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Friday, July 29, 2005

blah. it's been awhile since i've had a nice long entry for the people who like reading my blog. -.- but yea. i've just been thinking about all this random stuff. blogging to me is like a good mental workout. hah. why am i so lame? sigh.

so, like, summer school is dwindling down to the last 2 weeks. excitement up the wahzoo! =) but yea, i'm surprised by how much i've learned! with my intro to music class, i feel kind of prejudiced in what i listen to because there are a lot of different types of music out there, but i stick to the mainstream/popular music & the occassional few that slip past. did you know the greatest musicians are blind? my teacher has this thing against mtv, i swear! hah. but now i kind of agree. (but then again, tv to me is evil in itself.) mtv is more about marketing music whose labels/companies pay to have promoted. so from that, the viewers are limited to the select few genres of music that are played on mtv. yea, DUMB, huh? but that's how the stupid world works. =) it makes me kind of mad that everything is money driven, but hey, i guess that's how the world works, apparently. whatevers.

then with sociology, the world sucks even more! weeeee. sometimes, i'd question the way our society has been molded, but at the same time..i dont know. if i were a better person, i wouldnt want a diamond ring after learning that people's hands get chopped off in order for me to get that diamond ring. but no - society's done a swell job imbedding it into my head that i NEED a diamond ring if/whenever i get engaged. i mean, there are other things that can be a symbol of your love to another, but to us, diamonds are forever, diamonds symbolize love, diamonds symbolize power. then w/ the whole capitalism/globalization.. it sucks because there will always be third world countries that we get our cheap stuff &/or resources from. it will never be equal. if we were to help a third world country, we would suffer also. so to stay on top & let others suffer w/ their way of life, we just do our own thing. like, it makes me mad, but that's just the way i see things. the idea of "survival of the fittest" all the way back from darwin (right?) still applies nowadays. with my knowledge from econ & what i'm learning in soc, i'm just RAWR! haha.. because it makes sense why the economy is functioning how it is.. but from the sociology point of view, it all seems unfair. i dont know. rawrr..

haha.. man. this adds onto my new outlook on life. how yea, it SUCKS but i've accepted it. i need to make some changes too. but hey, things are always easier said than done! sooo eh. why are we always so lazy? & why do we always want others to change before we change ourselves? .. blahblah!!

mm.. what else..... ok. i got one. haha.. so i've been thinking about this for awhile & it's still kind of bugging me. awhile ago, i remember talking to michele about someone & she mentioned how he's part of my "taste".. as in for boys. & i was surprised. i have a certain taste? what? & she tells me "yea, you like PRETTY BOYS!" o.O?! really?! haha.. i thought it was kind of funny & somewhat true. then, awhile back, my sister made some kind of comment on how i only go for asian boys w/ civics or integs = typical AZN. -.- GREAT! so that meant my sister saw me as one of those typical AZN girls also. MAN! what the hell. i dont think i have a type. but at the same time i think i do? hahaha.. because i LOVEE being paradoxical like that! =T but i think i'm thinking more about my standards, but doesnt that roll up into a certain type? mm.. maybe not. haha.. whatevers clevers.

i love how people can read my blog & interpret it for all the wrong reasons. but i guess that's what free speech does? things are said, things are understood both in the right & wrong ways. depending on the person. when i say i want to stab myself, i could mean it theorethically or literally. but the reader wouldnt know which. because it's my statement. i dont know. but.. my blog is for me. my fragments are a way of not letting others know what's really going on but also letting me note down maybe an event that i want to remember later on & words that might help trigger the memory. i dont have anything to hide. but at the same time, i dont like people who read this knowing/assuming EVERYTHING. analyzing me w/o my own knowing. ehh. wonder why i dont link this anymore? haha.. this is why. whatever. you guys can keep on reading this for all i care. we all have our blogs, journals, diaries, whatever. secret, tangible online, whichever's better for you. i miss my real journal, but whatever. maybe one day..

i should listen to what i say more often. "ideally, i'd want to keep in touch w/ all the people i've met throughout my life, but seriously? life goes on, things happen to YOU & you end up with your own life. school, work, family, friends, significant other. so REALLY, even if you wanted to, keeping in touch doesnt always work out as you want it to." sometimes, i wonder about myself.

