imagine, believe, achieve..

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

i need to shower. mm..
what do i want to wear today?

.. i'm hungry. gah.
gaining so much weight. =(

need an interesting blog.
maybe later. when i'm interesting.

* teresa 12:47 PM l

Monday, February 27, 2006

<3 taking naps on rainy days.

<3 the three way calls w/ may & dan.

* teresa 11:50 PM l

Saturday, February 25, 2006

i think i need to move all the papers i have on the driver side door to the passenger side door. .. but then that increases the danger my passenger has in rolling the window up/down.

yep. i gave myself another papercut. wtf!

oh. i hate walmart now, by the way. =D or maybe just THIS one. the ones in vegas are decent. & SUPERsized.

i'm glad i went to SIE's bowling night yesterday. change of scenery. met new people. or finally got an excuse to talk to people who i see in class, but dont talk to. haha.. awesomeness. =) yet, i still feel like the socially awkward person that i am. oh well. some things you cant change.

it makes me sad to even think about it. =*(
then i'll truly have no one.
STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!

* teresa 6:48 PM l

Friday, February 24, 2006

woww...
have i really?
become such a bitter person?

it saddens me to see that i have.

depressing.

* teresa 6:15 PM l

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

....... why not?

i had dinner w/ michele tonight & i dont know how it came up, but the whole thing about where i put too much effort in my friends. "after getting to know how you were & your personality, i just thought it was a vegas thing." 'what do you mean??' "how you're so caring. i thought everyone from vegas would be like you."

honestly, i'm kind of getting SICK of it.
people STILL take ADVANTAGE! & it PISSES ME OFF!

or.. because i always do this kind of stuff, it goes unappreciated. or taken for granted. one or the other. same thing.

....... sadface. = (

* teresa 10:47 PM l

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i LOVE making plans for the future.
it makes me excited & giddy! haha.. = )

* teresa 10:40 AM l

Sunday, February 19, 2006

d: whats up with this!
d: i meanlike the whole plans shit
d: i hate it
d: like its something we can like always fall back on
d: having a friend there, having plans to fall back on... ya all that stuff
d: cause
t: but people are flaaaaaakers
d: yup
d: which is why i hate plans
d: hahaha
d: shit
d: but dont you think maybe
d: it perhaps...
d: retards our progress as individuals
d: having to depend on other things
d: rather than oneself
d: being able to think for yourself
d: all that stuff
t: well said little brother
d: dumb youre not my ninja kung fu master
d: hahahaha
t: haha
t: screw you
d: i mean cause
d: since we depend on other people/plans
d: like
d: if someone else makes the plans
d: we always just.....follow like the whole leader/follower shit
d: and we never speak out for like
d: what we want to do
d: just follow along
d: cause "hanging out" is cool

* teresa 2:43 PM l

Saturday, February 18, 2006

kris: Your homework for this weekend
k: is to find a guy!!!
k: Go holler!

* teresa 7:53 PM l

Thursday, February 16, 2006

looking at pictures from before.. make me sad.
..... & the bittersweet moment lingers longer than it should.

while i was driving to school earlier today, i realized a lot of things.

why i'm not close to people anymore.
that i dont like certain periods of "life."
that more than sometimes, i do/expect/get disappointed too much.
that i think too much for my own good.
that when i try, i still cant be mean.
that i REALLY cant rely on some people.

i wonder...... if you would.

lately, certain things have just been.. tugging at my heart strings. messing with my emotions. & who i am.

it's natural to want what you cant have.

* teresa 11:06 PM l

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

"you have to like people."
.. maybe i should change my major.

everything's in disarray! @.@

i cant wait for the weekend. =(

* teresa 4:00 PM l

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

happy singles appreciation day! ^.~

had work 6-11am. clare & adam ran into me! freakn 5:40am! haha.. it was dark out! blah! SO MANY STRAWBERRIES! @.@ "eww! this one oozed stuff out!" 'this one grew a fur coat!' haha.. sold them pretty cheap. hopefully they raised the price after i left. people are kind of dumb. "i want the fresh ones!" in head: 'they're ALL fresh. -.-' started not thinking as 11 came closer. rawr! messed up! for the 1st time! freakn lame! =(

tangent! i realized, working at godiva is kind of depressing if you dont have a valentine! =/ there were so many people coming in to buy something for their girlfriends, wives, sisters, mothers.. asking me for advice. gahh.. crazy guy - $24 for strawberries & a box of 15 truffles for $50 (chocolate was around $20, $30 for the pretty box). "i'll take both!" 'BOTH??' =/ i guess! whatever. i dont like chocolate anyways! but yea. maybe it's yea.

