Tuesday, November 30, 2004
so i'm ditching my 7am class tomorrow. haha.. oh well! i turned in my composition early for a reason!! =)
i'm so weird. i was semi productive today! =D i did my psyc hw then i outlined my paper & took some notes for it. now all i have left is to organize my thoughts & put them on paper. but i love how once you get started, it just flows. or well, for me. eh. sometimes!
seriously - i cant WAiT for winter break!! too bad sam wont be there! blar. i was thinking about it & YEA! the only thing we ever DO is sit, eat & talk when we're in vegas. but i DO want to go to sushi factory, steak & eggs! & get dim sum w/ justin.. but other than that, we should find something else to do! that doesnt cost a LOT of money! =)
when i was at billy's today, i was trying to figure out how to tell his mom that i dont want to keep doing this for spring semester.. but yea.. she thinks i'm still going to be doing the BILLY THING!! -.- haha.. i SOOOOOO need to tell her i cant. (more like i dont want to!) because seriously - i picked him up today & the whole day he was being SUCH A BRAT!!! but he was being cute when we were watching mickey's "twice upon a christmas" or whatever (which btw is SOOO CUTE!!) we were watching it & i got kinda sad because there was this =/ part & he was like "why are you sad?? its just a movie!!" haha.. =)
i cant wait to see FAMiLY on the 11th!!! oh man oh MAN!!! EXCiTEMENT!! =DD
i swear.. my brother's turning into me junior year. hahaha.. when i was all social & shiEt! damnit.. i miss it.. i wish i could actually NOT CARE about school.. go out every day/weekend & not WORK!! but now.. that's all my life is. work & school! haha.. sigh.. look forward to THAT sucka!! jk.. =)
i need to start my christmas shopping! i dont have time to be creative this year.. rawrr!! =( but maybe/hopefully i'll think of something easy!
* teresa 11:37 PM l
Monday, November 29, 2004
so i got to register today! my spring 05 schedule:
SPAN 102 / TRF: 7-8:15am
HIST 131 / TR: 8:30-9:45am
ECON 250 / MW: 4-5:15pm
ACCT 203 / F: 9-12:50pm
yea. i SUCK! it was decent with 3 days a week, but after hearing people tell me to take humphrey for econ, i did it. it's going to SUCK driving all 5 days. my GAS.. it's going to suck. =(( but at least i'm done by 10 on TR..?? heh. RAWR!!
& speaking of my LUCK - i was REALLY HUNGRY today & so i decided i'd suck it up & get m&m's from the vending machine outside of the computer lab on the 2nd floor of the library. i put it in, push in what i wanted, watch the m&m's fall.. but get STUCK on the way DOWN!!! so.. i just stared at it. i was like.. mm.. what. the. HELL! & walked away. -.-
AND!! i went to the bulletin board where the HPPs are posted. students taking psychology have to do HPPs & i only have 2. so someone in class mentioned there was one posted, so when class was dismissed, i was one of the first people that left, but not fast enough! there were 3 people in front of me & 2 already by the board when i got there. yea. there were only 4 more slots. so DAMNiT!! =(
what else.. what else..
i got my 6 month evaluation at work yesterday! haha.. she said i meet beyond her expectations!! YEAUH!! =D
i got to take a 4 hour nap today!! AND! i made myself hot chocolate.. YUM!!
so yea. the next 2 & a half weeks are going to be HELL!! my finals schedule is kind of weird too. =/
PSYC 100 / monday, 12.13 @ 10-11 am
SPAN 101 / wednesday, 12.15 @ 7-9am
MATH 132 / friday, 12.17 @ 11:30-1:30pm
GES 102 / saturday, 12.18 @ 7-9am
yea. WHACK. i have tomorrow, wednesday & thursday to start/write my psychology paper. how.. fun.
yea. my life = SCHOOL! soRry. =T
BUT!! i'm going to finish everything by sunday night because i want to see 'the five people you meet in heaven' @ 8pm!! after i get off work!! =)) that should give me SOME kind of motivation.. haha..
tired again. haha.. goodnight!! =)
* teresa 11:57 PM l
Saturday, November 27, 2004
work was heck. haha.. i got to see someone STEAL!! i hope they catch that muthasucka! haha.. saw clare, darlene, christa, nik & andrew! haha.. but yea. the 7 hours passed by fast because it was busy. so it was a good/bad thing? haha.. i dont make sense. =) so shannon picked me up from work & i went home for awhile. should've napped, but didnt & went out 2 hours later..