* teresa 12:38 AM l

Thursday, July 28, 2005

i watched 'charlie & the chocolate factory' last night w/ clare & nik. haha.. i think my favorite character was grandma georgina. =) "i like grapes." .. 'you dont even know what we're talking about!' "..dragonflies?" ahhhh.. ^^

* teresa 12:38 AM l

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

first off, i am such a winner! my last day for 24hr is sept. 24th. =)

secondly, i suck. i scratched my laptop! =( it makes me sad.

omgosh.. i found this site somewhere & it's soooo cool. use your brain power, guys! http://www.dailysudoku.co.uk/sudoku/index.shtml

.. i want to go to the beach.

mm.. people should stop reading my blog. =)

* teresa 12:47 PM l

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

i killed a spider today. blah!

so i went into 24hr to cancel my membership yesterday but they just gave me a # to call. i called it this morning, but i got impatient & the music was getting annoying, so i was like whatever, i'll go in later & ask them again. so i did that & the girl told me they dont cancel memberships @ the clubs anymore, so i was like whatever! & called again. yea, 10 minutes passed & the music was getting hella annoying, so i gave up (for the day). i bet they do this on purpose, so people cant cancel their membership. they get annoyed & so they decide the $30 they're dishing out every month is nothing & 24hr wins! .. manipulative JERKS! haha.. whatever. i'll call. i WILL cancel! and then I'LL WIN! ahhh.. i'm so psycho.

danny: here
d: ill send you 50$
d: CATCH
t: i hate u
t: haha
d: what
d: you missed?
d: SHIT
d: whered my 50$ go
d: TERESA
d: WHERE IS IT

4 more lectures for each class to go to. then 1 final. =)

i'm sad. my arms are sooooo much more darker than my legs. =(

haha.. now that i think about it. i cant believe i asked him what i asked yesterday. =T haha.. i dont know. just yea. my consciousness spoke before my brain processed what was said.

i need new music.

* teresa 4:28 PM l

Monday, July 25, 2005

sooo bored. took this from dana's blog. = )

Name four bad habits you have:
1. wishing for unnecessary stuff
2. buying unnecessary stuff/dumb materialistic stuff! =/
3. wishing bad things for people that suck./soo.. being evil.
4. not talking to people when i'm mad. HAHA. true that, huh?

Name four things you wish you had:
1. confidence in myself
2. a best guy friend
3. a toned body.. =P gosh.. so vain.
4. a special talent..

name four scents you love:
1. babies! - like isabelle. =)
2. flowers
3. my mom's cooking.
4. myself or anyone, after taking a shower. haha.. i dont know. people just smell better.

name four things you are thinking about right now:
1. vegas.. & how i could've stayed for the summer. i lose!
2. visiting/bugging isbee. aww.. =(
3. food. i didnt eat yet. & i think pop tarts are starting to taste gross. maybe because i eat them too much. bahh..
4. what the buzzing noise outside is.. ehh..

name four things that you have done today:
1. woke up @ 6am
2. spilled tea on my bed =(
3. class 8-10:20 =)
4. about to throw my sheets in the washer. =(

name the last four things you have bought:
1. gas in barstow
2. a quesadilla from tgifridays which was not even worth the $3
3. peach slush from jc cafe
4. ae shirt

name four drinks you regularly drink:
1. water
2. tea
3. water
4. water

first grade teacher's name?
1. i dont remember! =/ i know i was in ny though.. haha..

song stuck in your head?
1. it's not stuck in my head because it's playing right now, but: one wish - ray j

last song you sang?
1. look up

last person you hugged?
1. my mom <3

last thing you laughed at?
1. i saw romeo @ the carmel mtn exit & i was trying to get his attention & he looked & he looked confused! haha.. but waved when i turned & yea.. =)

what's in your cd player?
1. pleasure & pain - 112 (i loveee! thanks brian! =)
2. i cant put 2 cds in at once.. -.- ghetto!

