"to improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often."
- winston churchill

LIFE .. in the eyes of me.

Thursday, April 29, 2004

my fall 2004 schedule sucks.

my mondays are going to suck BIG BUTT!! starting the day at 7am til 3:50pm. =( at least wednesdays & fridays wont be like that. *whew!*

*thanks for letting me reserve my class on your account, bword!! oH! & for listening to my speech for.. ever! haha.. =P

what the heezy?! i have two weekends to study for finals. ack!!

this week DID suck. i'm glad it's over & the weekend is here! =]
* teresa 4:21 PM l


Wednesday, April 28, 2004

you know what? i realized last night.. you never really know what's going on with a person. that is, unless you ask & if they are willing to say/tell/confide in you. people may put on different faces in front of people, but by themselves, they could be totally different. pull a whole 360. (or was it 180? .. -.-)

to ALL my friends - no matter WHAT.. if you're a kajillion miles away or if it's 3am or if we havent talked in a few years & you need someone to talk to.. i'll always be here for you to babble to. =) because as everyone tells me - it's not good to keep it all bottled up inside.

school. let's see..

tuesday, 4.27 - writing center appointment
wednesday, 4.28 - major paper 3 due - philosophy test
thursday, 4.29 - proposal speech [& REGiSTRATiON! @ 1pm]
tuesday, 5.o4 - math hw #9 due
wednesday, 5.o5 - PORTFOLiO due
thursday, 5.o6 - math midterm
monday, 5.1o - PHiLOSOPHY FiNAL
tuesday, 5.11 - GEO & MATH FiNAL

i want to register for fall NOW. it's going to suck. if i get what i want, i only go MWF but the sucky part is, my day starts @ 7am. damn. oh well! i dont really care as long as i get the classes.

oh. & with the OTHER thing.. i'm scared.

okay. need to work on my speech! .. blah!
* teresa 12:55 PM l


Monday, April 26, 2004

NO SUMMER SCHOOL FOR TERESA!!!

yayyy? more like EFFiNG A!!!!! i wanted to take classes so i dont have a buttload of classes in the fall, but OH WELL!!! -.- i'm BEHiND & it's pissing me off!!!!!!!!!

rawrrr.. i'm trying to have it not get to me.. but DAMN!!! i feel like a failure!!!!!

.. whatever. time for papers/speeches/studying. -.-
* teresa 2:07 PM l


Sunday, April 25, 2004

"the world's largest lollipop was made on april 22.." (year unknown). thanks for the random info, kat! haha.. just forgot to put that up. so there we go! =)

lucy: shane west is 6'1
lucy: i'd hit it.
- later on -
me: 26?
lucy: HOLY CRAP
lucy: he's old!

hahaha.. sooo great. =))

so THEN i decided to check my other email accounts today. freakn a!! i got pisssed off!! i might have to pay $178 per UNiT?! cause i'm a NONRESiDENT?! whatever. my sister told me to call them & hopefully it works out. *crosses fingers* but yea. i looked at the summer schedule & i'm going to hate my summer. i can tell. i'm for sure taking econ on mondays & wednesdays @ 6-9pm. .... FUN. ugh. (ANYONE WANT TO TAKE ECON WiTH ME?!)

clare: people can die a horrible death!!

heh.. to whoever decided there should be no equivalent for ges 102 @ miramar!! YEA. i dont know what other class i want to take. psychology, history, or spanish? (damn sign language for not being offered over summer! @ the time i would like!) o.O damn. i lose. a lot.

i want to figure all of this out sometime soon!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. the stress.. is coming to get me!!!! (x_X)

this week is going to be H E C K !!!
* teresa 7:57 PM l


Saturday, April 24, 2004

[ wednesday, o4.21.o4 ]

had an okay day at school. actually went to philosophy. i got conufsed. so no more ditching. especially since there are only two more weeks of school left. =D

i didnt realize it until later - but it was my chinese birthday. heh. =P that was when my 2nd mom called me up & was like 'happy birthday!!' .. "not yet!! .. but OH.. it IS my chinese birthday today! haha.." .. 'that's right.. i must have switched the dates.' or something like that. haha.. it changes every year, but it was cool. =D i was thinking about them earlier. so she tells me that brian wants me to go over later to watch smallville with them & i tell her i'll go. because i havent seen them in forever! & i missed going over.

sooo i go over. we're watching smallville. the 1st commerical comes on. patrice (my 2nd mom) goes out to the kitchen. then asks for mark to help her. they come back with a cake w/ a single candle on it. they sang to me. it was SO NICE & UNEXPECTED!!!!! i LOVED iT!!!!! <333!!! it was carrot cake.. yummm!! =DD so i got to hang out w/ my 2nd family.. watched smallville & xxx (triple x). it was niceeeee.. i loved the whole "surprise".. =)) i've got to spend more time w/ them.. they're GREAT times..=D

went home a little before 10. went online. got a lot of early birthday wishes. THANKS guys!! =D but decided to get off and sleep. haha.. but right as i was falling asleep, squishy called. 10 minutes before midnight. haha.. he made a song about hugging trees. just for earth day.. YA KNOW?! haha.. =P yeaa!! it goes like this.. yo, check it! haha..

"wrap your arms around the tree.. jump around & sing with me.. hug a tree.. HUG A TREE!!"