may's bachelorette party went down last night!! haha.. we - may, shannon, tara, anne, the other shannon, grace, jenny & i - had dinner @ BJs in la jolla. saw gerard, leonard & quan there! funn! the pizookie was yummy! i'm sure it wouldve been a whole lot better if it werent BURNT!! =) then we headed to esther's. met up w/ may's coworkers there. haha.. so many PHALLiC decorations!! haha.. & what happened shall not be revealed on this blog!! hahaha!! all i have to say is.. i feel sorry for esther's neighbors!! =T "i drank out of a penis straw!" hahaha.. the "blow job shot".. damnn.. he was HOTT!! he kissed me on the cheek!! twice!! *^.^*
OH!! & apparently - i've made out w/ some random guy in a macy*s fitting room while i was supposed to be working!! ..HAHAHA.. soooo funny.. dont you love how you remember things afterwards randomly? mm.. YEA.
this is brandon. our "male entertainer"..
the penis cake. hahaha..
too many darn penis'.. penises? x.X
ok. i'll keep the scandalous pictures to myself. =)
work 2-6. then gerard's w/ diana. the weekend's almost over!! =(
* teresa 1:21 PM l
Friday, November 26, 2004
[ wednesday, 11.24.o4 ]
school 7-12:45. lehmans. helped make stuffing! =) home. shower. homework. diana's. L5? - E street/club victory. dennys. home by 3.
quotes/moments from OGMP night:
- "get back muthafuckas you dont know me like that!"
- "hey blue youre my favorite!"
- splitting the mission w/ diana
- "damnit.. he's SHORT!" (yeaaa.. what's up with all those short, good looking guys?! drink your milk! or SOMETHiNG! =T)
- how diana would dance/push/shove me in the direction of guys when we were dancing! haha..
- "oh yea.. we GOT this!" (cute boys from dennys)
- diana saying hi to the table of guys across from us (GOOD job, once again! ;D)
but yea. it's OFFiCiAL people - san diego clubs SUCK!!! that dj was WHACK! he played SO many songs twice! he played 1, 2 step 3x, goodies 2x, & yea! whatever. & there were too many people walking through when other people were trying to dance! oh well - we obviously had our fun moments! heh.. =]
i'm gangsTER. but so is clare! =D
t h e O G M P l a d i e s
(i didnt know which hand to throw up, soo yea! =))
[ thursday, 11.25.o4 ]
thanksgiving! lunch w/ the lehmans. <3 got to see kevin! =D! yummy food! pillow fight=fun to watch! poor turkey! "its neck looks really bad!" haha.. home. homework. finding nemo. chinese dinner. hot pot. princess diaries w/ may. sleep.
* i cant believe i missed the macy*s thanksgiving parade. when i remembered, it was wayy over. =/ i LOSE.
[ friday, 11.26.o4 ]
black friday. mm.. i'm waiting to go to work. so here i am! heh. work 10-5. come visit if you dare! parking's going to be a B!TCH!!
* thanks to CLARE & SHANNON in advance for driving me to work/home today!! you guys ROCK!! =DD
* teresa 9:21 AM l
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
- spanish hw
- 24 hour
- laundry
- 2nd home
- helped make a cake! (haha.. i wonder if its good..)
- clare picked me up. "GET LOW!!"
- visited jessica & aja (i held her!!! haha.. babies are SOOOOO CUTE!! =D)
- home/hw/'ever after' w/ may
so my sister was reading my previous entry & told me how my aunt told her that i laugh LOUD when i'm on the phone.. that she thinks people are actually in the room with me. =/ dudee.. i need to CHECK MYSELF! hahaha.. =T
hm. why is laughter expressed as 'haha' or 'hehe'?? why not 'rawr' or 'grr' or yea? haha.. i'm weird. sorry. random.
my mom called me earlier to let me know when i can go back to vegas & YEA. either i ask to get off early on the 19th or just work til 6 & then drive back.. ugh. haha.. i hate driving at night!! & by then, its DARK!! soooo.. damnit. =/ i wanted to leave on the 21st so i can go back on the 28th or so - a few days after christmas.. but now.. the 26th?? ACK.