what color socks are you wearing? none.. socks? suffocate my feet! haha..
what's under your bed? um.. wood? haha..
what time did you wake up today? 6am. then again at 6:45. =P
current taste? saliva. yum.
current clothes? pink shirt, m&m pj pants. =)
last cd you bought? that.. I bought? .. no idea.

favorite place to be?
1. the beach
2. my room

least favorite place to be?
1. school.
2. anywhere outside in vegas on a summer day. haha. the heat sucks! but i miss it, oddly enough.
3. between friends.

if you could play an instrument?
1. piano
2. guitar. oooh. the banjo is freakn awesome. haha..

favorite color? all pastels. that & brown and orange
do you believe in an afterlife? yepp.
how tall are you? 5'5"
current favorite word/saying? "SHUUP!" the word NEAT/SPIIFFY.. haha..
identify some of the things surrounding your computer: i'm using my laptop & it's on my lap. so um.. my legs? haha..
random lyric: "i love it when you move like that.. shake it from the front to back.. put my hands on them hips.. make me want to kiss them.. lips." - ryan leslie =)

[FIRSTS]
First best friend: i dont remember. clare? haha..
First break-up: brian..
First screen name: azngirl65. so gaysian! mann!
First self purchased album: i never really bought cds.. =/
First funeral: mm.. john john's.. <3
First credit card: my wells fargo one.. thanks to bruce! who needed to sign people up for them.. haha..
First enemy: bahh! cant we all just get along? HA.
First road trip: w/ family - probably to vegas, new york, yuma, i dont even know.

[LASTS]
Last cigarette: never
Last car ride: um. i drove to school this morning. haha..
Last library book checked out: haha.. it was for my little cousin.. i dont even know what it was called.
Last movie seen: in theaters? batman begins. at home - million dollar baby.
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: 1 & a half of a poptart.
Last phone call: diana
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: my new steve maddens. =)
Last item bought: eh.. like a solid item? my ae shirt. its neat! =P
Last annoyance: the car that tried to kill me the other night! going to jc cafe w/ brian, debb & david.. rawrr! *shakes fist* asshole. haha.. 0=)
Last time wanting to die: dont remember. all i know now is.. i'm not scared to die. maybe about HOW i'm going to, but yea.. i accept it.
Last time scolded: hm.. dont really remember. my parents <3 me. haha..

[RELATIONSHIPS]
01. Who are your best friends? debb, clare, diana..
02. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? rawr. haha..

[SPECIFICS]
01. do you do drugs? crack, ocassionally. =)
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? suave naturals - the cheap kind from target. =)
03. what are you most scared of? failure.
04. what are you listening to right now? goodbye waves & drive ways - the rocket summer
05. where do you want to get married? i dont know. ask me when i'm dating someone seriously. haha..
06. how many buddies are online right now? 24
07. what would you change about yourself? a lot.

[FAVORITE]
01. food: gooood! & real. haha.. but yea, italian food all the way baby! =)
02. subjects in school: hm. couldnt really say..
03. animals: panda dogs! haha..
04. sports: basketball? =P
05. perfume: i never pay attention to the names. but i do <3 my fcuk perfume. =)
06. cologne: i dont know.. haha..

[HAVEYOUEVER]
01. given anyone a bath?: hm. haha.. i watched may & my mom give isabelle one. =P
02. smoked? no & i dont plan to.
03. bungee jumped? not yet..
04. made yourself throw up? siick. no.
05. skinny dipped? no
06. ever been in love? puppy love..
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? haha.. i cant lie, so i cant fake cry either! .. what the hell is wrong with me! haha..
08. pictured your crush naked? hahaha..
09. actually seen your crush naked? hm.. no.
10. cried when someone died? yea.
11. lied? HAHAHA..
12. fallen for your best friend? nope
13. been rejected? plenty of times~
14. rejected someone? yea =/
15. used someone? yea. when i used to be evil.
16. done something you regret? yea.. but whatevers. you learn & become a better person from that stuff.