[ thursday, o4.22.o4 ]

hahaha.. soooo he sang that over & over for a half an hour, if not more.. trying to get it embedded into my head. yea. it worked.

when i woke up, i looked at my phone because i use it for my alarm & i had a text. from my bf!! =D so i read it.. the last part confused me. "hope you like iTS." i was like 'okay.. whatever!' too happy to question anything. haha.. so i wake my sister up because she told me to. she makes me breakfast. kRrhahaha.. KIND OF!! =P then yea, she leaves. she calls me:

may: arent you supposed to leave? it's 7..
me: oh.. i was going to leave in 15 minutes..
may: it's cold outside.
me: oh. is it going to rain?? (haha.. how else was i supposed to respond?!)
may: probably. i think you should leave now.
me: why?
may: because someone drew on your car. you should wash it off before you go to school.
me: DAMNIT!!! (hahaha.. thinking back to last year & what happened to the kiDd!! eviL people!!)

so i go outside, she's taking a picture of me, while i look at the kiDd like =O in shock/surprise?! haha.. the kiDd got post it'd!! this was when clare's text made sense. -.- hahaha.. soooo freakn great!!! so i got my sister to help me take some off.. heh. there were like a KAJiLLiON & ONE post its!! haha..that took a good 15 minutes. haha.. karma got back at me for doing it to alex's car! haha.. but it was pretty funny!! thanks for coming over @ 5am to do that CLARE!!! haha.. chloe better watch out!! jk.. O=)

after i finished taking all the iTS off.. i drive to school. i was surprised that a lot of people knew about my birthday. haha.. so yea. my bword gave me this pretty picture frame she painted w/ cool pictures of us in it!! haha.. THANKS again bword!! =) so yea! school! i actually finished my math homework - when i knew i didnt have to turn it in. oh well - makes me feel more accomplished. =) hung out w/ randy, paul, trish & ali in the starbucks area when the fire alarm went off in the library. o.O? haha.. diana told them it was my birthday & they started SiNGiNG!! haha.. even though i was trying to get away, i loved it, guys!! =D you're all great!! so classes were cool. extra credit in geo!! =D then math.. i dont know. i hope i did okay on the quiz. then. went to the dome, watched diana eat, then went home.

before i got to the parking lot, i see jessica's car & she yells at me to stay where i am. haha.. i got confused because she drove away. haha.. but she came back & gave me my present. it was a book!! *cha ching!!* THANKS STALKEREE!! =)) it was 'the five people you meet in heaven' - mitch albom. weeeee.. so i go home. i told my little cousin about clare post it-ing (haha.. i like that word! =P) my car & he was like 'is it still like that?!' haha.. so later, he comes to my door because he found a post it & put it on my door. he was like, 'i have a present for you!' haha.. hilarious.

so i drive home. got a call from my other half!! then my dad!! then my mom!!! soooo nice!!!! <33 oooh.. i got katrina's present in the mail!! haha.. so nice!! that's a LOT of snacks & thanks for the origami book!! =D THANKS KAT!! i <3 you!! (& thank UDLEY for buying those cool "asian" snacks!! haha.. =D) i started reading the book jessica got me & i like it so far!! =D good stuff. but then, since i was laying in bed, i started to fall asleep. haha.. so i took a nap. then the sis of ter came home to wake me up & off we went to TODAi!! yummy!! i was stuffed. my sister told my little cousin to get a cake for me from the desserts. haha.. it was his 'present' to me. haha.. so that was good.. =D after dinner, we went to walmart, then homeeee..

we get home & i leave. haha.. to pick up the present adam dropped off for me @ clare's. he baked me a cake!!!! now - how many guys would bake a cake?! that was sooooo nice. oh man. =DD i dont want to eat it, it looks too good! haha.. clare also gave me a present. she got me EXACTLY what i wanted!!: NOTHING!! so THANKS FOR NOTHiNG CLARE!!<33 hahaha!! =DD it was nothing, but it meant something!! =))

when i was talking to squishy, kevin called me!! i got to talk to him 3 days in a row!! awesome!! =D

truthfully, i didnt think my birthday would have been that great. but it was. thanks to all of you guys. the whole 24 hours were more awesome than an awesome possum. so i'll take this moment to say:

THANKS for all the birthday wishes, people!! whether it was in person, text, the tagboard, vmails, emails, phone calls - you made my day THAT much nicer!!!! <333!!!!

[ friday, o4.23.o4 ]

i finished reading 'the five people you meet in heaven'.. it's a grrrrreat book!! i loved it!! =DD

i also got debbie's present today. THANKS OTHER HALF!! *FLICK!!* I LOVE iT & YOU!!!! =DD

michele called me around 12? 1? i forgot. haha.. i picked her up from school. dang. this is from her xanga: "in the car "GOd ur OLD ..".. I think that came out wrong ..hehe yeah sounded meaner when I said then when it was in my mind.." haha.. thanksss michele.. haha.. =P

dropped her off. then cleaned my room. it got messy. =T then around 6.. waited for diana! cause she was supposed to pick me up. haha.. but i went to her house to save time. =) from there, we went to farrells in mira mesa.. yayyy friendssss!!! =D annie got me roses!! soooo prettty!!!! =DDD THANKS again ANNiE!!! =DDD but yea. the whole group was.. me, diana, clare & john, trish, nik, annie & leo, anton, chris ho, christa & rj, pam, paul & friend, rhona & hoppho, and jane & chris p showed up later. =D yeaa.. i could see everyone from my seat.. =P sooo.. the interesting part!! everyone sang to me - WOW!! you guys were LOUD!!! i LOVED it!! haha.. they didnt call ME a little princess!! =(( haha.. it's okay. i'm over it!! =D haha.. i got a sundae.. but i didnt finish it. rawr. my BWORD tried to put whipped cream on my nose.. it got in my hair & on my pants.. haha.. then she tried to take a picture, but i have quick reflexes when it comes to her!! (well, sometimes!) haha.. so rawr. i got some on me, but no picture. weeeeeeee.. =DD haha.. but anywaysss!! i want to THANK EVERYONE for hanging w/ me on friday!!! =DD i missed seeing some of you!! we need to hang out more!! =DDD

* THANKS CLARE & JOHN, CHRISTA & RJ, & AKMR for the presents!!! =DDD

hm. oh yea. i was wearing the shirt debbie got me. it says "pinch my cheeks".. chris p actually pinched one! darn. haha.. i was doing SUCH a good job at keeping people from actually doing it. haha.. "dont read my shirt!" =P but YEA.. slappage of the butt was NOT COOOL!! haha.. "that was the 1st time i've touched someone's butt!" hahaha!! oh mann.. cracked me up. but no more!! -.- haha..

lots of laughter later on in the night. thanks for the good laughs. =D

GOOD TiMES for a GOOD NiGHT. =D
* teresa 11:26 AM l


Wednesday, April 21, 2004

so guess what tomorrow is!!!!!!!!
(hint: it only comes once a year!!)

