"to improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often."
- winston churchill

LIFE .. in the eyes of me.

Sunday, November 30, 2003

naris: move on to a nice thai guy or something...
naris: :-)
me: hahaha!

hahaha.. NARIS is AWESOME!! he totally put it into words what i'm feeling & thinking.. so yea. it's weird.. but it's great!! haha.. THANKS AGAIN NARIS!! =D
* teresa 9:21 PM l




[ saturday, 11.29.o3 ]

GOOD.. the only kind of TiMES there should be..

i like how vinnie defined good times in his info: "doing the meaningless with meaningful people..".. so nicee.. =)

saturday was great!! =) hm.. the eventful parts.. haha.. around 2.. i went to pick up glenda.. we were going to catch the 2:50 showing of the cat in the hat. but after calling annie we decided to catch the 3:40 showing. =P so glenda & i went to starbucks.. then to longs drugstore in mira mesa to make copies of the negatives.. yeaa.. those freakn people were soooo rude. neither glenda or (nor?) i wanted to ask them for help. rawr!! lame.. but i'll get pictures! yayy!! i just have to remember to pick them up later this week.. =P but yeaa.. annie met up with us there.. then the 3 of us went to edwards.. yep!!

so the movie.. haha.. it is SO not a kid's movie!! haha.. freakn a.. S.L.O.W. & S.H.I.T.. baddd!! so crazy.. but yea.. after that.. we went to visit anton.. then back over to longs.. bought soda.. haha.. annie got 40 of the 2 liter bottles.. oh mann!! haha.. that's a LOT of sunkist!! =P such a great deal though!! $.o.49!! whOo!! so yea.. after that we had like 2 hours to kill.. so we went over to the starbucks/jamba juice area.. talked.. shared stories.. they listened to me talk.. haha.. lots of teasing.. i swear.. WHAT boyfriend?! haha.. it's all good.. i missed it.. =) we talked about the group.. the girls & the guys.. haha.. INTERESTING STUFF!! i never really noticed!!! hahaha.. but yeaa.. chris came & joined us.. rj shouted my name again.. lol.. "do it again!!" so he goes outside of jamba juice & freakn YELLS my name.. it was great.. everyone was staring.. LOL!! it was great.. yeaaa.. =P but yea.. eventually clare, vinnie & shaheen met up with us.. yayy!! it was the group minus jane & christa!! booo!! =(

soooo.. the camera crew!! went shopping for soda!! haha.. that sounds weird.. but hey!! =P haha.. annie bought the rest of the sunkist.. so she had like 5o of those 2 liter bottles in her trunk!! it was hilarious.. =) that lady was being all blah because we got all the sunkist.. because she's not smart enough to look on the other side of the store.. whatever!! geez.. making all those comments.. bLaR!! but yeaa.. after that, we headed to fuddruckers.. the conversation in the car.. *shakes head* NO!! haha.. d.d. just like tv.. but worse!! hahaha.. anyways!! fuddruckers is an interesting place!! i like the environment.. =) i got lots of ketchup! heck yea.. that's how we do!! =DD haha.. lots of different conversations here & there.. filled annie in on the missions.. haha.. "go show me how it's done!!" .. 'yea!! there's a group of asian guys in that corner!!' .. -.- hahaha.. not cooool.. i'm retired!! =P then talked about certain stuff.. "so that must mean he likes you twice as much!!" or something like that.. hahaha.. gooooo anton!! haha.. but yea.. the girls noticed certain stuff about the guys.. how they were acting & how we were acting.. haha.. it's WEIRD.. it's like we switched roles.. when did that happen?! hahaha..

after that.. we went back to longs.. haha.. loitered in the parking lot.. up til the rent a cops told us that standing around in a pratically empty parking lot is "dangerous".... kay!!! .....no. -.- haha.. but yea.. hugged everyone goodbye.. i might not get to see people til.. spring break?? bleh.. maybe before that.. haha.. shoot.. i'll hang out with glenda & vinnie when i should be studying for finals.. it's all about those UCaRr people!! who NEEDS studying?! .. =)

you know what? when i was talking to annie & glenda earlier.. i realized that yea.. the use of blogs do work!! haha.. because we're all too busy to call each other up.. blahh.. (darn you smart UC kiDds.. jk.. =) but yea.. it's cool because they kind of know what's going on..? the whole point in starting blogs were so that we could somehow be caught up with one another.. i dont know.. at least that's what i always thought.. haha.. it sucks though.. because i miss seeing you guys everyday at mc & talking to you guys in person.. =( but yea!! you know what else?? haha.. =P like.. when i was just sitting at the table.. i was just listening for awhile.. it's kind of cool listening to us exchange stories about college & the people we've met.. i remember the majority of us being excited for college.. and yea.. here we are.. college kids.. some coming back home for the breaks.. finding time to hang out with the old group.. just catching up.. i LOVE it.. =) for me.. YEA.. i DO miss seeing everyone everyday.. and it's kind of sad that we barely see each other (the ones that are still in sd, that is!).. because like it's like a whole chain thing.. we're all linked some way or another.. like the group is a whole.. it wouldnt be right if we left someone behind.. i dont know.. you know?! haha.. blahh.. my babbling for the night..