c: omg
c: he's CUT!!!
t: hahahahaha
t: HELL YEA
c: bring lots of bandages!!
c: mwahahahaha
t: LOL!
t: NICE
c: what is CRUNK?!
c: drunk with a c?!
t: crazy drunk
t: =)
c: dude teresa
c: you're gangster
t: hm?
t: hahahaha
t: shoot.. i put the TER in gangsTER
t: ;D
t: haha
c: omg
c: dayummmmm
c: it's going DOWN NOW!
t: hahahahahaha
t: soooo funny
c: my best friend is a gangsTER and i never knew...
clare makes me LAUGH!! =D haha.. "GET LOW!!"
* note to self: ask donna about the 10th & 11th.
the last 3 of weeks of school. good yet BAD!! it's when we're scrambling to finish the last of the assignments/papers while trying to study for FINALS!!! =/
OOOOH!! all the UC kids should be home for the weekend. =D too bad, i'm probably going to be stuck WORKiNG & doing HOMEWORK!! sigh. my "4 day weekend" = finishing my psyc paper & writing up LABS!! then i'll feel accomplished. =)
* teresa 9:52 PM l
Monday, November 22, 2004
TEN Random Things About Me
10. i laugh at everything
09. i make weird/funny noises
08. i'm gullible!
07. i dont like chocolate *gag*
05. i like pressing different #s on the microwave! "a minute & a half? how about 97 seconds??"
04. i have 4 favorite #s
03. the only medicine i'd take it the yummy orange syrup medicine.. =P
02. i sing along to songs at the top of my lungs in my car when it's dark out (so no one can see.. DUH! i was caught before so =T)
01. i have squishy face cheeks.. =(
NINE Places I've Visited
09. brooklyn
08. reno
07. lake tahoe
06. san fransisco
05. los angeles
04. new jersey
03. yuma
02. san diego?
01. las vegas? (haha.. i'm cheating! but whatever, i've visited most of the states in this country! on that family cross country CAR RiDE! so psssh!)
EIGHT Things I want to do before I die
08. travel the world
07. do something BIG for my parents
06. and for the siblings
05.
befriend someone i dont want to (haha.. it's so 'a walk to remember'-ish.. but whatever!)
04. meet "him"
03. get married to "him"
02. have kids (2!)
01. & live happily ever after!
SEVEN Ways to win my heart
07. listen to me.. like REALLY listen & be able to understand
06. serenade me =D (i know i know, but it'd be nice!)
05. roses. --{-@ haha.. how OLD SCHOOL!
04. some BLiNG BLiNG!! hahaha.. jk! how materialistic!
03. but yea.. i dont want to list
02. anything else because.. that
01. ruins the fun for everyone who wants my heart.. YA KNOW?! ^.~ (yea right!..)
SIX Things I believe in
06. love
05. karma
04. there's good in everyone
03. morals
02. respect. give me respect & i'll do the same.
01. equality
FIVE Things I'm afraid of
05. SPIDERS
04. being alone
03. losing loved ones
02. rejection
01. failure
FOUR of my Favorite Items in my bedroom:
04. my bed
03. my pictures
02. my books
01. my polar bear
THREE Things I do everyday
03. shower
02. eat
01. sleep
TWO Things I am trying not to do right now:
02. homework
01. be annoyed
ONE Person I want to see right now:
01.
:]
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yea. i was BORED. so WHAT.
i'm trying really REALLY hard not to let the stuff inside of me BURST. because.. it just wont be pretty. got to fight the inner me. i'm going to win this one. YEP.
i was thinking earlier & yea. i think i'm going to be just as antisocial during spring & you know what? who CARES? we all have to do this. i'm learning how to ignore the peer pressure, guilt trips, "friends", etc..
you know how youre excited about something, but when you tell someone else, they say something that totally ruins it? yea. i hate that.
i was talking to a friend the other night & he pointed out how hard i am on myself. hm. true? oh well, i need motivation some way or another. isnt self motivation a good thing? ...
k. going to hang w/ the sis of ter.
