Saturday, April 30, 2005
i hate it when people copy me. & then question me - as if i'm wrong, but they dont know what they're doing because they're COPYING. yea. i dont like it when people do that! that's so dumb. at least i ASK for help. & make some kind of EFFORT! grrr.. & when i ask for help, i ask the teacher because not to be mean, but sometimes - people DONT know what they're doing. & i dont trust some people. maybe this is why i'm so freakn anti-social. i'm wary of everyone. it's kind of bad. k. no more. that was my venting for the day.
4 more school days. & 4 days of finals. YES!
i totally cant wait until summer! more time to hang out w/ friends & READ for fun! aww.. i've missed reading & going to the library/visitng clare! haha.. ahhhhhhh.. too bad i need to find a JOB. but that'll come after VEGAS. =)
i like having my mom in town. =) she's been calling me & asking if i'm planning to go over for dinner almost every night! haha.. i would IF they lived closer! bah.
sooooo i have nothing interesting to talk about! my life is SCHOOL right now. yuck. i COULD complain.. BUT i'd rather not. i should focus more on the good things going on in my LIFE.
i <3 these voicemails. i need to delete them, but i want to put them here first.. i'm weird, i know! haha..
"YO YO YO HOMIE! WHAT UP! hey teresa! hit me up! seriously, call me back - i want to talk to you. ok. love you, bye!" - kevin
"so how many teresas does it take to make austuny feel awesome? just one. that's YOU." - austuny
ahhh.. sooooo nice. it makes me smile. = )
* teresa 1:24 AM l
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
dont settle for less or the next best.
"..
i knew you could handle it.. " = )
* teresa 1:55 PM l
Monday, April 25, 2005
so.. i dont even feel 20. = )
but i know i had a freakn BLAST this weekend!! if i havent gotten back to you yet, THANKS for REMEMBERING!! you guys are awesome!! =D!
this weekend, i went up to davis to hang out w/ my HARDCORE brotha kevin.. haha.. yea.. it was AWESOME. jose doesnt like me!, early breakfast=weird combo=YUM!, old town/sacramento, judah/judas?! haha, the super giant burrito!, giants game, "i wonder if we were that annoying when we were little!", BURN baby BURN!, "yea, that side doesnt tan!" hahaha, the crookedest street in the world, pier 39, bubba gumps, "you know that game we're playing? .. i call him!", 'i'll make you sleep in the same room as him!', pier 5/pier imports?! hahaha, 'i think mine is an A cup' o.O!, yea.. DAVIS IS PRETTY!! .. "that sounded SO practiced! & fake!" haha..
super giant burrito! crazyy!
one of my favoritest guys, EVER!ok. i'm freakn TIRED. this week is going to SUCK hardcore. (@.#)
vegas. may 17th/18th - june 6th. keep it OPEN, yea? = )
* teresa 10:46 PM l
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
so here i am with my books open, waiting to be read, yet other things also call out for my attention. the thing that i've been thinking about a LOT of.. is if i'm going to stay in san diego or vegas for summer.
it's going to be hard where ever i end up. i'm always torn between my friends & family here & there. it sucks because i WANT to be in las vegas for summer.. but at the same time i want to be here also. i have an equally great family here as i do in vegas & the same goes for friends. i dont know. it makes sense to stay in san diego - to take classes (physically; not online), to get a job, so i wont have to look for another when i come back if i do go to vegas.. but that's it? grrrr.. i want to go back.. to at least hang out w/ my parents, brother, k & d.. the time i usually have in vegas over the breaks now just dont do it anymore.. but now i have the chance of 4 months or so? .. i just MIGHT do it.. i dont know..
and it doesnt help that miramar isnt offering a whole lot of classes this summer that i NEED to take. so i honestly dont know what to do!
oh. & i hate how i cant make an advising appointment even when i was on the site before 10 yesterday & ALL the slots were FULL!! what the crap?! =/
i want an answer to the "so have you figured out what to do for summer?" question. i AM thinking about it.. but it's so hard. whatever. my head hurts.
it's my mom's birthday today, so
NOTE TO SELF: CALL HOME TONIGHT!
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i took another look @ the schedules from miramar & csusm. here's what i WANT:
@ miramar, over summer:
MUSI 100 MW 8-11:20am
& SOCO 110 TR 12-3:05pm
@ csusm, for fall:
SPAN 201, 7-8:15 MW
BUS 304, 8:30-9:55 MW, 10-10:50 M
MGMT 305, 11-12:50 TR
BUS 302, 3-4:50 T
MIS 302, 3-4:50 R
yea. it's really ugly. & 15 units. @.@ i wonder how THAT'LL hold over! bahh! but yea.. that's my IDEAL schedule.. the choices are WACK. i wanted to do TR only, but yea. something happened. -.- i dont know. i'll do this again later! haha.. ahhh..