............ EARTH DAY!!!!!! =DDD

hehe.. you guys better go hug a tree!!!! =DD
* teresa 5:05 PM l


Tuesday, April 20, 2004

even the little things are making me smile..

"so how's the bath tub?" .. i got the coolest surprise (well, not really because he told me he would..) - KEViN called me!! oh mann!! =DDD it was sooooooo nice talking to him!! =D haha.. him & his stories. haha.. the frat. food. =D he makes me laugh! i missed talking to him. damn the reception @ ucd. i cant wait to hang out w/ him again!! =DD

so yea. after i talked to him, i called my bf back!! haha.. dang. it feels like i havent talked to her in forever. or maybe because i had a lot to babble to her about. haha.. hm.. "make air!" .. weeeeee.. good times, oslagab!! =)) sorry for being all over the place last night.. emotion wise. heh.. thanks for listening to me. =)) bob comes up w/ the BEST plans!!* (you better not be conspiring against me!!)

kat called me when she was at the post office earlier. =P

alex: And Friday I think I have to work at Starbucks.
alex: But let me see what I can do...
alex: Chances are I can't... but I'll try.
alex: =)

soooooo nice. i love alex!! =DD

when i came home, my sister left stuff on my bed. yeaa!! she got me a cd player for the kiDd!!! =DD yayy.. i love my sister.. she spoils me.. =X but yea.. excitement!! THANKS sister!!! =DD

i love how i'm hiding the emotion that's lingering w/in. rawr.
* teresa 4:23 PM l


Monday, April 19, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOM!!! <333

i spent $24 on gas earlier. =( not cool.

so school today. in the morning, i told diana that if she finished her test early, we wouldnt go to phil. haha.. that class is pointless & confusing (sometimes!). i only went to gew. me & rosemarie make a good team!! =D team work baybee!! haha.. so yea. going into the dome, i see the teacher walking through.. i turned my head. =P but yeaa!! diana, rhona & i are BAD at ditching!! "we're not meant to ditch!!" haha.. sad, but true. so the 3 of us & roxy hung out @ the starbucks across the street. haha.. rawr. diana's evil w/ post its! =(

hm. lots of interesting conversations today. =( >=T =X

i needed to go somewhere in rb, but when i was in the area, i remembered i forgot something at home, soooo i'll go back on wednesday. -.- whata waste of gas.. i'm good like that.

sometimes, i wonder why you even want me as a friend.

ninja rap - vanilla ice. it's fun. "go ninja go ninja go!" haha.. =D

i need to work on my paper. then do laundry. then read for geo. then call my mom. then math homework? kay.
* teresa 2:20 PM l


Sunday, April 18, 2004

half good, half bad.

THANKS for the "birthday" present, SiS of TER!! haha.. cheater!! ^^

2 vanilla ice cream cones from mcdonalds is $0.84. not bad, huh? yummy too!! =D

so that was the good.

okay. GOODnight.

[ .. e .. d .. i .. t .. ]

d: ok ok
d: happy thoughts!
d: guys need to die!
d: that makes me happy
d: haha
t: HAHAHA!!! soooo fUCKN GREAT!!!!

RAWRRR!! it's great ranting with my partner in crime!!! <3!!

*breathe in... breathe out...*
* teresa 9:26 PM l




having dreams as of late, is cool, but they're weird!!

last night, i dreamt that i missed my writing center & academic advising appointment (they're on the same day) & when i woke up, i was freaking out!! haha.. dang it.. i swear - school's getting to me. even in my dreams!! haha..
* teresa 11:26 AM l


Friday, April 16, 2004

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MONICA!!!
hope you had a great day mon mon!! i love yooou!! ^^

so yea. i had a really weird dream last night. there was a bunch of the school friends & then when we get in the parking lot, debbie & sookyung are there too. so i jump on my other half & hug her. haha.. then we go inside & oh yea - we're at innout in some unknown place. so i'm trying to order my food, but the manager comes up to me & tells me this story. i dont know. i was annoyed. haha.. it was weirdd.. yea. *shrug!!*

funny how i dreamt i was at innout. i had lunch at innout today. with cousin #2!! haha.. weeeEeee.. i got to have some michele time!! it was hella nice seeing & talking to her again.. =) gots to do it more!! fun stories.. =))

i had an interesting conversation last night w/ chris ho. yea. the question/topic was: where the line is drawn between a guy friend & a guy you like. i was kind of like 'whoa.' haha.. but it was a good question. i've always said that with future/potential boy friends.. we should be friends first.. but in the past semester, that wasnt how it always worked. i got too caught up after first meeting people that they had potential & in doing so, i got screwed over. it's because of the whole fact where when you first meet or talk to a person, their good qualities always cover up the bad ones. BUT as you get to know them more & more.. yeaa.. it's either bad or good. so NOW i really think that it IS for the better if people were friends first before anything. that way - you get to see both the good & bad sides to that person. hm. yea. =)

now that i've realized this, i feel smarter, but paranoid at the same time? haha.. yeaa..

oh yea - my sister got me a happy meal last night!! =D haha.. the dog i got is cutee.. but looks mean. =/

i think i should do homework now. yuck. let's seee..