so after work, took a nap. wanted to just sleeeep! .. but went to class. finance went pretty quick, so yayy! =D then HR was pretty long, but interesting! as always. haha.. "everyone should fail." & "failure is the greatest teacher." very true. i agree. there's this cute boy that i always cross paths with on the way to the parking lot. ahh. sigh. haha. drove home. printed stuff out. i'm totally abusing my color print cartridge. =D! mm.. this has been a long day. =( have so much to do! but wanted to take a break & just BLOG! ahhh.. horrible. but at least i'm not working for the next 2 weekends. which is good AND bad.

rawr. hate tuesdays & thursdays. i never eat dinner. =T

* teresa 9:32 PM l

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i should listen to what my gut tells me sometimes.

too much of everything. too much of the good for the bad.

* teresa 10:27 PM l

Saturday, February 11, 2006

so clare & i went to this awesome party last night!
.. mm.. too bad by "party" i mean, we went to starbucks to do school work. haha.. whatever! =P

so much to do this weekend!

school doesnt want me to have a life!

* teresa 11:07 AM l

Thursday, February 09, 2006

today was actually nice, aside from the fact that it felt so long.

was at school from 1-7. parked in the 2nd lot for the first time this semester! rawr! oh well. my luck on scoring good spots had to end sometime, right?! haha..

in my HR class, we had a presentation on south korea & a guest speaker. it was interesting to see how you have to adapt to a country's culture & their norms in order to succeed in business. that is, if you do business overseas. gift giving, respect, no talking back, ranking, etc.. wow. crazy. but yea, i liked the speaker we had. he talked a lot about LISTENING. like REALLY listening. "the golden rule is to treat others the way you want to be treated." but seriously - you cant do that. he was talking about how.. he cant treat the person in front of him the way he'd want to be treated because he's been through different things, different experiences. & when we first meet people, from the first impression, before we meet the person, we're already biased based on those experiences. you could use their looks, body language, behavior or such as factors in determing whether you like them or not, but it all ties back to experiences. if you've met someone who looks or acts like that person, you will be biased. if you liked that person, you'll treat this new person as if it were that other person. & vice versa. i dont know. it sucks. but it's true! people do it. they've done it to me & i've done it to others. as sucky as that is, it's true. gahh. everyone's racist. prejudiced. biased. it's human nature.

but on another note! i got to hang out with my bword tonight! =D! fun funn! i missed her! good times! no hot dogs?! boo! mcdonalds! "EW?!" 'sorrry! that was a passenger!' haha.. such a hyper worker! "he was cute! AND he has a nice car!" '..let's follow him!' .. crazy car! made his own laws! "was that a police car??" 'NO!' "then what was it??" 'a MORON!' rawr! stupid people. but overall - GOOD, FUN TIMES! = )

so that does it for my "fun" for the weekend. now work! yay.

* teresa 11:37 PM l

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

this semester is not going to be fun. well, it might surprise me. i HOPE it surprises me & is LOTS of fun! but right now - it looks like it's just going to be LOTS of work! =(

i dont like how everyone's schedule is different! =( you know.. it's only going to get worse! sigh. so you know how i'm going to deal? pile on a lot more on my plate! haha.. decided (well, it was decided FOR me) to stay at godiva. decided to sign up for a committee for SIE (we might get sweatshirts?! exciiiting!) & i think my 5 classes are just too many. so that's going to be my life. school monday-thursday. work on the weekends. SIE stuff.. whenever it pops up on my calendar. so.. i guess it's not a bad thing that i kept the job - it's something to do when there's nothing to do. although i do not like when i have to do it when there IS something to do. IF that makes sense!

but yea. it was surprisingly nice to be in the company of fellow business majors today. but it's just so hard to actually create a friendship. or build on it. or maybe i'm thinking too much. it sucks because i always see different people at the events. i need to be more social. blah. darn it. need to network!

emotions are running all over the place.

i wish our schedules would allow us to see each other more.
............................................................ i miss my friends. =*(

* teresa 8:37 PM l

Monday, February 06, 2006

nervous.
but excited.

hurt.
but forgiving.

lazy.
but productive.

annoyed.
but nonchalant.