ok.. from all of that!! haha.. it all comes down to.. it was great seeing everyone again!! we need/should hang out more.. not just cause we're on a break.. but just whenever.. we shouldnt let breaks be the only time we see each other.. =)

[ sunday, 11.3o.o3 ]

CONGRATULATIONS ANNE & PAUL!!

.. such a NICE wedding.. =) it seemed kind of quick.. but it's all good.. sooo nice.. anne looked BEAUTIFUL in her dress.. the reception that followed.. yeaa.. ahh.. *sigh*.. just by watching how they were acting around one another.. it just made me smile.. they DO complete one another.. =)) you can totally tell they're in love..

heyC L A R Esays: woww. i hope we'll bve like that when we get married :D
ChYnEzAn6L: sighh..yeaa..
heyC L A R Esays: o wellers..
heyC L A R Esays: we still have a LONG time :D
ChYnEzAn6L: heh
ChYnEzAn6L: i guess i'm just mind boggled by it cause she's so young
ChYnEzAn6L: and yeaa..makes me feel hopeless
ChYnEzAn6L: >.<
heyC L A R Esays: aww don't feel hopeless
heyC L A R Esays: you gotta have faith! :D

seriously though.. it all makes me think & feel like everything needs to be rushed.. it was cute though because they did this dance thing where all the married couples went on the dance floor & slow dances & yeaa.. the couple that has been married the longest would be the last couple on the dance floor.. that couple has been married for 47 years!! ... YEAA.. it was crazy!!

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT.. i decided this morning.. after talking to diana about it on friday & jessica last night.. uHh.. yea. haha.. nevermind - i'll keep it a secret. =)

ok. i feel like being productive. or sleeping. because i feel blah'd out.. this weekend has been good.. i dont know why i let some people disappoint me.. =/ but yea. overall - good weekend. =) next weekends will be freakn busy studying for FINALS!! ughh.. cause THAT'S fun.. -.- yea..
* teresa 3:54 PM l


Saturday, November 29, 2003

me: whatever!! i'm OVER it!!!
randy: hahahaha.. NO YOURE NOT!!

DAMN! ...
* teresa 12:46 PM l


Friday, November 28, 2003

ChYnEzAn6L: why are guys soooooooo dumb!!!!!!
SUPER DIM SUM: haha
SUPER DIM SUM: i dunno
SUPER DIM SUM: i guess its b/c we have penises
SUPER DIM SUM: HOHOHOHOHO

anyone else want to answer that question for me??

.. because i'm pretty satisfied with what patrick told me.
* teresa 6:19 PM l




i'm bored & have nothing better to do right now. so yeaaaaa.. long recap.. starting NOW..

[ wednesday, 11.26.o3]

the night before i got to talk to my brother & sister. (yea! we 3 way each other.. shaddddup..) my brother is hilarious.. i love it.. haha.. "it's kind of like stealing someone's hot dog when they're standing in front of you.." ahHh.. yeaa.. haha.. =D

went to school. went to ges. dome. sat there. debated on whether or not to attend psci. so yea. what do you think happened?? i decided not to go. hehe.. i liked how randy tried to get me to stay.. "i'll give you a massage!!" (so yea!! you still owe me that massage!! i stayed in the dome.. just didnt stay for class.. =) so yea. went home.

got a call from my favorite bword. she just got 3 shots & couldnt drive.. but needed to go drop off her immunization records @ school. so being the oh so cool person i am (HAHA.. how many people are laughing right now?! =P) yea.. i offered to drive her.. haha.. damn. going to school 2x in one day is not fun. =/ but yea. the car ride was fun. haha.. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!" oh man.. so great.. hahaha.. but hellooooo.. that person was on crack!! =P so yea. went back to school then home again..

took a nice 2 hour nap. haha.. then went online.. made plans for the night.. kind of.. haha.. then around 6.. i left to go to glenda's..