[CURRENT]
make-up: invisible. -.-
favorite artist: i have many.

[LAST PERSON]
you touched: my mom
you IMed: debbie
you kissed: isbee! =)

[ARE YOU ]
understanding: yep
open-minded: i like to think so
arrogant: i'd like to think i'm not.
insecure: yep
interesting: haha.. i have my moments..
hungry: currently..
smart: sometimes!
moody: everyone's moody.
hardworking: yea. even if i do have my lazy days..
organized: very.
healthy: mm.. sometimes..
bored easily: haha..
responsible: yepp
obsessed: not really..
angry: not right now..
sad: nope..
disappointed: kind of, not really..
hyper: not now..
trusting: yep
talkative: depends with each person..

[RANDOM]
in the morning i am: likely to hit the snooze button 3 times before actually getting up. yuck.
all i need is: earth, wind, fire, love! (hahaha. captain planet!) but um.. all i need is.. family, a couple of good friends, education so i can get educated!, love when the time comes, blahblah..
love: is hard to find, but if you dont go looking for it, it's bound to find you. =) i wish it'd hurry up & find me though because i hear being in love is .. lovely. =)
I dream about: nothing. i have blank dreams & the random shoplifting, make out type of dreams. HAHA..
horror movies: are the BEST!
last person you danced with: wow. when's the last time we went to boogie? probably dj? haha.. i dont even know.
who makes you smile: people. =)
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: no one.

[DO YOU EVER]
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: psssh, no.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes, but it's good being a girl.
wish you were younger: not really.

[NUMBER]
of times i have had my heart broken: mm..
of hearts i have broken: none, i hope! =/
of continents i have lived: one
of tight friends: close to a handful. <3
of cds i own: i dont want to count..
of scars on body: 2? i dont know. booo..

* teresa 1:09 PM l

Sunday, July 24, 2005

yea, the weekend was grrrreat. excluding the disgusting weather.

[ thursday ] drove by myself for 5 & a half hours. (which means dealing w/ traffic also!) drove through the random rain which caused temporary blindness. dealt w/ the warm air when it got too cold. saw a rainbow. & lots of lightning that scared the crap out of me. eventually got in around 8 pm. i made the mantle over the fireplace pretty! =) my mom & i took a late night trip to walmart. there was only one line open. w/ more than 10 people waiting. -.- DUMB.

symbolic.
[ friday ] bruce called me in the morning, but yea, had plans. =T i got lunch w/ ame @ applebees. it was really cool catching up! & i finally found someone to discuss HP&tHBP with! =) 'they're supposed to make him look evil!' "man, if he were older, i'd hit that!" haha.. went home. watched part of a chinese movie w/ my mom. "hey dad, we're watching a chinese movie.." 'oh..which one?' "a stupid dumb one!" haha.. -.- went to eat @ the st. tropez buffet at suncoast. "hey dan, tro-pay bou-fay.. HAHA!" afterwards, went to debb's & messed up her hair! =( haha.. blahh! watched some random lifetime movie. =)

[ saturday ] turned down going to the shooting range by accident! rawr! =( damnit. haha.. went to tipps for lunch. debbie getting a phone call from me w/ me sitting right next to her. haha.. i suck. =P met up w/ brian, kat & jonson. =D i stabbed my heart first! YES! but brian freakn destroyed his! =/ random debb! 'lord of the flies', what?! "have you noticed that everything at tea planet is tea flavored?? even the noodles?!" haha.. separated afterwards. =( debb & i went to meadows/AE. then coldstone! wasabi ginger ice cream, eh? haha.. GROSS! debb was a big brave dog & tried it! haha.. =P my house. watched 'richie rich' then david & brian came over. we watched 'million dollar baby'.. SO UNNECESSARILY LONG, but sad. "just DIE!" hah. david's nifty present. jc's cafe=NEW COOL PLACE! card games, jenga, then pictionary w/ jenga tiles. =D haha.. david & brian seemed to be like 'dat' but it's cool because debbie & i are like 'dis'! ^^ LOTS OF FUN with that!! =D happy hour @ tgifriday's. "who was the voice for simba in 'the lion king'?" JTT! haha.. then the waiter outside throwing water @ the bush. o.O then goooodnight & gooooodbyes. =(

take a look @ our awesome creations. be cool & try to guess what they are! ok. you guys suck for not guessing. (haha..thanks for guessing ame!) but here are the answers:

hint on how to guess for these creations!
"think outside of the box!"