* teresa 1:48 PM l
Monday, April 18, 2005
MORE PICTURES! = )
baby isabelle & uncle danny..
baby belly isnt crying this time! =)gosh.. she's SO ADORABLE!!! she has dimples, too! i wanted to get a picture of that, but it's kind of hard when she's SLEEPING the whole time! haha.. gosh! =)
hm.. ok! barnes & noble w/ randy! booo to studying!
* should i do something on friday?! [my flight is at 9:35pm]
* teresa 6:29 PM l
Sunday, April 17, 2005
welcome, isabelle may smith!! <33
patrick, may & isabelle!! = )
she was crying!! = (
* teresa 8:59 PM l
Saturday, April 16, 2005
hm.. so i wanted to put this comment from diana on my blog, for future reference! haha.. plus, i like it a lot! =)
"people who are fake, cheat, lie, dont keep in touch...should GO AWAY! however its not gonna happen." .. "u r never mean...what u think is how you honestly feel...dont ever be ashamed about ur own feelings about someone else even if you think they are mean. you have a good judgemnet of character and if u think someone sucks...then honest to god...that person probablly does SUCk!"
haha.. yea. so my brother & mom are here.. it's nice. =) it makes me want to go back to vegas for the summer.. but then again, there are moments already where i'm like yeaa.. it's bad. =T i dont know! i'm still undecided! there are reasons why i SHOULD stay in san diego & reasons why i WANT to be in vegas for summer.. it was funny because my brother's reasoning was "you should come back because there's going to be a FREE red hot chili peppers & weezer concert!" haha.. nice, huh!
so yea. i want a job. haha.. it SUCKS not having a steady flow of income! even if it WAS freakn $90/week! haha.. bahh! oh wells.
i thought we had 2 more weeks of school & finals week.. um.. yea.. JUST KIDDING! that's only for accounting.. we really have 3 more weeks of classes & finals week.. rawr! =( i need to figure out what to take! & i would really like to make an advising appointment! rawr!
ok. i need to find something else to do!
* teresa 8:34 PM l
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
"you're good peoples, teresa.."
i'm plural! haha.. good stuff, good stuff. =)
so i'm in the computer lab @ school typing up this entry in my webmail message thing because i dont know if we're allowed to go online & do whatever (ie - myspace! haha!) so yea. i'm a nerd. plus, i've been working on my acct hw - 3 & a half pages full! so i think i deserve a break! k thanks! =)
oh yea.. so my computer at home freakn HATES me. i cant wait until the brother comes this weekend so he can fix it for me! haha.. i told him i'd buy him mexican food. ahh.. whata chump! JK! i <3 my brother! haha..
having no computer & not being able to go online kind of SUCKS! rawr. i'm codependent on it. err.. did i use that in the right context? whatevers! THANKS for letting me use yours last night, bf! =D!
so.. i like how people get fearful of other things if they hear stories about whatever! like, i was talking to someone last night & he was telling me that he wanted to be a business major, but doesnt want to take accounting because he heard it was HARD! well, you have to suck it up & do what youve got to do! right?! who knows - maybe you'll end up liking it. it's not THAT bad! but yea.. it makes me think - am i like that too?! but w/ teachers? because i know a lot of classes are hard only because of the teachers. & that's why i use 'rateaprofesor.com' to check them out before i register for a class! haha.. which is why instead of a TRF schedule this sem., it turned into classes EVERYday. BAH! i'm weird. i dont know if i understand myself! HA!
dude! these keyboards are freakn LOUD! *clickety clack clack!* rawr!