* teresa 7:26 PM l
Sunday, November 21, 2004
b: how come you arent goin back?
b: that stinks
t: awww
t: cause i have WORK
t: n i duno.. yea
t: =/
b: really? wow, you're still working?
b: i really have to hand it to you
b: working and school at the same time
b: you do what you have to do
b: i just couldnt handle it all
b: having no time for myself to do things, live life...it was tough
b: at least im making the most out of weekends by doing hw
t: its hard
t: =/
b: i know what you mean...i dove right into it last year,,, it was really a mess
b: but, some people are able to do it
b: and i admire you for being able to do it
t: aww
b: i just did most of the working over the summer...
t: that makes me feel good brian
yea. that was my part of the conversation i had with brian last night. for some reason, that made me feel good. too bad i'm about to give up! heh.
i miss my mom's cooking. i miss eating food. =(
does anyone want to drop me off at work on the 26th? at 10am? =) then come pick me up at 5pm? haha.. i dont want to park at the high school down the street from the mall.. =/ blehh.
me & clare's conversation last night.. the topic was CHANGE!! haha.. and every other topic was SCHOOL!! haha.. "ughh.. yea.. CHANGE!!" >=T
the best thing you could say to me: "yea i know exactly what u mean" [ thanks other half! <33! ]
OH YEA! so since i'm a loser who doesnt go out on friday & saturday nights, i decided to look at the course schedule thing & ended up changing my WHOLE SCHEDULE!! dude. instead of classes MTWR, it's now going to be TRF. sooo WEIRD! they're going to be KILLER DAYS!!! i'll post it if i get it. but yea.. i changed it because i decided to go see if they posted who's teaching what & i looked at who's teaching accounting & looked up the teachers on ratemyprofessor.com (haha.. tactic passed ono to me by squishy) & YEA! i chose the easiest teacher out of the three. =T so whatever. school. UGH.
ok. i need to find food. then finish getting ready. go to work. then hang w/ clare & adam!! then come home & study. -.- haha.. SCHOOL RULES MY LIFE!!! it's ALL i talk about!! i'm such a NERD. =/
* teresa 11:18 AM l
Saturday, November 20, 2004
i like my new $12 shirt. =)
i'm so jealous. since it was so DEAD @ work today.. mara, alicia & i had a conversation. alicia is in her 2nd year at FIDM. so she's 19 & she's going to graduate with her associates degree (?) in merchandising. i am SO JEALOUS. i wish i could've gone there. but yea. $17k/year? cause I'M not RICH! =/ but seriously - i was so jealous. i still am. i want to be done with school. & be all excited about being a GROWN UP with a COLLEGE DEGREE. "i want to get rich already!"
.. where's MY plan, batman? =/
everything's a mess. maybe if i clean, i'll feel better about myself?
so ok. what's this - i get up today only to feel tired & not in the mood for SCHOOL! but i do go to school for 4 hours. then home to take a 1 (turned into 3!) hour nap! & after that it STILL wasnt enough. yea. i'm BURNED OUT.
i'm burned out. stressed. yet indifferent.
i didnt apply myself as much as i should've this week in school. what the FUCK ever. i'm a muthafuckn FAILURE!!!
people. WHY?? no really.. WHY??
* teresa 12:13 AM l
Thursday, November 18, 2004
last night, i dreamt that i walked all the way to billy's school on a day he didnt need to be picked up. (that's freakn far! it's like 15 miles?) & when i called people to see if they could pick me up, people either didnt pick up *surprise surprise* or were too busy. yea. sucks. made me =/ when i woke up.
so when i went to pick billy up today, he totally ran away from me when i went up to him! haha.. he was like "youre SICK!" & stayed a 3 foot radius from me! it was kind of sad.. and funny. haha..
i got to go shopping today! =) bought 6 shirts. going to return 4. haha.. i SUCK. whatever.
i need to make use of my minutes. i've used less than 200. & i get 1000 every month! my "month" is over in 4 days? haha.. maybe on saturday.. yea. sounds like a plan batman!!
people change. STOP. k thanks.