i misssssed glenda!!! haha.. dude.. and we just saw her a month & a half ago?! ahHh.. STILL!! haha.. but yea.. glenda, giselle & i went to stater brothers, price club, then!! we went to visit the guys.. went to visit anton @ aaron brothers.. i love frames!! haha.. i dont know.. man.. =P then we went to visit chris @ best buy!! dang.. seriously.. it seems like chris knows his ish.. go you!! he looked very nice too.. haha.. i liked your shoes!! =) (i highly doubt he'd read this, but hey! haha..) then yea.. glenda dropped me back off so i could get my car.. and go back home..

so first i got money then went home.. haha.. diana came over.. then shea came.. haha.. he got sucked into driving both of us.. =D but yea.. went to innout.. those guys in brown were shea-able.. =P hahaha.. then we went to edwards to watch haunted mansion.. yeaaaaa.. so that's a movie no one should have to pay for. =) it was okay.. just yea. no. haha.. diana made shea's shirt pink.. oh sooooooo nice.. haha.. after the movies.. we went to dennys.. sat & talked.. yeaa.. quite interesting..

then yea.. went home. talked to justin. then stuff was scaring me. so then!! the end. =)

but yeaaaaaaa.. i still dont know. blahblahblah.

[ thursday, 11.27.o3 ]

thanksgiving!! =)

thanks for all those texts & calls friends!! =)

so nice. got to spend the majority of the day w/ my 2nd family.. well may & i did.. =) went to their grandparent's house.. ate there.. YUM. =) it was delicious!! =D magnetic dartboards are freakn awesome!! haha.. brian touching my fat was not!! haha.. flub.. how sad!! xP oh mann.. IT WAS SO GREAT SEEING KEVIN!!!! "yayy.. FRIEND!!" *HUG!!* hahaha.. i missed my brotha!! for serious!! i'm glad he liked the jacket.. haha.. weeeeeeee.. but yea.. it was a different experience.. but still a great one..

after that, we went to edwards (oh man.. i didnt see nemo!!) to watch ELF!!! it was good!! =) soooo freakn cute.. haha.. it got me in the christmas spirit.. =)) "i just like to smile! smiling's my favorite!".. hehe.. soooo niceee!! so after the movie.. we went home.. that was around 7..my sister & i came home to an empty house.. it's usually never empty.. oh man. freak me out. my sister left.. so i decided to sleep.. but i forced her to call me every hour to check up on me. too bad i was deep in sleep & only caught 1 of those 3 calls.. =P

so since i didnt have a chance to last night.. i'll give my thanks now. =) hm.. from last turkey day til yesterday.. i'm thankful for the kiDd (thanks mom & dad!), getting accepted into csusm, graduating, being able to go to vegas for summer (because i realized if i hadn't.. i wouldnt have spent time with the people i love back there...).. i dont know.. i'm really thankful for the people in my life.

i'm thankful for my family who was there for me in a way i never knew was possible until this past summer.. my parents have been great. they've done so much. i love them for that.. as for my "relations"/siblings.. they're just awesome. =) as WEIRD as they are.. haha.. YES i'm related to you!! =D

for my 2nd family.. they were there for me a lot also.. i learned how to cook some things.. bake in precise measurements.. =P their house is my home away from home. it's like my haven. saving me from bordeom, everything!! kevin, shannon & brian are like additional brothers & sister.. it's great. i love them!! =)

for my friends!!! my bfs, KDA, good times group, vegas people, csusm people, everyone.. you guys seriously make me happy.. i'm thankful to have friends like you guys.. you have all been there for me at one time.. every little thing you guys do make me smile.. i'm serious!! =) i love you guyses!!! <33

yeaa.. sooo much. but i mean it all.. =)

[ friday, 11.28.o3 ]

guess what time i woke up!! 9am!! haha.. i slept at 7pm!!! that means i got 14 hours of sleep?! hahaha!! wtf!! dang.. sooo i'm well rested.. =)

everyone probably woke up at 6am to go shopping, huh?! i remember going shopping w/ my brother last year.. aww.. bought him his ish too.. haha.. damn i'm a good sister!! =P but yea.. i hate shopping.. haha.. so that's why i'm not out.. i only like shopping when i have money to spend or things to buy.. other than that.. yea.. no. =)

there's nothing to doooo.. ahhhhh.. i'm excited for saturday!!! =D
* teresa 10:30 AM l


Thursday, November 27, 2003

HAPPY THANKSGIVING GUYS!!!!

hope you guys have fun hanging w/ your families & stuff.. EAT LOTS!! =)
* teresa 11:53 AM l