* teresa 3:32 PM l
Monday, April 11, 2005
so i was talking to michele earlier online & i dont know.. you know how you can feel things, but when you say it, it's like making if official because youre matching up words with whatever feeling you have.
i guess.. the cycle of "friends" is going once again! honestly - it bugs me when people dont keep in touch, but then are all friendly when they see you again. with me, i'm a hypocrite because that only applies to SOME people. with friends i've known for awhile, i give them benefit of the doubt because i know what they're going through because i'm going through w/ it at the same time. so why cant i give EVERYONE benefit of the doubt? because i know with some of them, i'll just become another person they've met in their life & a mere thought whenever they take a trip down memory lane. so i'm sorry, but i guess i'm downright picky when it comes to who i want in my life. & i guess it goes the other way also because some people dont want me in theirs!
i'm tired of trying to be friends with some people. there are so many i could name where i've put in so much effort, but they dont bother to write, call, or even IM. how sad is that? here we have all kinds of technology to keep in touch, but we take it for granted - just like people take other's friendships for granted.
but i guess that works out in the end because no one is REALLY friends with hundreds of people.. knowing every single thing about their lives.. this goes back to my whole 'handful' theory.. where you can only have a handful of people in your lives that you can really count on to be there for you..
and i've learned my lesson.. being TOO social sucks, sometimes. it takes focus away from things that SHOULD matter. for instance, i'm hoping for that 3.5 this semester whereas my 1st semester in college, i got that what, 2.0?! yea. i've learned. i've re-prioritized. & i'm glad i have.
it's so nice to see how you can change from how you were to how you are now. self-realization. it's great.
i feel mean sometimes in the things i say and/or think about.. but it's my way of dealing w/ REALITY. but even then, reality BITES.
* teresa 8:33 PM l
Sunday, April 10, 2005
i cant stop smiling!! yesterday was such a GOOD DAY!! ^^
you know how i bold things that stick out? well, i would, but bolding this whole entry would look ugly! haha.. so read it ALL! =D
hahaha.. ahhhh.. the first half of the day was pointless. i think all i did was sleep! rawr. =/ then i took forever figuring out what i should wear to the club. called clare, then diana. "um.. i'm not going!" 'WHAT?!' hahaha.. ]=) headed to diana's. randy & pam were already there & adam was parking. then when clare came, pam asked me & adam to go look for something in her car w/ her. haha.. she wanted us to look for her lipgloss/chapstick w/ her so yea.. did that.. walked back inside & WOAH!! haha.. clare was holding a cake, diana snapped a picture & they all started singing happy birthday! hahaha.. i was confused, but VERY SURPRISED!! hahaha.. =D it was for both me & pam. pam's birthday is on the 17th.. sooo yea! GOOD JOB, GUYS!! you succeeded in surprising BOTH of us!! =D it was grrrrreat. they got us pretty balloons & the cake was YUM! mm.. carvel! haha.. =D gosh.. we all got a HUGE piece.. haha.. sooooo good! soooo great! cleaned up, waited for don to get to diana's.. then adam, pam & randy left. boooo! come clubbing w/ us next time! =D so that left diana, clare, don & i.. off to boogie!
lots of cars! haha.. "i have NICE road rage!" 'go 100!' "um.. the club opens at 9." 'WHAT?!' speed racer! waited for jane & chris before dancing. "SURPRISE!" & as ALWAYS.. we're the first on the dance floor.. which is great because that gets other people on the dance floor & the CLUB started! YEAUH! haha.. =D then romeo, tien & dj came! weeeeee.. more fun! =) not a whole lot of potential! but that guy in the yellow lacoste shirt. mmm! =D haha.. i love guys who can dance! & not just sway back & forth! or hold onto the girl & it's basically her dancing & you holding her. it looks SO UGLY! haha.. so guys who can freakn DANCE.. i LOVE IT! i could stare at them allll day. or dance w/ them alll night! ^.~ the trip through the other dance floor failed because it smelled like WEED! haha.. hm.. "dance w/ the guy in brown!" 'i dont remember their names!' 'use them & lose them!' "he BLEW on me!" haha.. gosh.. all the guys wanted to dance w/ miss clare & miss dyna! haha.. gosh.. my ladies are PIMP! =D left around 1:30 to beat traffic out of the parking lot.. jack in the box.. i learned its illegal to urinate in public! "are you relieved?!" home by 3..
it was such a goooooooooooood day! thanks to my goooooooooooood friends!! i'm glad i have you guys in my LIFE!! thanks for making me GO CLUBBING! you guys are SNEAKY, but I LOVE IT! surprises are good! =) thanks for the EARLY surprise!
to everyone who helped w/ yesterday or was there:
I LOVE YOU!! YOU MAKE ME SMILE!! <33333!!