-------------------- 11:15 PM

maybe i should just half ass it all. just like everyone one else.

ok. ignore me. ignore what i've done. ignore the fact that i tried.

maybe it IS true. or maybe i'm thinking too much of it. just.. maybe.

* teresa 8:28 PM l

Saturday, February 04, 2006

aaaaaaaaand $45 later, I CAN PRINT STUFF! =D!
haha.. freakn sucks! but i'm glad it's freakn working!

so utterly lame! because i know i didnt use my color print cartridge as much as my black one, yet i had to replace both. i think i know what i did. so i hope i dont do it again! rawr! so lame!

now i have a reason to be productive! so i can print my study guides in color & all of them can be color coded.. yayy! haha..

* teresa 3:51 PM l

Friday, February 03, 2006

when i was talking to clare earlier, we were trying to think of things to do in san diego! mann, this city should have a lot to offer right?! so yea, tried to think outside of whatever we'd normally do.

- go to a drive in!
- go whale watching!
- carlsbad flower fields! (march-may)
- the SEAL tours. "NOW i know why it's called SEAL! pssh!"
- go to mt. soledad *but no skateboarding down it, clare!*
- ballroom dancing?! haha.. out of the ordinary, for sure!
- WiCKED sometime this summer! (july-august!)

.. E X C i T i N G ! = ) !

* teresa 11:35 PM l

Thursday, February 02, 2006

so, in class today, the topic was decision making & our teacher used education as an example. there was this one part where the economy is good & education is valued. then there was another where the economy was bad & education wasnt that important. in the bad economy, if you have an mba, you would be making less than someone who has a college education. i was just like, HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE! rawr! but it was kind of nice to see how if you get a BS/BA, you're going to make twice more than a high school graduate. so education ISNT a total WASTE! =D! now i should remember this whenever i feel like dropping out of college. haha.. lame. whatever. =P

michele & i had sushi last night! yumm! mister sushi in encinitas. all you can eat. haha.. freakn she & someone else had 21 different kinds of sushi the last time she went. this time we had 9. haha.. daang. i was so stuffed! i cant see how 21 could happen! crazy!

yayy.. it's almost the weekend! in 3 hours! yippie! going to be productive! because i want to/should! & hopefully hang out w/ bword. rawrr.. i miss people. it sucks! i also need to try to fix my darn printer! it's really annoying & frustrating. i wish i knew computer literate people down in sd. i've been trying to get my brother to come down to help me out, but he chooses to ignore my pleas. thanks brother, THANKS!

i want to play with isabelle! =(

for my human resource class, we have to read articles/case studies & then a group presents it. last week, the group did the case study on black managers & how they dont move up the corporate ladder or whatnot. then on tuesday, another group did a presentation on women in manager positions in israel & the us. & seriously, it kind of sucks to know that i might be discriminated against because i'm a minority. AND the fact that i'm female & not male. darn the system! like, it's SUPPOSED to be all fair, but women STILL get paid less, there are still more men than women in leadership positions, although women are supposedly better leaders than men.. and blaaaah!

i dont know what i'm babbling on about.

i've been getting headaches a lot & i dont know why.

ok. i should go read for class. even though i already read this article.

* teresa 4:20 PM l

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

t: i wish i had magic powers to make printers work
nik: haha...that would be one sad magic power

i hate my printer! =D!
i want to print out my notes & hw for tomorrow!
i JUST bought more ink today too! because i was running low!
yea. one word for all this: WHAAAAACK!

i reallly dont want to spend $1.65 just to print stuff i COULD print out at home (if ONLY my printer werent being so lame-o).. >=T

* teresa 11:52 PM l