the pot of gold under the rainbow..

the obvious one - a phone..

miine! it's a genie bottle.. like in aladdin..
[ sunday ] woke up at 8am. sooo early. left around 9:30. =/ i really really <3 my mom. it was raining when i left. rawr. whatevers. hung out w/ dj & made him entertain me.. haha.. we watched 2 korean movies. they were cute! =D then homeward. now here.

but yea. thanks for the weekend!! <333!! *HUG!!*

* teresa 8:02 PM l

Thursday, July 21, 2005

freeing up aim info:

bw: Hah If you feel froggy just jump

bc: we dont like you Teresa
bc: we LOVE you

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my heart is flying at the mere thought of it. <3

* teresa 9:33 AM l

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

..... just rip my heart out, stab it for good measure, then walk all over it just because.

oh wait - you've done that.

* teresa 10:49 AM l

Monday, July 18, 2005

bruce: Don't I teresa?
albert: LOL
b: Lol
a: WTF
a: im not teresa
a: fucker
b: Ghetto lol
b: HAHa albert
b: how did you get here
b: LOL
a: YAH OK FAG
a: HAHAHA

yay.. you succeeded in making me LAUGH! haha.. =D

Bruce: If your my gift, Im not taking you home!!
Bruce: lol
ChYnEzAn6L: hahaha
ChYnEzAn6L: laaame
Bruce: I hate pets
Bruce: lol
Bruce: jk =p

hahaha.. ahhhhhhhhhhhh..

* teresa 9:52 PM l

Sunday, July 17, 2005

i just finished HP&tHBP. =*(

someone needs to read it so then i can have someone to discuss it with! bahh!

* teresa 1:05 PM l

Saturday, July 16, 2005

i went to b&n this morning to pick up my copy of 'harry potter & the half blood prince'.. the girl who rang me up gave me this green bracelet (you know - like the yellow live strong ones) that said 'july 16, 2005'.. haha.. sorry, but that was dumb. now.. if it said harry potter, i'd sport that shit! haha..

i <3 this time of day.

the weekend is halfway over. = )

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danny: whos your favorite professor
ChYnEzAn6L: um
ChYnEzAn6L: i duno
d: mines SNAPE
d: YEAH.
d: cause
d: in the movie
d: hes like
d: YOU GUYS ARE TROUBLEMAEKRUS
d: STOPIT
d: DONT FOLLOW ME
ChYnEzAn6L: LOL!!!
ChYnEzAn6L: youre dumb

* teresa 7:19 PM l

Friday, July 15, 2005

Artistic inspiration may elude you today, dear Taurus. The ideas may be there, but you may not have a handle on exactly how to put them to work at this time. Communication with others, ~~particularly romantic partners~~, could be difficult right now, as words may not come as easily to you as they usually do. This is a great day to stay in and read, as you're far more likely to understand the thoughts of others rather than your own!

HAHAHAHA..

so my past few days:
- summer school. intro to music=dumb, soc=surprisingly decent.
- 24 hour. hott white boy. work out > endorphines > happy.
- talked to kat.. "dont be like alex!"
- talked to al of ex..bungee jumping!
- saw a coyote who looked like he wanted to eat me.
- bought 'harry potter & PoA' for $10 @ target!
- twobuckshort finished their new cd - i want!
- visited jessica & aja.. "who's going to cry first? aja or teresa?"
- dinner @ sister's.. "i think teresa wants her to cry!"
(bachlorette party pictures! HAHA.. damn. he was HOTT!)
- had a nice talk w/ rosemarie. "screw the bullshit!"
- HARRY POTTER COMES OUT TOMORROW! =D
- work on midterm & stupid music assignment.