* teresa 12:43 PM l
Saturday, April 09, 2005
wowowwww!! fridays are the best day of the week! haha.. how times have i said that in this blog?! haha.. =P
well, i got to hang out w/ michele. we ate & watched 'alfie'.. omgosh.. JUDE LAW is HOTT!! YUM!! haha.. but the movie was GOOD too.. EVERYONE should watch it. it's everything i was talking about earlier - about people & how they date so many @ once & yea. you should definitely watch this movie. the girls - just for JUDE LAW! haha.. and the boys - for the message in this movie! =)
so after that, i went to meet up w/ diana @ the marketplace. we were going to get ice cream, but we got jamba juice. YAY! both rj & paul were working! =) then diana & i decided to drive to random places! hahaha.. hoooooly crap. SO FUNNY! "there she is!!" freakn 5x!! haha.. youre worse than clare, bword! =( "was he really looking?!" speed down hill. "driiiiiiiive!" 'i cant see!' stake out. "let's buy eggs!" "throw this at his car!" 'um.. cause i can throw!' "lets follow a car!" 'if you find one w/ hott guys in it! ok!' no one goes to innout anymore! ew. so we went to the new spot people hang out at: JACK IN THE BOX?! hahaha.. "he looks like the guy from the gym!" 'i'll give you a dollar if you tell them to make this w/o mayonaise!' lots of random people coming & going! but romeo, jonas & dj stayed & hung out w/ us! until closing. hahaha.. sooo fun! it was great being the only ones in there.. besides the guy in the corner sipping on his BEER! heard stories. LAUGHED so much the workers started LOOKING. hahaha.. yea! DONT LIVE IN YOUR OWN FANTASY WORLD. because i'll drag you back into this REAL one when youre too out there! rawr. but yea.. FUN TIMES! hahaha.. no details. that could get me in trouble! hahaha..
ok. i need to do my spanish then hang out w/ friends later~
* teresa 12:13 AM l
Friday, April 08, 2005
so this first week back has been SUCKY!! i hated it. but! 2 good things: i got a "94" on my econ test & a 92 on my history midterm. yayy! =D i was semi disappointed w/ my accounting test though. it's above average (and it IS a B, & we have the chance to get partial credit), but still. siigh. the expectations i have for myself.. golllly! haha..
OH YEA! i also went to miramar this week w/ randy! i miss hanging out w/ him! so that was fun! haha.. "cmon! there are cars!" 'no.. there's A carT!" hahaha.. but yea. cleared up my residency problems! =D so that means i can take summer school this summer.. YAYY!! now the question is - stay in san diego or go back to vegas? hm!!
what else happened this week? uh.. diana & i went to the gym today! pain feels good! =) i also got my fin pay! FINALLY! haha.. too bad it was only $60.24.. its okay. they didnt have pennies, so they gave me a quarter. i got a whole penny out of the stupid company! HAHAHA. i'm lame, whatever! =P
i shouldnt let certain things get the best of me. i'm way - super duper up there - better than this!!! = )
oh man.. it is so great having NOTHING to do. =) & i LOVE the weather! it's so nice. taking a nap in the middle of the day w/ the wind blowing through your window.. its great. [hey debb, come here & you can have some DECENT, non freezing weather! =)] ahhh.. how i've missed my weekends/FREEDOM! <3
dude. april seems like it's going to pass really FAST! but that's a GOOD THING! i cant wait for baby belly to come out so i can play with her!! = )
hm.. my birthday list for people who are curious!
- STEVE KIM!! ^.~
- celine dion tickets!
[um.. these 1st two are IMPOSSIBLE, but yea!]
- princess diaries 2
- finding neverland
- any friends seasons [except for 1, 7, 8]
- clothes! *AE is a cool store* =)
[nothing from macys! even as a joke! haha.. dont waste your money! =D]
- no lotions, bath-ish stuff!
- to hang out with YOU! i have time before my flight! that's at night! =)
* teresa 5:39 PM l
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
i liked my econ class on monday. it was fun. we played a game. everyone in the class wasnt allowed to talk to one another & we were going to play for bonus points to add onto our last exam. so everyone could get a possible extra 35 points. (that's what? .. 3 letter grades?!) ok. so this game.. everyone has 5 pieces of paper. everyone writes a 1 or 0 on the paper. & then he made this equation that calculated the number of bonus points we'd get. the thing was! if everyone wrote a 1, we would all get 7 points each. BUT. no one caught on until the 4th round when he told us. so there were only 5, 2, then 10 people putting down 1's. everyone else was putting down 0's. but those putting down 0's got more points. & those who were putting down 0's knew that they would benefit more than those who put down a 1. that's when our teacher started talking about people & their individual benefits. everyone looks out for themselves & how they could benefit more than the other person. even if it is mutually beneficial (like getting all 7 points), we somehow mess it up & get 1.25 or .5.. because we only care about ourselves, rather than the "society" as a WHOLE! i dont know. it made sense to me! heh.