- math hw #8/quiz on 4.22 (ew. sucky!)
- research/write major paper #3 (last one, YAY!)
- read ch. 11, 15, 16 for geo/quiz on 4.2o
- work on proposal speech (last one, YESSS!!)

not THAT bad. okay. i'm going to get crackn!! =)

[ cont'd @ 7:18 pm ]

okay. so right after that entry was posted, squishy called, so i got distracted. haha.. but i had my math book open, notes out & paper ready, so i did the first problem! yayy!! then when i looked at the 2nd one, i quickly gave up. =T heh.. but yea. talked to my k of tkd!! =D hehe.. soooo funny!! i miss my k!! & d!! & a!! <333

then i had to bring my aunt to costco. my little cousin came along. when we were at the check out counter, my little cousin turns to me & says "do you know peter griffin?" .. 'the dad? (in 'family guy')' .. "turn around" & behind me was the human version of peter griffin!! dangg.. haha.. sooo horrible.. i cant believe my cousin said that!! i was like OH MY GOSH!! soooo wrong. but yea. that was that.

got home & i ASKED my cousin if he'd help me wash my car. he said yea. what a cool kid. =) haha.. but dang. i had to re-clean my windows & everything because yeaaa.. it was practically washing it by myself, but not. haha.. sooo yea!! the kiDd is clean!! YAYYY!! =D i havent washed it since.. late september? hahaha!! when kevin & brian helped me wash it. .. dang. i miss those days. i miss hanging out with kevin. i miss TALKiNG to him!!! ... =(

oh crap! i need to send out my mom's birthday card!!!!!

mm.. yea. i think i'll go.. look at math some more. or watch tv until my tb word calls me! kay!!
* teresa 2:06 PM l


Thursday, April 15, 2004

okay. SO.. i guess i DiD seem somewhat angry in some of my blogs, but hey. whatever. i'm over it. i just needed to put it down. i'm weird like that. i need to express my anger, then i'm done. =) haha..

so i guess i should also write more about the good stuff that's been going on. or yea. some of it. =P

dude. april's almost over!! it seemed like nothing interesting has happened (yet!).. let's MAKE something happen, yea?! shoot.. i want to do something.. um. yea. =)

i carpooled w/ randy today. haha.. he's funny. "petites".. so yea. didnt go to the library for once! whoa. weird. we (me, randy, nik & christa!! - who i havent seen in forever!) sat outside of the library & talked. haha.. it was nice. but yea. went to geo. then i was walking randy to his class & someone tells him class is cancelled. haha.. so i decide not to go to math. ack.. it was ONLY my 2nd time missing that class!! /)_(\ plus, i didnt want to make him wait for me. =/ so yep. haha.. got home early! =D i felt SO unproductive today. BUT! i DiD smell the cookies!!! =DDD

* seeing my friends happy makes me happy. =D

blah.. i went over my minutes again. =( haha.. but this time, it's over by 21. better than the 300 that other time!!! =X heh. sorry sis of ter!! haha..

i want to read.. you guys should recommend some good books for me. kay. thanks. =)

hm. what else has been good? um. i dont feel like sharing to everyone just yet, sooooo just waaaait for it. haha.. maybe! but yea. =DDD

i have lots to do this weekend. some fun in the sun (fun with the gun, right salad bar?! haha..) then schoolwork the rest of the days. yuckie. but heyy!! 14 more school days!! =))
* teresa 3:34 PM l


Wednesday, April 14, 2004

the highlight of my day:

AL of EX called me!!!! =DDD

alex: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
me: uhhh!! it's not my birthday.. HAHAHA..

soooooo niceeee.. hahaha.. =DDD

[ cont'd @ 9:18 pm ]

i still cant get over the fact that he called me to wish me a happy birthday. hehe.. then i quizzed him on everyone else's bday!! he knew everyone else's but not mine!! =( sheesh! haha.. but it's good to know he'd call me if it WAS my birthday. funny stuff.. made me laugh forever.. =))

hm. we watched 'south park' in gew today. i love how she finds things to tie back into class discussions. it's great. um. then phil was interesting!! "all persons identical to.. are.." blub blub! haha.. i liked this: "..the only certainty is that nothing is certain.." yep yep. after that, went to the parking lot w/ my bword & rhona. then diana's main squeeze attacked me!! haha.. it hates me!! =( my kiDd doesnt hate yoooou!! it's not fair. anyways. rhona & i ate.. then went to the writing center. lalala.. i did that.. then went to the 3rd floor of the library.

dang. the library. my eye candy from last semester was there! dang. cute. =D then i saw the cute guy from my ges class last semester. when he was walking out, i looked up & he smiled at me. weeeee.. =D too bad he smokes. haha.. but yes. the library can be a very nice place to be at~

but YEA!! i was at the library for a reason today. -.- my group for philosophy was supposed to write a paper about the fallacies from '12 angry men'.. bleh. yea. let's just say. i got ANNOYED. bad times. but hey.. we finished. 5 & a half pages after the 3 hours i put into it. too bad i think we should've added more. oh well.. TOO BAD i didnt feel like being annoyed any longer. i think group papers are the dumbest thing ever. i'd rather do one by myself, thank you very much!

got home a little after 4. blah. i forgot there would be traffic getting on the 78. i lose. =( but yea. got home & squishy called me. soOo nice. talked to him for a bit. i really DO need new phrases. it's so bad because he can predict what i say. hahaha.. damnit. oh well. he gave me a new phrase!! i love it.. hehe.. =D then i went to randy's.. but decided to BS the whole outside speaker thing. =X argh. so lame.

i need to finish putting everyone's number back in my phone.

weeeeeeeee.. my bf has great ideas!!! you r0ck!!! =DD

alrighty. well, i think the worst of the week is now done & over with. plus, only 1 more day until the weekend!! =D good stuff!! but oh wait - i need to do write my paper. ew. =( aH well.. okay. no more babbling!! =)
* teresa 5:08 PM l