Tuesday, November 25, 2003

christie: yeah. i think it's difficult in our lives right now to like... you know really tell who is going to be there for you when you need them and who isn't.
me: yeaa..
christie: especially with a lot of people living in different cities- it's hard
me: yeaa
me: =(
christie: keeping in touch can be hard for some people and easy for others. i don't know. i feel the same way kind of, but i just wish i knew how to make friends better. i haven't made that many new friends at unlv- i think that's another reason why i don't like it that much
christie: teresa, you're a good person, and don't worry so much and overthink stuff about people.. you know-- you'll only give yourself a headache. just know that you're a good person with a good heart, and that people should be flocking and begging to be friends with you. =)

thanks christie. i'm glad to have you as my friend, twin!! <333
* teresa 10:42 PM l




i got to hang with my cousin #2 today!! ^^

great stuff man!! =) haha.. so i picked her up @ 8.. went to school.. showed off the stairs.. puhahahaha.. hung out in the dome forever.. as always.. haha.. started walking around.. ran into randy.. went to computer lab.. then back to the dome. argh. haha.. michele met shea. haha.. yeaaaa.. and then.. sat there.. talked.. while randy & shea studied.. or whatever.. yeaaa.. she was telling me stuff & i totally agreed with her. michele is sooo.. yea. SMART!!! i'm jealous. haha.. freakn a.. =/ but yea.. left her to go to econ. -.- laaaaame!! got our tests back. i'm just glad it's an improvement from my last test. sooo =] then went back to the dome.. got michele & we went to drop poor andrew off at home.. [hope you're feeling better face buddy!!]

i dont like diana's other way (is it supposed to be a shortcut?!) back home!! haha.. i'd prefer to take the 78.. xP but yea. diana, michele & i went to eat at innout. dang. nice eyes. haha.. & cutee.. but short. =P on the way there.. michele told me stuff.. =) it made me smile. ^^* and then.. yea. i was just happy. haha.. =P but yea. ate at innout.. then dropped michele off @ home because i needed to finish up my ges hw. fun. -.- whatever. i dont care. haha..

but yea.. my house.. UGH.. i dont want to be here right now.. they're freakn BUMPiN their chinese karaoke type music. @.@ haha.. i'm not complaining because yea.. it's good music & all..but freakn BUMPiN it like you're freakn deaf.. WTF!! blahh!! i'm sure the neighbors can hear.. because i can.. shiEeet. whatevers.

hahaha.. justin says i'm not allowed to say whatevers clevers anymore!!

i got a message from someone on myspace earlier.. haha.. whata freak!! he sent it to me because i said how i want to learn how to ride a motorcycle..

"How tall are you? It's tough to find a bike for girls, especialy asians... Their feet never touch the ground... :-)"

hahaha.. i GUESS.. =P

but yea. the music is still buggn me. time to go over to my 2nd home!! haha.. blahblahh!!

22 is a good number! know why?! 22 more days until vegas!!!
* teresa 5:49 PM l


Monday, November 24, 2003

today was actually good. it surprised me. =)

so school. ges & psci? yea. that's what i had today. haha.. =P

after psci i went to meet up with the sis of ter @ north county.. we went to hallmark.. looking at the wedding/engagement cards were kind of depressing.. they were sweet.. but blah.. yeaa.. haha.. then went other places.. had lunch.. THANKS AGAiN SiS OF TER!! =) .. i hate not having my own income! =( then we went by that one store where they sold candy apples.. there was this avalanche thing.. with peanut butter (blahh!! xT), white chocolate, white chocolate chips, chocolate chips & yeaa.. forgot what else.. but yea.. that thing was freakn SWEET!! ahh!! all that chocolate!! =X but yea.. we tried it.. and the lady was like, "would you like it?" and my sister was like 'no.. its ok'.. the lady just heard the OK part because she freakn took the apple & put it on the counter thing.. xT she was an elderly lady.. sooo.. couldnt say no!! not even to that freakn $5.50 apple!! blah!! =X but yeaa..