-------- 11:15pm

i asked albert if he could help me w/ my midterm. this is what he responded w/:
a: www.google.com

.. -.-

t (10:09:47 PM): hm.. should i get my harry potter book tonight?
t (10:09:58 PM): i dont wana get mobbed by lil kids but i want my copy
t (10:09:59 PM): haha
a (10:10:55 PM): OMG
a (10:10:55 PM): hAHAHA

danny: i went to borders people dressed up i probably made people cry or something like some girl was like wearing a cape and a shirt/tie thing and was walking down the magazine aisle and as she was coming i was like chucklingh haha yeah my friend like "omg dude, you couldve waited until they went away" hahah

.. haters!!

* teresa 12:33 AM l

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

OMG.. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

you know you're at *that* point when you just start crying because life is so damn hard. and because.. you feel so fuckn ALONE in this big ass unfair WORLD!!

i know you guys are going to read this.. because you'd rather read, hoping i write something about what i'm feeling rather than talk to me.. because hey.. that's just how things work. well, today's your lucky day. i broke down. here's the entry you've been waiting for!

"there's a reason for everything." (& everything's connected one way or another, i promise.) there are many reasons for doing the things i do. i dont hang out because there's usually nothing ever to do. i dont hang out because i have no job & no money to spend (although hanging out doesnt always mean spending money, but even driving places COSTS!).. i dont hang out because i dont get asked to hang out. i dont hang out because i dont call people. (& what would the point of that be? to do nothing? i'm all for doing nothing sometimes, but right now - i just feel like i cant afford to. literally. and it's not because i'm fuckn cheap! like every other chinese person, but because i have a REASON!) so what is that fuckn reason?? i dont want to spend MY savings. yea, some of you are probably going to say it's my own fault or whatever for not getting a job, but that was my own choice & it's not like i DONT want to.. i just find it pointless to work at places for like 2-3 months like i have in the past. sure, it'd make all the difference in the world, but i want time to enjoy LIFE also. isnt that what summer is about? isnt that what LIFE is all about? to ENJOY it?? to cherish & treasure it?? i have all the freakn time in the world to work after i graduate in 2 years. but yea.. back to my thought.. on how i dont want to spend my savings.. i'm trying to ration it.. so i dont have to ask my parents for money anytime soon. and i dont want to fuckn ask my parents for money anytime soon because my mom isnt going to be working for the next 2 months. why? let's just say - for medical reasons. & ever since i learned what the purpose of it was for, i've been worried & getting sinking feelings in my stomach since. (which is why i cant sleep right now).

can you BLAME me for wanting to hurry up & graduate & move ON with LIFE?? i want to have a STABLE CAREER & switch roles w/ my parents. i want to pay for MY OWN SHIT. & help THEM out. or treat them out to all the good stuff life has to offer. omg.. i cant wait for that part of my life!

i think.. i'm not meant to be alone. even though circumstances have proved me otherwise. my parents are in another state. my sister lives 20 minutes south, but i barely get to see/talk to her - she has her own LIFE now. i havent talked to my sd friends. the house is somewhat empty. i HATE BEING ALONE. but i also HATE BEING CROWDED. it's good to be independent, but when you have NO ONE to call on.. it's really dumb. the world hates you. because it loves torturing you making you feel this way.

you cant trust anyone but yourself. hopefully i dont let myself down.

* teresa 12:31 AM l

Sunday, July 10, 2005

it's been a month since i've been back in san diego. hah. dumb.

* teresa 6:31 PM l

Saturday, July 09, 2005

t: i'm a man and yur black
t: the world makes sense
t: haha
d: YEPP
d: god the answers to all my questions answered
t: hahahaha
d: by two simple icons
t: so awesome

i was looking at msn.com's top 10 odd college courses & i like #10: "At Centre College in Danville, Kentucky, students can take "Art of Walking," in which students not only read literature by noted perambulators like Kant and Nietzsche, but go for neighborhood strolls with their professor and his dog." do we have odd courses @ san marcos? probably NOT!