Tuesday, April 13, 2004

i like how i'm keeping some things to myself lately.. =) plus, if people wanted to know more, all they'd have to do is ask.. i dont bite.. O=)

this week (school wise) is sucking. i dont know why. it just is. maybe because 3 of the 4 days i go, i'm going to be there til after 2. rawrr!! i HATE being at school. especially when you take into account that i'm there around 7-8am. -.- yea. i hate being there anytime past 12. haha.. =P

i'm starting to get paranoid!! ..

chad michael murray is one HOTT guy!! ^.~

i keep playing 'lies' by evanesence over & over. yeaa.

this morning, when i was eating, i was thinking 'hm. the girls havent had breakfast together for awhile now..' hm. yea. haha.. just sharing that random thought if any of the girls are reading this!! let's do breakfast sometime soon?!

i've been having dreams lately. it's WEiRD!!!

okay. goodnight~
* teresa 10:13 PM l




* want to NOT read this post? it's just a lot of venting. kay. thanks. =)

so one of the oh so many jerks IMed me earlier.. and got to talking again.. nice conversation at first, then as it went on, i couldnt help but think "WHAT THE HELL?!"

i really dont want to deal with "it" anymore. if you want me to feel sorry for you, it's not working. empathy is getting old with you. stop complaining - life wont go anywhere or suddenly get better just because you're saying it sucks. in a way, i think it was all you. you were the one that chose your lifestyle, your "friends", everything. dont get me wrong. i dont think everyone should have a crappy life, but you should do something about it if you think it's SOOO bad. and yea - everyone is entitled to complain every now & then, but DAMN. have you noticed that EVERY time you've talked to me, you ALWAYS complain?!

i HATE how you KNEW i cared.. yea.. carED.. that's past tense for ya. i think that's why you always came to me & being the good friend i was, i always listened to you bitch & moan about your shitty life. & yea - at one point, i felt bad for you & didnt want to desert you because you were complaining about how you had NO ONE. well, once again - you screwed me over. thanks a lot, "FRIEND." that's how it always goes down. and after EVERYTHING that happened, i thought we'd be friends, but NO. i think you're too caught up in yourself & your own life. and now i've realized how much better off i am w/o you in my life. i feel dumb for telling my friends i started talking to you again as a FRIEND too.. but whatever. i made you seem not so bad to them & i think that made me think you werent that asshole i strongly believed you were before then.

i'm not going to be the person who will feed your head w/ compliments on how good you or your life is. it will only bring you temporary happiness because you always come back for more. you should know that by being able to breathe right now is good enough. you're here. you're alive. you exist. stop fuckn complaining. life WILL have it's ups & downs. SUCK IT UP!! make something of the life you're living.
* teresa 4:38 PM l


Monday, April 12, 2004

debb: i'm gonna miss u :grabbbbbbbbbbbb:: ::chokkkkkkke::
me: WHAT
me: hahaha
me: choke?!
debb: hehehehehe
me: damnnn
me: COLD!
me: hahaha
debb: too much?
me: that sucks
debb: =X
me: hahaha
me: YEA?!
me: haha
debb: haha
debb: oops
debb: i always go too far
debb: >.<
me: LOL!!!

lol.. DEBBIE is in the hall of TERESA'S blog!! =P

debb: whoa... i'm so honored... :tear:
debb: i'd like to thank..[insert weird random ppl i dont know]

hahaha.. my other half is hilarious. soOoo great!! *fLick!!* =D
* teresa 2:27 PM l




my phone is pissing me off again!!

...... why is it sucking so bad?! =(((

debb: u just need to throw it at their faces
debb: and be like I WANT A NEW FONE and not this one
debb: =)

RAWR!!!!!! okay. it's being DUMB because:

- it always freezes on me
- people can call me, but i cant call them (sometimes)
- it turns off randomly!! (ex: this morning, it turned off.. i turned it back on only so it could turn itself off!!!!!)
- i charge it forever & i think it always gets low on battery or something!!
- it's just being super BLAH!!!

this hella sucks because i dont know what the hell i did to make it.. malfunction like that!! i've only dropped it!! & i've only dropped it twice in the past 11 months.. my sister's dropped hers more than mine. we got our phones at the same time too.. UGH!! I LOSE!!!!!

i think i'm going to try to go to verizon w/o the sister. rawrrr.. stupid piece of shit!!!

kay. have a good day. be grateful that your phone isnt being dumb like mine too!! =DD

.. -.-
* teresa 1:09 PM l


Sunday, April 11, 2004

esater wants to wish everyone a HAPPY EASTER!!! =)

hehe.. but yea.. yesterday was good. i was productive!! =D yayyy me!! haha.. so yea. worked on the critiques. then my sister came home & we went to verizon. rawr. i lost everyone's number!! all 140. =( soooooo if you see me online & i dont ask for it.. still - give it to me. please. okay. thanks!! =) so that was cool.. having them replace my phone, but the numbers thing.. bLar!! oh well - i'm over it. kind of. haha.. thanks to jessica, clare & debb for passing some friend's numbers over!! =D

okay. so after i got my phone, went home. started adding numbers & was STARViNG. =( i didnt get dinner. haha.. rawr. whatever. food is evil. um. went to pick up clare around 7:30? yea. then we went to school to watch adam in commedia dell' arte galore.. it was pretty good!! LOTS of laughs!! =) the barbie one was the best. & oh man.. the TEQUiLA!! hahaha.. =D 6 shots each.. me & clare. haha.. since YA KNOW.. i have high tolerance & all.. *coughNOTcough*.. haha.. but after the play, clare & i went to check out shea's dorm! it was pretty spiffy.. haha.. that was fun.. harassed him for a little bit, then went on our merry way..

haha.. i dropped clare off @ home.. then went to hang out w/ squishy for a little bit.. then came home & got fustrated w/ my phone once again!! it's being dumb again. =( i was just adding numbers in & then it decides to freeze. rawr. sooooo weird.. =(

my grandma left this morning. =( to go to new york. then to china. i want to gooo!!! =(

ah. okay. i'm being a procrastinator. must do hw.