soo we sat eating it.. or just 1 piece.. haha.. then she left me.. but randy & shea came.. yayy!! haha.. so they ate.. but before that, i offered randy a slice of the apple.. AHHH!! still - SO SORRY!!! i totally forgot!! =( SO!! you guys want to know why i'm FREAKING out about that?? .. randy's allergic to peanuts.. there was peanut butter in the stupid thing.. BLAH!!! & blahh!!! .. i felt bad.. =( stupid shea kept making me feel worse & worse.. so did randy but i couldnt hit randy.. haha.. =(

anyways!! yeaa.. we walked around.. sticker pictures!! havent taken those since.. ever. haha.. then.. i brought them into victoria's secret.. never again!! lol.. then!! met up with jessica, rose & dyna @ the food court.. then.. we left.. "find your exit buddy!!" haha.. so funny.. i love it!! but yea.. after i parked.. dyna opened her door & started freaking out so i was like WTH!! and i walk over & she's all pointing to the next car.. so i was like uHh?! cause i saw a head.. wtF!! people are whack!! but that freaked us out.. lol.. so went to the meeting.. then afterwards.. clare wrote the person a note (due to diana's request) telling them to take that.. thing out.. haha.. then we signed it with our j.crew names! haha..

then.. came home.. went to albertsons w/ my aunt.. dude. i felt SO freakn bad walking past the picket line.. =( it sucks dude.. but I'M not the one shopping there.. my aunt is.. soooo yeaaa!! =/ but they should freakn end the strike.. blahh..

kevin: http://www.thugbuilder.net/files/ I-gnition.mpeg
kevin: you will like it
me: hahahaha
me: WOW
me: they mustve been BORED
kevin: did you like it
kevin: yah
me: hahaha
me: yeaaa!!
kevin: that is so awwsome
me: and thanks for the voice msg!!
me: haha
kevin: that was a video just for you
kevin: to brighten your day up!
me: hahaha!
me: aww
me: so nicee!!

i wasnt even close to having a bad day, but that DEFINITELY made me SMILE!! ^^ kevin is the greatest brotha i could have.. =)

sooo i watched 'rich girls' yesterday.. i didnt know one of them was the daughter of tommy hilfiger!! gosh dang!! but DANG.. what a freakn spoiled brat.. i swear.. she was pissing me off.. BUT.. haha.. why i brought this up was cause they went to the FAO in NY.. SO NICE!! i remember going there summer 2000. =) but yeaa.. i was just like AW! they had that in vegas too!! hahaha.. i'm a dork.. shadddddup!! but yea.. good stuff..

ok. blub. i want to talk about more interesting stuff.. but that kind of involves certain people.. haha.. =P

and NO!! 1.. 2?? 3...?! .....4?!?! no. just 1.. =)

i had fun hanging w/ my sister today. havent done that in freakn forever. for serious! but yep! haha.. that was cool..

michele's going to school with me tomorrow!! =D
* teresa 9:40 PM l


Sunday, November 23, 2003

aw.. hahaha.. i missed talking to my K in TKD!! =)

me: ne thing on yur wish list?
me: i know youve been a good girl!
me: =)
kat: hahaha
kat: i want.. teresa to wrap herself up n mail herself to [kat's new mexico address here]
kat: =P
me: lol!!
me: what if i suffocate?!
me: and psssh.. u wont be there for xmas
me: so i'll just be in that box
me: geeez!
me: haha
kat: haha nooo
kat: i mean.. mail urself after christma
kat: *christmas
me: hahaha
kat: so that it would be a late christmas present
kat: hehe
me: but what about a christmas present on time?
me: haha
kat: haha nawww those are overrated
kat: =P
me: LOL!!

kat: well i cant help it if theres only one thing on my list
kat: =P
me: hahaha
me: so yur gona tell everyone u want me wrapped up sent to yur place in nm?
me: haha
kat: haha yep
me: lol
me: shooot
me: haha
kat: haha that would be funny if someone actually did that for me
kat: haha
me: LOL!
kat: gang up on u n tie u up
kat: hahaha
me: NOOOO!!!
me: hahahaha
kat: hey.. that would save everyone money for a christmas present.. all of em chip in for one present
kat: =P
me: that sucks
me: haha
me: darn cheap ppL!
me: haha
kat: haha i kno.. ppl these days
kat: =P
me: lol

kat makes me laugh.. i love it!! hahaha.. =D

sooo my sunday.. is really slow.. it's great. =) i miss just hanging at home. i seriously feel like i havent been home in awhile.. haha.. but yea. talked to chris.. half of our conversation [a good 30+ minutes] was spent on him guessing my middle name.. HAHAHA.. whata freak!! chu-dat!! (true that).. not funny.. -.- "dangg.. CHILL!!" then!! i need to read for psci.. haha.. that will come later.. i'm too occupied w/ talking to kat.. =P shoot.. who needs to do hw?! it's OPTIONAL!! .. =)