-------- 07:24 pm

i saw this on a hallmark card. yea.

things people say to cheer you up:
1. look on the bright side!
2. it could be worse..
3. it's not that bad..

things you want to say to them:
1. shut up!
2. shut up!
3. shut up!

* teresa 10:28 AM l

Thursday, July 07, 2005

we talked about consumerism in class today. aaaaaaaand you know what? haha.. it was dumb. because i kind of agreed with a lot of it. people nowadays relate success to the amount of stuff they can buy! & people always buy the latest things because it's what society's putting out as "in" or whatnot. & everyone for some reason or another just follows the trends. for example, if you see a friend roll up in a niiiice brand spankin' new car, you wouldnt necessarily get jealous (or maybe you would), but wonder why YOU dont have a nice car like your friends.. then it gives off a false consciousness in where you "want" what they have. then the teacher went on to talk about the trends.. like uggs, tattoos, ponchos, whatever. seriously, i think our society is so warped on the materialistic things in the world. if we cared as much about the rest of the world/politics/whatnot as we did about fashion/trends/blah, then i think we WOULD be better off as a whole. ahh.. but i think that's the ideal for society. oh wells.

i got to talk to mon yesterday. it was good. =) "if an opportunity presents itself, you should take it! & this is an OPPORTUNITY!!" she's right. it is. yep.

mm. i'm fat. k bye.

"see, you need a boyfriend teresa.." HAHA.. i <3 talking to al of ex. =)

* teresa 7:33 PM l

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

"oh yea.. i forgot.. you're a loser!" - kris

ick (11:56:40 PM): because its pretty obvious that you really arent that cool
ick (11:56:52 PM): sorry t

ick (11:57:59 PM): OKAY
ick (11:58:09 PM): youre the coolest person i know
ick (11:58:12 PM): sheesh

haha.. gosh.. i think it's be mean to teresa day.

i got cubed today. = ) "people see right through you/you have nothing to hide, you're independent, your friends rely on you, the person you like is tied to your friends.." gooood stuff.

* teresa 11:57 PM l

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

my story for the day. today, i had sociology & i sat kinda in the middle of class. randomly, my contact falls out! so i'm all confused & wonder if i should get up & go to the bathroom to put it back in.. but i was thinking "what if i just put it back in now?" in the middle of class.. where anyone sitting behind me can see & think of me as whatever.. HAHA.. so i do it & it's done. i caught the teacher glancing over at me. =T haha.. i'm loserly. but yea.. my contact is retarded! because it fell out for a 2nd time.. blahh.. weird!

me: i miss the past
debb: me too...i dont miss it enough to wanna go back where i want it all to be the same right now cuz if we tried that i wouldnt work cuz we've all changed but its good to look back and smile look back and not be bitter about bad things that happen either just kinda..look back and be like...all those hardships life is all about learning and leads to who we are right now

so true. i was a happier, yet ignorant person before everything in my life happened the way it did! oh well - there's a reason for everything, right? right. must accept things & people for what/who they are & MOVE ON with LIFE!

* teresa 10:27 PM l

Monday, July 04, 2005

5 chapters, 19 pages of notes & 1 paper = my accomplishment for this 4 day weekend!

too bad my paper is kind of dinky! she said no longer than 3 pages, so that means up to 3, right? .. mine is 2 & a half. haha.. whatevers clevers. the content matters, not the length of it! (that's what i keep telling myself.)

UGH. i need to read the article she sent us. 28 pages of BORING! i still have tonight.. =/

clare & i had our spontaneous outing last night. haha.. we watched 'batman begins'.. it's a good movie! clare agrees with me! i found a new quote.