[ cont'd @ 2:34 pm ]

diana: u just had more faces!!
diana: that u SMUSHED!!!
diana: babyface smusher!!
me: hahaha!!!
me: shaddddup
me: why you gotta hate!
me: haha
diana: hahahah
diana: im not hatting ur hating on the babies faces!
diana: EVIL
diana: hahah
me: i was making sure they were gona stay!
me: sheesh!

ahahaha.. i want to finish the puzzle!!!!!

.. i finished 2 of the 3 cirtiques. =)) now math. -.-
* teresa 12:30 PM l


Saturday, April 10, 2004

[ friday, o4.o9.o4 ]

i thought my sister fixed my phone, but it was still being whack. soooo =( still phoneless & it BITES!! it sucks. blar.

so after i showered, i went to the library. both rb & carmel mtn. (whooo.. the cute guy checked my books out for me!! hehe..) came home & started the critiques. i'm almost done w/ randy's. i need to do mine. then find something to do my outside speaker thing on. booo. BUT! i got to finish watching 'somethings gotta give' & yea. it's an okay movie. could've ended earlier though. haha.. but yea - that was the 1st half of my day.

for the 2nd half, i went out w/ my favorite bword!! "how come no one else can hang out but whenever we ask each other to hang out, we're always like, 'kay!!'?" interesting question. =/ so we hung out. we went to utc. hahaha.. "i thought we were going bowling!!" =P i'm good like that.

so what do you do on a FRiDAY NiGHT when no one else wants to hang out & you dont feel like spending a lot of money? simple! do what diana & i did: buy a puzzle & do it!! =D hahaha.. "i bought this half for you.." i'm such a nice bword!! hehe.. =P but dang. puzzles CAN be fustrating!! especially if there's a lot of GRAY! BLANK SPACE! but it's a cute puzzle.. =)

shooot. we always do nothing, but it's fun. there's no need to spend massive amounts of my non-existent money to have fun. for serious.

you know what? .. it's nice going to sleep feeling good. =)

[ saturday, o4.1o.o4 ]

i slept in til 10!! i win!! my sister called me. haha.. "I WIN!!" .. 'what the heck was that?!' hahaha.. =P so now.. blogging because i dont want to do the critiques. but i think i will because i seriously want to get it out of my way! haha.. yayy.. okay. no more.
* teresa 11:50 AM l


Friday, April 09, 2004

what happened yesterday? hm. carpooled w/ randy. "there was a blind guy.. there's something wrong with his eyes.." hahaha!! so great, salad bar!! =) so sad how that still makes me crack up. =P but yea! had geo & math. bleh. went home. talked to people. yayy!! my other half called me!! i almost forgot that we both have verizon!! you win!! haha.. but grrr!! UNR is COOL!! they have cool things going on.. haha.. they had a circus day? or whatever. sooooo fun!! why cant san marcos be cool?! haha.. we just have.. stairs.

.. i'm not hating. i'm just saaaaying. =P

OH YEA!! & then there was this creepy black caterpillar worm like thing moving on my floor.. i freaked out!! =D haha.. i screamed for my 7 year old cousin to kill it for me. haha.. he was just like "that's an inch worm.. you cant kill an inch worm?!" so i was like "pssh!! YOU kill it!!" but yea.. i made him call my grandma over & she picked it up & brought it outside. haha.. i'm such a wuss. =T

then yea! i dont remember what i did. but later that night. i went over to clare's. and dang. i was scaring myself. i could quote lines from '12 angry men'.. oh man. i guess that's what i get for watching it a total of 5 times in my freakn life (in the past 2 years & 3 times in the past 3 weeks.. -.-) "that's a pretty damn stupid thing to do!" hehehe.. crack me up. =)

*thanks again for letting me come over & watch it with you, oslagab!! =)

hm. as for today. i'm unsure of what's going on. haha.. but i started working on my proposal speech because my books are due today. haha.. then i need to do the stupid critiques. rawr! sooo lame. i should call my tb word later. innout baybee!! haha.. michele told me she'd call me later. but i didnt get to tell her my cell died. =( i want to hang with the cousin #2!!! =(

i want to finish watching 'something's gotta give'..

hm. so i went to sleep at 2am & woke up at 7:30-8am. -.- whatevers!! haha.. it's nice being up early. for serious. =) yea. i should start working out. i want to go to the beach!!!! maybe next weekend? maybe. alrighty. i want to shower. haha..

have a great day people!! =)
* teresa 12:06 AM l


Thursday, April 08, 2004

the truth. it hurts.

maybe that's why i'm having such a hard time thinking about what to say/do. i dont like being the cause of someone's unhappiness, anger, or any other BLAH feelings. i guess because i know how it feels & that feeling SUCKS.

i feel like a hypocrite. i know i would be mad if i had to deal with someone like me. especially in a situation like this. so i'm sorry. for being such a confusing and bad person. i have nothing else to say except for i'm sorry. i really am.
* teresa 4:45 PM l