2 4 . . d a y s ! ! = D
* teresa 4:17 PM l




[ saturday, 11.22.o3 ]

hm. let's see.. i was bored for the most part of the day. talked to chris for awhile. "so you're one of THOSE people!!" hahaha.. what a funny guy.. =) then.. showered.. then talked to clare.. then my mom.. =D then.. killed time "omg! you're a murderer!! you're killing time!!" lol.. oh man!! crack me up.. sooo yea.. around 6.. left my house to go to the atm & met up w/ diana @ jack in the box.

soooooo i told her my story/dilemma/whatever! just.. whatever!! christa said "just be open.. and be nice to everyone.." .. but i already AM nice to everyone.. bleh!! o.O so yea!! went to jessica's.. it was jessica, trish, cheryl, rhona, josie, katie, jane, christa, clare, ali, sing ping, diana, clare & i (i hope i didnt forget anyone!!).. we dropped our cars off @ innout.. then went to extraordinary desserts.. oh man.. before we even left mira mesa.. christa didnt have a seatbelt, so trish told us (clare & i) to cross our seatbelts over christa.. hahaha!! IT WORKED!! whOo!! go us!! hahaha.. it was great!! so yea. got to the extraordinary desserts.. hm.. i learned that hillcrest is known as the area for gays/lesbians.. haha.. and who was it? someone made a comment on how we were a group of girls standing on the corner.. "people might think we're lesbians!!" lol!! oh man.. so everyone got desserts.. yum.. i dont remember what i got.. something pot de creme.. =P hehehe.. too chocolately for me!! "if you dont like chocolate.. why'd you get it??" .. haha.. yeaaaaa.. xP i later agreed with diana that eating the sugar cubes would've and was a better dessert.. hahaha!! she had 7.. i had 5!! =D soooo clare.. is great. LOL!! i was walking by the outside of the place & i see a dish of sugar cubes & i was like "oOoh.. should i get one??" & i was reaching for one but right behind me.. clare takes the whole freakn dish of sugar cubes.. hands it to diana & we all start walking really fast.. LOL!! omb!! it was SO GREAT!!! GO OSLAGAB!! hahaha.. you make me laugh!! oh mann!!

diana: i should have just sat there and ate sugar cubes!
me: seriously!!

so after dessert.. we went back to innout.. met up with rosemarie there.. the original OGMPs (cept for romeo) sat at their table.. hehehe.. GOOD STUFF!! the memories.. haha.. saw the first mission ever!! haha.. bleh.. talked.. diana told katie why my nickname is kitty.. or rather showed her why i'm called that.. xP eFF.. haha.. then!! diana, clare, rose & i left to go to gerard's party.. so we went to say hi.. diana did a "shea's dare"!! hahaha.. bka mission.. then yea.. left.. rose & i went to the bowling alley while those two went to annie's party..

but yea.. at the bowling alley.. there were more people!! annie!! yayy!!, rj, randy, chris, nik, shea, mark, john, & uHh!! yeaaa.. sorry!! =/ haha.. wasnt really paying attention.. =P so yeaa!! it was SO FUN!! i missed hanging with annie!! hahahaha!! my camera crew people were teasing me once again.. aww.. how i missed it.. ever since TV & *peace sign!!* hahaha.. yea.. those were good times.. =) but yea.. haha.. told annie about stuff.. she agrees me with about "IT"!! umm.. what else.. talked to mark for awhile.. i DO NOT have A.D.D.!! omb!! blehh!! but yea.. mark pointed out how we're alike.. hahaha.. but it's cool because WE'RE COOL!! lol.. =D then.. it got late. [and YEA my grandma was still up when i got home.. omgoodness!! xT] but yeaaa.. now i'm home typing this up..

.. but yea. tonight was fun. =) it was great hanging with just the girls because sometimes.. we're all busy and it's hard to find a day when we can just hang with each other for 6 hours. =) i miss it. i miss tkd & double ac. i miss the good times group. i've noticed that every year.. it's a new group. i mean.. i'm not complaining.. it's good to look back on those TIMES.. but i dont know.. i hate missing how it was.. when i've got a great group now once again.. i dont know.. maybe it's the fact that it's missing people i wish i could be hanging with everyday as i do w/ the csusm group.. =/

ok. that's enough for one day!! haha.. goodnight people!! =)
* teresa 2:55 AM l


Saturday, November 22, 2003

mark: lol i have a funny mental picture of you typing with gloves on
mark: im thinking your typing with like big ole snowboarding gloves
me: hahahaha
mark: hahah
me: pssh
me: no
mark: dont ruin the picture
mark: its better this way
mark: hahaah

mark: are you wearing your glasses right now
me: yea....
mark: yay!
mark: only adds to the cool pic im building in my head
me: damN!!
mark: pj's???
me: yea.....
me: -.-
mark: oooooooo even better
me: eFF

mark: do you think teresa is a bird?
SmarterChild: I don't think Teresa is a bird, no.
mark: why not?
SmarterChild: I don't know.
mark: do you think teresa is a rebel?
SmarterChild: I don't think Teresa is a rebel, no.
mark: dangit!
SmarterChild: Dangit. Well that's interesting.