"you fear what you dont understand."

then uhh.. other adventure. HAHA. i'm horrible. i need to be more like oslagab! peer pressure is F-in LAME. then yea. i had 5 hours of sleep, but i'm not tired surprisingly. ahh.. it'll catch up to me. woke up early to work on my paper, now i'm going to get ready to go to may's.

i hope you all have a good, safe, yummy 4th of july! = )

* teresa 12:13 PM l

Sunday, July 03, 2005

it's been.. 2 years since my dad's ever seen me cry..

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i looked back on old entries that had his name in it & these made me smile.. =) he was the best guy friend i could ever ask for! <333

3.9.2002
i left extra credit early. dang it. and when debb, kat, and john were walking me out, yeah..it was debb, john, me then kat. well, ya know how some people use their feet to push the door open? yeah. WELL, i was right behind John, and my dear half chinese bro KICKED me. >.< hahaha.. the expression on his face was funny. puhahaha..i love john.

8.9.2002
we decided to look at the BIG model houses.. WHOO!!! that was exciting.. hahaha.. there was this pool table in one of the houses..and so JOHN decides to play.. so yeah.. he actually plays a whole game!! sheesh!!

1.28.2003
john: if you were chinese, how would you feel about bananas
me: arent they gonna be extinct in 10 years?
me: haha
me: i AM chinese...
john: really
john: wow
me: haha
john: I did not know taht
me: like you didnt know!!
me: psssh!
john: i meant the bananas...

john: dude dubi's all trying to tell me friday is chinese new year
john: i'm like...debbie...get reall
john: chinese people don't believe in fridays

* i miss his nicknames for all of us.. =( jonson called me today & i could tell it was him because he called me 'bonquisha' when i answered. only john & jonson called me that. =(

2.11.2003
hm.. talking to john today.. haha.. was both serious & fun.. john makes me laugh.. =) 9-118.. lol.. i love him.. ah yes.. just talking to him is cool.. "uhh.. i have to go ... sleep now.." hehe.. <33

2.17.2003
hehe.. john called me..it was funny because when i picked up, he was like, 'hi teresa..i love you.. i can always count on you for being there for me..' & i was like.. '... hi john.. i love you too!!' lol.. he's such a funny guy..i love him.. he was being so random.. haha.. the couch.. whata.. interesting story!! and other stuff.. he brought my self esteem down a bit.. but then i returned that favor.. haha. we're cool..

2.21.2003
me: my ears hurt..
john: then switch them..

4.4.2003
john called & came by to pick me up.. around 12:30.. big hugs are nicee.. =)))

5.17.2003
i saw john come in!!! & yea.. we did our whole running towards each other thing.. =))) he's the only one who gives me those kind of reactions/hugs as if we havent seen each other in YEARS... ^^ that made me feel so special.. i love that guy.. his date had the same dress as me!!! xP haha.. when i went back to talk to the people, perry was like 'dang.. when was the last time you saw him?!' my response? 'oh.. spring break..' hahahaha!! =)))) aww.. good times..

* teresa 8:57 PM l

Saturday, July 02, 2005

my calves are TIGHT.. it sucks when i walk. =(

so.. i watched 'please teach me english' @ randy's earlier & yea, i WANT IT. =) haha.. it was soooooo hilarious. =)

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i'm going on to the 3rd of my 7 chapters. gosh. it takes forever to read & take notes! @.@ my goal for the day is to finish all 7. then tomorrow: write my essay! then monday, i can hang out w/ my sister & people! =)

i like this. it's from my brother's info:
Legacy, Loyalty, Love and Respect. Fuck the rest.
Old friendships never die. Remember that.
- ECHELON

-------- 11:10 pm

instead of 7, i was wrong, it's 8! more FUN!!!! for tomorrow. sleep NOW.

* teresa 12:27 AM l

Friday, July 01, 2005

it's a new month! = new things, new people, new drama, new STUFF!

i've OFFICIALLY (seriously this time!) given up looking for a job. so WHAT if i'm going to be a jobless loser? YOU wont have to hang out w/ me. people dont like losers=ME.

... why do i expect change when i want everything to be constant?

* teresa 12:20 PM l