going on around me.. it's just going on. i dont need to take part in things anymore. or i dont have time to. or people dont bother anymore. it's sad, but i've accepted it.
it's sad when you have to think about what makes you happy. it's even sadder when you cant think of anything.
* teresa 12:10 PM l