Wednesday, April 07, 2004

no complaints. =)

diana's main squeeze hates me!!! =(

i'm annoyed. i cant make an appointment to see my academic advisor until next week. =/ i LOSE!! boooo!! and i REALLY need to figure out what to do for miramar. want to help? it'd be appreciated, much. =)

so yeaa!! i got to have sushi today!! yummy!! =D

.. what else can i talk about? hm. classes were interesting today. well, at least gew. since no one had their poem books, we had a discussion. on what is expected of men & women, how they get power & all that jazz. dang. it kind of sucked because my group had to talk about women. there was one guy who was on the ball about most of it. haha.. 'they're more idealistic than realistic' which is sad, but true. then that guy made a comment on how if it doesnt work w/ one girl - he goes to her friends. -.- i dont know. interesting, i tell ya! then - came the topic of sex > manipulation > power. i thought it was funny how someone pointed out that girls can have sex whenever, but guys cant. however, the girls can do w/o sex, whereas the guy.. cant? i dont know. i'm confused now. i forgot. xT but yea. it was a reallly interesting class. i liked it. =)

THEN.. effing philosophy! our teacher decided to show '12 angry men' AGAIN!! we just finished watching it the week before break. rawr! & we only went to class because he said he was going to take attendance. NO HE DIDNT!!! RAWR!!!! laaaaaaame!!! =(

i was thinking about what i had to do. it's more than i thought! ugh. dont you hate that?! no fun!! =(

- self critique
- peer critique
- outside speaker
- math homework
- ratn ch. 9 for phil
- watch '12 angry men' (again?)
- research/outline for last speech (YAYY!!!!)

da da da da DAMN. they hate me. =( i dont want to BS my critiques. sigh! but it gives me something to do. .... i GUESS!! haha.. i'm being dumb. kay. bye!

OH YEA .. 19 more school days!!! (minus fridays) cause i'm done may 11th!! =D weeeeeeee!! =DD
* teresa 3:14 PM l


Tuesday, April 06, 2004

"the most wasted of all days is one w/o laughter.."
- e.e. cummings

so have a good day. laugh. =)

horny salad bar, i will bless you! *smack!* O=) hahaha!!

yea. i give it a week still until i'm piled under loads of schoolwork. rawr. cause that's fun. -.- i think i need to go register @ miarmar? argh. confused! (o.O)?

oh yea - so that means i'm staying in san diego for summer. i'll be back in las vegas for a few days. (around june 7th!) all i know is i have a movie date (harry potter 3!!) w/ my other half!!! =D excitement!!! =DD

my little cousin got me a pen. so nice. too bad it was my quarter.. haha.. =)

kay. i need to finish typing up this response.

and yea!! - remember to laugh!! =)
* teresa 2:53 PM l


Monday, April 05, 2004

it's another one of "those" times.

there's no point to complaining, but people do it anyways. self satisfaction? maybe. maybe they just need to let it out. they obviously want to be heard.

i want to be heard, but not be judged by what i say.

how hard is that, nowadays? i think a lot of people always judge without realizing it.

the reason as to why i have my blog is for different reasons. first - it started off as a way to vent. from that, it became a place where i could talk about the good and/or bad points of my day. along w/ that, there was the whole entertainment aspect. then i went through a "phase" where i wished no one read my blog. so everything i wrote in there could be detailed & not turned into drama. oh boy. there were those times when drama occurred because of my entries, or certain ones.. but yea. i just take my blog & use it to express my thoughts. or i try to. too bad i feel limited in doing so.

someone once suggested i get another blog but not let others know about it. but why cant i speak my mind w/o being judged or having the fear that someone will take it too seriously/personally?

simple. that is because a blog is a web log. meaning everyone & anyone can have access to it. however, the fact that this is MY web log, i SHOULD be able to say whatever, but WHATEVER!! i cant. and i'm too lazy to write it all out. technology has it's ups & downs.

maybe that's why i might write my oh so great noncoherent phrases. & that's the point to them. i dont want anyone BUT me to understand. however, from that, assumptions may be made. & assumptions are usually wrong. & those who really care will ask about it.

i'm not asking for everyone to care. these are just my.. observations. thoughts. statements.

ARGH!! i'm sooooo... out of it.

you know what's REALLY bugging me? ... well, LOTS. i cant even sleep because i think it's bugging me THAT much. (hence the reason why i'm up & for some reason - blogging nonsense.. or it could be the birds in my backyard. -.-)

i wish i were more blunt. maybe that would condense my thought process.

"If the brain were so simple we could understand it, we would be so simple we couldn't." - Lyall Watson

... nevermind.

. confused . sad . lonely . lost . stressed .
evil . bitter . disgusted . helpless . hopeless

where's happiness in that list of fun emotions...

* thanks for staying up, talking & listening to me babble forever & ever monica. i'm glad you're my friend. <3
* teresa 12:51 AM l


Sunday, April 04, 2004

where did i leave off? oh yes..

[ wednesday, o3.31.o4 ]

i was in a contemplative mood all day from the conversation i had w/ monica the night before. hm. yea.

all i remember from wednesday is that sam came over in the morning. to give me dan tats!! haha.. yayy dai lo!! thanks again!! & i remember THIS part:

sam: so THIS is what you look like w/o makeup
me: .... I DONT WEAR MAKEUP!!! EW!!! *throws pillow!*

haha.. yeaa.. i think i watched 'lost in translation' because my sister said it was good & my brother said it was okay. but to me.. it just made me even MORE bored. rawr. for dinner, my brother, mom & i ate at buffet @ asia. it's okay. um.. i bugged my brother a lot. "high 5!!" what a fun kid. =)

[ thursday, o4.o1.o4 ]

it rained!! the rain is nice! i was laying down on the couch & i got to hear the plitter platter of rain. it's nice & soothing. =) but yea.. after i realized i didnt really bring clothes for coldness!! dang! haha.. but yea.. thursday was a whole lotta nothing. which meant i thought about everything.. once again!! -.-