onto another topic.. haha.. i remember hanging out w/ naris @ cpk over his spring break & we had a talk on dating. dating in college, to be exact. this came up because i was telling him how i dont like how fast some guys move because it makes me uncomfortable.. i like the 'old fashioned' way of dating. i like how guys do little things to get the girl to notice them or talk to them or whatnot! the whole i want to be impressed by you thing. then the whole awkwardness when you know you like each other. and i like how it's the guy that does everything! well, i know we're in the 21st century, but i dont know. chivalry: it's not DEAD! sheesh! haha.. i'm complicated when it comes down to what i want. but i guess when it comes, i'll know. hopefully! heh. but anyways. BACK to this whole dating in college thing.. he told me that it's very fast paced because everyone is trying to find someone & you know how in college, there are like a LOT of girls/guys.. and so everyone is just dating everyone! in a way, to get to know what their "options" are.. then choosing one or dating many at once. you know - the whole let's hook up then not talk to one another ever again. i, personally, could never do that. it'd feel wrong. but hey - whatever, others can do it.. but i just dont want to deal with that kind of meaningless shit! especially when it comes to relationships. i've had my fair share of bad ones, so please spare me if you're just going to play games & dont know what you want. dont waste my time - it'll waste yours also. = )
i dont know. i guess that goes back to the whole everyone only cares about themselves! & benefitting from whatever they're going to get. even if it doesnt last. temporary happiness. i dont want it to be
just a temporary feeling.
* teresa 11:38 PM l
Monday, April 04, 2005
since most of the people i would usually share this with were either there when all this happened, or i've told, here's spring break 2005 in a nutshell for everyone else! = )
starbucks. pam, christa & rj. "i've been waiting for half an hour!" 'i just saw you pull in!' haha. do you have your ticket?? =P pretty marketplace! "where's the bug? AAAHHHHH!" knotts berry farm! lots of people?! hot bandit! line for food=line for a ride=too long! funnel cake! YUM! onward to vegas. imaginary cars! =T new rule for the kidd: no POKING the driver, EVER! steak & eggs. aloha kitchen w/ my other half! =D optometrist. new contacts, YES! met up w/ my dad. MY PARENTS ARE THE GREATEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!! <33 they got us (clare, diana, debb & i) tickets to CHIPPENDALES!! <33 shopped @ fashion show mall. qmode. dinner w/ mom @ lobster house. then the show! center, 2nd row, close to the aisle! = (HELLA!) GOOD SEATS! man, oh MAN! WHO got freaky w/ TWO chippendales?! WHO got kissed on the cheek?! WHO got to TOUCH matt kennedy's hand?! "what you do in vegas stays in vegas, but what you see has to be told!" -diana. hyperness! =D "can you come out & PLAY already?!" gosh. i WANT STEVE KIM!! he's so freakn HOTT!! matt kennedy is HOTT too!! =) $10 pictures=WAY WORTH IT!! "hi, can i hug you?" 'mm.. YEA BABY!' mm.. steve kim, i WANT YOU, BABY!! hahaha.. he probably called a whole bunch of other girls 'baby' also, but yea! hehe.. =D stupid slut girls, steve kim is OURS, bitch! =D! buffet in paris. "this is my daughter!" 'we're going to stay here for 4 hours!' desert passage. tourist shops down the strip. grand canyon experience. personalized stuff! that we all got carded for! hahaha.. '100 girls' sounds like porn! hung out w/ oh SO GREAT "brother", bruce. =) johnni's. "my head is heavy!" 'it hurts to laugh!' "i'm 'llergic!" "do you want a piggy back ride?" i <3 my bf, other half, bword & dai lo LOTS!! <3333 thanks for EVERYTHING. and you KNOW what i'm talking about! sonic. bethanie hung out w/ us! yayy! they counted change fast! "excuse me! these girls think you have nice eyes!" hahaha.. soooooo great! hung w/ monica! =D charleston outlets. meadows mall. clare's friend john. bellagio water show! i <3 lv shirts & hats! lost an hour! BOO! sleep. back to san diego.
ok. that was a pretty big nutshell. HAHAHA.. but damn. spring break ogmp style is the WAY TO DO IT!! =)
i want to THANK my FRIENDS [clare, debbie, diana, bruce!] & PARENTS for making this break so great! i'm glad i can trust you guys w/ anything/everything! I LOVE YOU!! <333
* teresa 7:13 PM l