* teresa 10:59 PM l
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
i'm tired.
i cant wait til the 24th. FUN FUN FUN!! and i need a muthafuckn BREAK!!!
but.. the break wont really BE a BREAK because i need to do the stuff that's due the week after! i love how the teachers assign stuff due the day after we get back.. mmHMM!! rawr. so break = SCHOOL WORK!! AND!! WORK WORK!!! i'm not having it. at all. so yea. i cant wait til WiNTER BREAK // DECEMBER 18th because THEN it'll be a REAL BREAK!! haha.. =P
* mom & dan are coming on the 27th!! =D
so. my friend brittany introduced a new show to me! haha.. it's one of the "reality" shows - kind of, not really. it's called MANHUNT. it's like american idol, but for models! haha.. and DAMN. they're freakn HOTT!!
man. i should've gone to the gym today. i'm a loser x 57.
you know what's bad? lately, i've been in the 'i dont want to go to class' mood. a whole lot more than i should be! but the only class i ever really ditch is psyc. ugh. no fun. but really - it's bad. i only have to attend classes 12 more times! 13 if my GES final IS on a SATURDAY!! (please NO.. please pLeAse PUHLEASEEEE!!)
oh yea. i got my macy*s bill yesterday. i was NOT a happy camper. at ALL. & it's so lame because ALL of that - NONE of it is for me. i think i want to go shopping for myself. but at the same time NOT.
i should make daily to do lists again.
i'm tired. sleep? yes, please!
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OH YEAAA!!! dude. my sister showed me this article the other day. yea. [
CLiCK HERE] they're going to make a movie out of 'THE DA ViNCi CODE'!!! & they picked tom hanks to be robert langdon!! wow.. how EXCiTiNG!!!!!! well, for me it is. haha.. =DDD
ok. i'm done. sleeeeeeeeeeep.
* teresa 4:41 PM l
Monday, November 15, 2004
i can feel myself doing it.
unintentionally.
yet i'm not doing anything to stop myself.
so wouldnt that make it intentional?
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picture a tornado. or twister. hurricane. (it's all the same to me.) big twirly thing that destroys everything in it's path? yea. that's it. you know how the thought of it brings chaos to mind? and everything around it get destroyed? i dont know. everything going on around me.. is going on.. i'm in the middle of it all, surprisingly calm, but not really because i feel like i'm on the outside also. where i want to do ANYTHING to get away from it ALL!!! .. but.. i'm stuck in the shock of this THING.. w/ the phrase "shit FUCK" repeated over & over in my head (most likely outloud too) because.. i'm scared. and dont know what to do.
its like a rabbit running & stopping in front of a car going downhill at 30-40 mph.
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a (11:42:00 PM): Just doing my once in a while keep in touch message thingy.
a (11:44:47 PM): You got it!
a (11:44:49 PM): I believe in you~!!!!
i miss this guy!! and my k & d!! 32 days!!
i think i think too much. heh. ok. sleep! goodnight!
* teresa 11:53 PM l
Sunday, November 14, 2004
* 13 hours of sleep = :D
* yummy orange medicine = :DD
* being able to breathe through my nose = :DDD
haha.. yea. i suck. i was supposed to work 5 hours yesterday, but i left after 3. eeek. =T oh well - she's making me work monday, so i guess that'll make up for it. *shrug!* i hope i can walk around & not get dizzy later today. heh.
oh man. monday will be a LONG day! school 7am-3pm, work 4-9:15pm. =(
after a really long period (6 months?) of not getting starbucks, i gave in last night! haha.. i love the seasonal stuff they have! their caramel apple cider! <3! haha.. i should've bought hot chocolate. only because i've been craving it for a long time, but i wasnt going to waste my FREE drink w/ a cheap one! haha.. =P
i want to try cutting my hair by myself. haha.. but NOT!!
it's weird. i want to read. for fun. i'm over reading for classes. sigh. which reminds me - i have to catch up in reading for psychology.
my eyes are hurting just thinking about it. -.-
.. and WHY does my life revolve around school? i think about one thing that doesnt have to do w/ school, but the thought that follows that one, does. oh man. i'm going INSANE.
so.. i was thinking about going back to vegas for a day. for thanksgiving. but. that's a waste of gas & money. i miss filling up with a little over $10. =( why is vegas a 4.75 hour drive away from me?
ok. i should be productive for a little bit > eat > work for 4 hours > do laundry > study more > medicine? > sleep.
i miss being social. i'm going shopping on wednesday. want to come w/ me? =)
* teresa 11:29 AM l
Friday, November 12, 2004
i look like rudolph the red nosed reindeer. =O(
i'm not liking my schedule for the next few weeks. i'm glad that my manager is giving me days off, but when she says "oh, you OWE ME!" it kinda makes me want to.. RAWR!!