hahaha.. freakn akmr!!! hahaha!! i'm not a rebel OR a bird!! suckerrr!! hahaha.. you know what? akmr reminds me of someone.. hmm.. OMB!! J!!! yeaaaa!! haha.. my cookie monster.. ok. random. sorry. =P

so yea. i have nothing to do from now til 6. maybe i should go to the mall.. hm.. maybeeeee.. if i get bored enough. haha.. i cant get over how surprised alex got when i told him i dont like going to the mall.. xP sooo great.. =) damn. i miss vegas people. 25 days!!

i feel like calling my mom or brother.. yea.. i'll do that!! =)
* teresa 1:05 PM l




sooo the eventful part of my FRiDAY:

going to edwards to watch GOTHiKA with diana & nik.. =) fun stuff.. haha.. i went to diana's.. the twister/volcano thing.. shaddup!! i dont know why the heck i said that.. haha.. so we went to pick up nik.. busted 2 u-turns.. HAHAHA.. great stuff!! i love it!! but yea.. we tried to make the 8:05 showing.. too bad parking sucks major butt friday & saturday night!! so we decided to go to where else? .. innout!! haha.. tried to get nik to buy a drink.. but after diana got water cups for us.. he was all like "i want to buy a drink now".. pssh! ..we tried to get shea to come but he was being a bum.. i KNEW he wasnt going to come.. geez.. people should listen to me more!! =/

but yea!! went back to edwards.. found parking.. GOOD parking.. haha.. then went inside.. YEA.. i dont think i want to watch movies on the day they come out.. because yea.. haha.. BUT YEA!! when we got to the ticket people.. i kind of blanked out on why i was there.. haha.. i was like "uhHh.. wait! what movie are we watching??" oh man.. i'm horrible.. haha.. but ya know ya love me!! =P so then!!! we're walking & this lil kiDd (soph. in hs) goes up to diana.. "what grade are you in??" .. her response?? .. "WHY??" hahaha.. i LOVE it!! hahaha.. ya know i l word you b word!! hahaha.. =D so yea.. we also ran into rhona & hoppho!! but then yea.. we waited.. then we sat in the theatre.. and we (diana & i) FOUND NEMO!!! hahaha.. oooh.. soooo great..

ok. so the movie itself was good. =) hahaha.. it had its moments.. kind of predictable which i freakn HATE.. but yea.. it had its moments when i freakn jumped & screamed.. i think i screamed more than diana.. did i?! .. bleh! haha.. it was good stuff.. teresa loves GOOD scary movies!! =) but yea.. after that.. we called it a night..

DUDE. you know what i hate?! (& debb.. you should remember from last summer!!) driving home at night.. because it's freakn DARK.. its SO scary!! esp. if it's after you watch a scary movie.. i was soooo freaking out & i kept checking my mirror to make sure nothing was in my backseat.. yeaaa.. shaddddddup!!

john an made my night earlier!! haha..

john: you know you got much love from me

it's one simple comment.. but yea.. i dont know.. it made me smile.. =)

so i talked to chris for a bit.. haha.. whata dork!! he was being sooo weird.. but weird people are cool!! and dang.. why are people still up? haha.. i feel bad.. i was planning to call sam back.. and i should call justin.. but i think it's too late to call people.. =/

me: they asked u to bring sars back for them?
sam: haha yea
me: wtf!
me: haha
sam: im like ok if u guys want it dat bad

dude. no freakn fair. i want to go to hk. =/

ok. i need sleep!! so i'll see some of you guys later today!! if not.. have a good saturday!! =) goodnight!!
* teresa 2:11 AM l


Friday, November 21, 2003

i love sleeping in on FRiDAYS!!! ^^

i'm doing my laundry. AND i cleaned my room. haha.. i had SO many water bottles.. oh man.. haha.. i feel so productive! heck yea! haha.. good stuff.. TOO BAD i'M BORED NOW!!!

soooo i want to watch gothika, love actually & cat in the hat.. =)

debb: ok tess..let's go to the 515 showing
debb: and just go movie hopping
debb: no let's start now
debb: haha
me: LOL!!
me: oK!
me: hahaha
debb: :-D
debb: but ur gonna have to pick me up
debb: -.-
debb: haha
me: LOL!!
me: .. uHhH!!

me: aww..i miss that!
me: boo!
debb: yea..
debb: i'm coming over! i'm bored!
me: seriously!!!