[ friday, o4.o2.o4 ]

i watched 'runaway jury' .. dang. it's GOOD. =DD

on friday i got to try greek food for the first time ever!! =) haha.. i wanted to go to scandia, but it was raining still!! =( but yea! lily picked me up a quarter til 3 & we went to meet up w/ christie & ame @ raymon's mediterranean cafe. the lighting was against us! haha.. but yea.. i had gyros in a pita.. pretty good. different. interesting. haha.. =) it was nice having lunch w/ those girls. so thanks for being able to hang out christie, ame & lily!! =D

after lunch, i hung out by myself! because my brother was OUT. (ew & i was at home! what a loser i am!) so i watched 'dickie roberts: former child star' or whatever.. then my only friend called me! he named his cat after me. =) haha.. sooo funny. oh man. then i cooked dinner for me & my mom.. (HAHA.. take a wild guess on what i made!! =P) yea.

sooo.. after dinner, my mom & i took a trip to the strip! =) haha.. we drove to one end to get stuff for my sister's friend stuff (if you guys ever want seasoned pumpkin seeds, i know where to get them! =) then drove to the other end of the strip. dang. driving through it, i realized how much there is on the strip. its the same stuff, yea, but i dont know. it seemed nicer that night. maybe because i was stuck in my house for.. ever. i should've made use of my resources. i guess. haha.. TOO BAD i HAD NO PEOPLE TO HANG WiTH!!! whatever. semi over it. drove to the other end of the strip to the biggest gift shop & got my only friend a shot glass. then back home.

[ saturday, o4.o3.o4 ]

got to have dim sum w/ my dad & brother! =) we went to changs.. haha.. my brother is SO freakn funny!! "HI!!" haha.. all freakn loud. yummy stuff! =) cha siu bau!! =D then the seafood chow mein. my favorite!!! haha.. or how i say it "the yellow crunchy kind!" haha.. it's great how they KNOW what i'm talking about. =P so yea. great stuff. we made a little stop on the way home. my brother & i were talking in the car. haha.. we were dicussing the movie 'radio'.. & he made his comment about football players. soooo great. then he told me about his friday night. aw. HILARIOUS. my brother's fcuking funny!! =)

so we get home & i bug him about being bored. "hey danny!! i'm BORING!!" .. '.. you're boring or you're bored?' .. "i'm BORING!" haha.. but he knew what i meant. =) so we watched 'big fish'.. it's really.. interesting! my favorite line was "that is bull s-h-i-t!!" haha.. cracked me up forever! "teresa, do you want me to pause it?!" haha.. "i liked the fake stories better than the real ones." yeaa. funny stuff. =)

after that, i decided to pack more. sam called & came over. he gave me my early birthday present. more dan tats! haha.. i think i've had enough now. haha.. but it was nice of him. thanks again sam! so yea. i finished packing, then bugged my brother again. =) i'm great. haha.. "cmon!! hang out w/ me!! you only have to for.. 3 more hours!!" hahaha.. as sad as that was, it worked!! =/ i made him watch 'runaway jury'.. =) then i dont know what else i did. i think i watched my video from geo. -.- sooo bad. i was like hm.. time to fastforward!! haha.. sooo horrible!! YUCK!!

so my mom came home, we ate & then after half an hour, we left. =/ i hate leaving. either place. it just.. sucks. =( so the plane ride was long but short at the same time. haha.. "pick one! was it long or short?" haha.. funny squishy. dang. turbulence sucks! if there was more.. bahh!! but yea. the sis of ter picked me up! she carried my heavy bag!! hehehe!! then yea. she almost ran some homeless guy over!! hahaha.. funny ish.. and YEA!!!! she got me the URRRSHUR CD!!!!! =DDDDD!!!!!!!! soooooo niceee!!! weeeeeeee.. went to target. then back home.

called clare up & unpacked while talking to her. =) i missed talking to my bf!! haha.. our moms are coool!! soooo funny!! haha.. =D after i talked to clare, i talked to squishy. squishy told me a lot of stuff. =/ i dont know. made me think about everything. rawr. "you dont want a lot of drama, do you?!" who does!! .. so i think i need to do a better job @ avoiding it. argh. i lose.

[ sunday, o4.o4.o4 ]

ew. what an ugly date. -.-

i woke up late. for the first time this break!! what the feegy!! haha.. i missed my bed!! & my kiDd!! it looked so lonely sitting on the driveway!! aww.. i missed my computer!! oh man!! & the music on it!! haha.. & my monitor!! hahaha..

i'm over spring break. i didnt do a lot. thinking made me more.. bitter. haha.. i watched a LOT of movies. chyeah. staying at home isnt all that bad. but the lack of people to hang w/ sucks. =/ oh wells..

so yea!! i'm listening to the usher cd. =) my room's still a little messy. but i think i want to be productive. doing i dont know what. KAY!!
* teresa 1:29 PM l


Saturday, April 03, 2004

me: danny, am i mean?
him: HAHAHAHA..

"that is bull s-h-i-t!!" - big fish

my brother is interesting. the 2 liter bottle. football players.

may: so i was driving home last night
may: and i saw something orange in the middle of the road
may: i slowly drove by and i noticed that it was a nemo plush
may: haha
me: haha
me: what the shit
may: i know
may: some poor kid is missing their toy
me: yur weird
me: shoulda picked it up
me: and put found posters up
may: hahahah
me: serious
may: i didn't want toget run over by the oher cars
me: what about NEMO!
me: dang.. think about others!!
may: oh shit...what did i do?
may: NEMO!!!!!!!!!
me: yea.. thats right
me: MESSSSED UP!
may: i'm going to go back and look now
may: ahhhhhhhhhhhh

puhahahahaha!!! niceeee.. =D

* thanks for the birthday present / dan tats, sam!!
* teresa 3:01 PM l


Friday, April 02, 2004

"call me when you get back!"

but seriously. do you really care?

"call me then we'll hang out!"

followed with no phone call.

it always happens. so why am i always disappointed? ...
* teresa 1:33 PM l


Thursday, April 01, 2004

I HAVE NO SENSES OR FEELINGS ANYMORE....

I WISH I DID.................. BUT NOT.
* teresa 10:40 PM l

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