my nose is stuffy. i dont know if gargling that salty water was a good idea or not. i cant tell the difference. horrible. =(
i miss people. "friends". friends. "fri"ends.
i think i AM at the point of exhaustion - where i have time to do homework & other things, but i just dont.. because i'm TOO TIRED. =/ 5 more weeks. or is it 4 & finals week? haha.. i cant even count down now.
but!! i'm so excited! i have an 88% in PSYC!! =D haha.. & she's going to curve it at the end.. soooo =D i hope i get an A.. if not.. a B is just as good.. =) and spanish is *thumbs up* .. calc.. ehh.. midterm on wednesday.. SHIT! & GES.. uhhh. YEA. damn. i just want to pass. i still need to write up those labs. ahhh.. man. =(
on the phone w/ the siblings! so weird.
i blog more now that i cant go on myspace. haha.. i'm a freakn NERD!!
my throat hurts. =(
* teresa 10:31 PM l
Thursday, November 11, 2004
my mom says i'm not allowed to hang out w/ may because i'm sick. =(
* thanks for the talks last night bob & mango!! <33
monica reminded me of something i learned last week in psychology. haha.. that when we're stressed out, it affects our immune system. well, *ta da!* it's TRUE! i'm sick. =( i hate it. i still have that stress, but now i'm SICK too. blahblah.
i'm a freakn broken record. =/
tonight, the OGMP ladies went to go watch "saw".. it was a pretty good funny/scary movie! haha.. but yea, it kind of reminded me of 'phone booth' in its own weird way. "sweet cancer!" *followed w/ super bad acting* .. "just SHOOT him already!" .. "dont say my fuckn name!" .. "MMM! SHIT!" hahaha.. other good highlights of the night: "ACTiONS speak louder than words!" .. finding NEMO!! ^.~ "now i remember why i HATE people!" haha.. =)) good stuff!! <33
my throat hurts. and i thought i'd take thermaflu? .. ugh. never again. i lose. i think sleep is good. so goodnight~
* teresa 10:06 PM l
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
uhoh.
i think i'm getting SICK.
.. =/
* teresa 11:47 PM l
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
dear teresa,
you're a BIG JERK!
you've changed a LOT from who you were last year. you were so nice, always happy, and just optimistic! now you're a JERK! sending out negative vibes to everyone around you and starting shit.
but at least you're doing (somewhat) better in school. but does shutting out all your friends to study forever & working all the time equal being HAPPY? is the pay you're getting WORTH it? ...
i think you should change back to who you were.. because i miss you.
think about it,
the teresa you were last year
* teresa 10:39 PM l
Monday, November 08, 2004
aww.. i miss living w/ my family. =(
my mom came down for the weekend for the bridal shower. (which was SO MUCH FUN! rawr. i was THiSCLOSE to making the bouqet in the hula hoop! haha.. =D)
mom: yea.. these are size 14 in kids!
(me) & my 2nd mom: (EW!!) SHUT UP!!
me: mom.. i'm hungryyy~
mom: okay. do you want eggs?
me: k go. *& walks away*
- 1 minute later, i hear a knock on my door -
mom: what's "k go?" eggo? you want waffles?
me: HAHAHA.. nooo.. O-kay. GO!
then! when we were at the market, my aunt was getting wine & my mom.. haha.. i'm so bad, but i was like 'hey mom! can i get that?! *points to smirnoff apple twist*' & she's all walking towards it like she was going to get it.. then after asking me if i really wanted it, she gave me a mean look, & was like "THAT'S ALCOHOL!" hahaha.. dude. my mom's soooo hilarious.. i miss her already! i hope she comes down for thanksgiving! *crosses fingers!*
it rained yesterday & today. it made me =)
i told my brother we were going to color coordinate @ the wedding. since my mom got a pink & purple dress & i have my purple one, i told him i'd get him a PiNK TiE!! haha.. he's SO DOWN with that.. haha.. awesome. now if i can convince my dad.. >=D
* teresa 9:39 PM l
Sunday, November 07, 2004
so.. its my first day off in a LONG time..
and i'm going to have more days off, but i'm going to feel like my manager is going to be on my ass about working extra days to make up for it, but i have no fuckn time other than the weekends when i'm already fuckn working.. seriously. i should just FUCKN QUIT.
but seriously. day off = good, right?
.. too bad. teresa = ANNOYED/PiSSED OFF!
i'm so fuckn sick & tired of everything. i bet you have no fuckn CLUE.
i refuse to talk which make people think i'm mad. but then if i do talk, that'll just confirm it. every other word being a cuss word just gives it away, ya know?
so fuck this muthafuckn bullshit. i have to go.
* teresa 12:41 PM l
Friday, November 05, 2004
my week: (sunday/1o.31 - friday/11.5)
school + work - sleep + stress (a LOT) = insane (x.#)
but a good/COOL part of the week: i got to see the peanut! =)) my future nephew/niece!! =DD
i'm tired. i was going to work out after class, but i had to do something. rawr.. saturday FOSHO. hm. but my mom is coming tomorrow night. shit. =/ i LOSE. i need to clean my room!! i have work tonight til 10:30!!! >=T
OH MAN!! check this WHACK schedule!!
friday, 11.12 / 6:15-9:30
saturday, 11.13 / 2:30-7:30
sunday, 11.14 / 1:00-5:00
friday, 11.19 / 6:15-11:30
what happened to the consistency?! i LOVED the consistency!! and we're open til 11pm on the 19th?!?! HUH?!?!?! dude. i swear.. -.-
5 weeks & everything will be DiFFERENT!! how TRiPPY is that?!?!
..then in 6 weeks, school will be OUT for a whole MONTH!!! YEAUH!!!
i want SUSHI!!! rawr. randy AND nik owe me sushi!!! =DDDDD hahaha.. that's what you guys get for making me STAY & PLAY!! haha.. =)) but no.. it was fun. i missed playing. & asking randy "sooo.. what's a full house? .. hm.. ANY??" =D
seriously though? i'm excited to go back to vegas for winter break. =) i cant wait to see friends & hang with them.. then come back to sd & hang out w/ all the friends here.. since i havent done so this semester!! =T sorry.
stupid priorities..
so.. it's sad because i'm supposed to be raking in a good $600/month.. BUT.. yea. where's it all GOING?! i dont FREAKN KNOW!!! =((( what. the. shit.
i love it when people ask me "what's new?" hm. do you really want to know? if you do, that makes it easy on me because NOTHING'S new with me. SSDD. (haha.. did i use that in the right context?!)
ok. i'm tired. i'm cranky. i should take a nap > eat > work for 4.5 hours
* teresa 2:23 PM l
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
my focus is broken.
it's kind of funny how in psyc today, we talked about STRESS. i am FOR SURE..
STRESSED OUT!! TO THE MUTHAFUCKN MAXXXX!!!!
i fuckn hate this bullshit. there's always SOMETHING. i'm stressing over this psyc midterm on friday. & i was like oh YAY.. after i'm done, i can finally relax!! hm.. NO?! i fuckn have a math midterm in 2 weeks along w/ a paper to do for psyc.. yea.. and on top of THAT.. i need to find 2 more HPPs to do. and THEN before i realize it, it'll be time to study for FINALS!! ........
then the OTHER shit.. i'm trying to not let it get to me.. but honestly.. i feel like such a BLAHHH for complaining to anyone/everyone!! i dont have the MUTHAFUCKN TIME!!!!!!!!! and i feel SO FUCKN BAD ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!
maybe i should just fuckn quit macys & tutoring billy.. what a waste of my FUCKN TIME! my life is bought for 5 days a week for a total of $150. hm. NO THANKS?! TOO BAD SOCIETY IS BUILT ON MONEY!!! money revolves around everything. we're fuckn brainwashed. anything can be bought. but how about TIME?! well, yea, if you can AFFORD IT!! its so fuckn high in DEMAND!! not enough SUPPLY!! FUCK! yea.. great way to apply ECONOMICS, HUH?! ....
quit macys = more time to study = better in school! but that doesnt solve the MONEY issues.. BILLS.. i HATE BILLS!!!! i HATE MONEY!!!!!!
someone signed on john's sn earlier. honestly. what the HECK. that just.. broke me. i was thisclose to breaking down & crying.. i still am.... everything's soooo WRONG. I MISS HIM!!!!!!!!! =********(
whatever. i have my muthafuckn ISSUES. so WHAT?!
* teresa 11:08 PM l