.. i miss my other half!! i miss the k in tkd!! & the al of ex!! =(

so yea!! i went over to watch friends/survivor/will & grace/the new guy w/ brian yesterday.. that was fun.. haha.. he's a cool kiDd.. he calls me his "sister".. =D

me: just got home from being over at yur house
me: haha
me: dude.. smokey scratched me!
me: =(
kevin: what?
kevin: you must be a bad person!
me: hahaha
me: nooo!!!
kevin: she is a good judge of caracher
me: =((((
me: she never scratched me before!

baHh!! it HURT(S)!!!

ok. i think i need to finish up my laundry.. have a good friday guys!! =D

[ cont'd @ 2:43 pm ]

ok. just kidding. back once again!!

debb: such boredom
debb: will kill someone
debb: lol
me: hahaha
me: ahhh
me: i agreeeeee

yeaaaaaa!! i need something to do!! omgosh!! driving myself crazy!!! @.@

no fun. =(
* teresa 2:02 PM l


Thursday, November 20, 2003

HAPPY SWEET 16th LUCY!!!
goosey mui mui!! =D dangg!! you're freakn young!! but yea!! i hope you have a great birthday!! now you can get a job (if you wanted.. haha.. volcano.. xP) and driveeee!! *vroom vroom!!* hehe.. ok! miss ya & love ya!! <33

school was okay today.. i hate staying at school.. "can i leave now?? .. how about NOW??" but yea.. gel was interesting. OHH!!! i got to talk & sit next to biker boy!! haha.. whata freak.. "have you had sex on the beach?" .. referring to the drink.. =P but yea.. DAMN~ C.U.T.E. haha.. ^.~ after that.. i went to the library to study. stayed there for 4o minutes then got bored of myself. haha.. so went to the dome.. talked to jessica & nik.. then tried studying more for econ.. hehe.. i tagged along w/ shea to go to the library.. i find those study things sooo amusing.. =D but yea.. my econ test.. HAHAHA.. it killed me. not horribly. but then again.. at the beginning of class.. i overheard a convo between two people.. "are you ready for the test?" .. 'yea.. it's easy..' .. "what??" .. 'only because i'm re-taking this class..' .. EW!!! =(

but yea.. after that.. hung w/ apss (is it apsa now? o.O?) people in founder's.. yea. "he's EW.." - nik.. hahaha!! (told ya i'd quote you!! =) got a stress ball.. =D which i think they shouldve given me BEFORE that econ test.. bleh.. oh wells.. so yea. tried to nap at one point.. people kept hitting me w/ their darn stress balls!! *coughNIKcough* bleh.. then when shea & trish got back from class.. shea, trish, nik & ali played catch w/ each other across the plaza.. hahaha.. it was fun stuff.. up til the part where shea was aiming for me!!! RAWR!! whata freakface!! err.. then went to the meeting.. then.. went to subway w/ jane.. then home.. i love how traffic starts at my exit.. =) hahaha.. sucks to be them!!

"i love our group!!" - rosemarie .. i agree.. =)

you know what i like about my school? the views.. haha.. i noticed it when i was in the library w/ shea.. i get distracted easily.. damn.. haha.. but yea.. and then when i was leaving.. walking to the parking lot.. yea.. the sky was sooo pretty.. i told jane & she was like "yeaa.. they look pocahantas like".. =) sooo nice..

i've been playing phone tag w/ kevin ever since 11:30.

but i got a lot of vmails today!! hahaha..

"oOh.. i think the bunny's about to get plastic surgery.." - bear

i liked kevin's messages also.. =) i need to call him back!!

people are interesting.. =D

me: stupid boi
me: =P
patrick: hHAHAHA
patrick: STUPIT GURL!
me: hahaha

clare: you guys make me smile :D
me: hahaha
me: YOU make me laugh AND smile
me: hahaha
me: =D

clare: but heyy if he makes you smile, he's ok by me! :D
me: hahaha
me: niceeeee

mark: i highly suggest wendy's chicken mcnuggets
mark: muy bueno!
me: ooOOK
me: haha
mark: i'll import you some
mark: because your so far away
mark: or i'll put them on ebay
mark: and you can bid
me: hahaha
me: wth!
mark: it'll be cool
mark: you can use the buy it now feature :-)
me: hahahaha
me: oh wow

3 day weekend!! omb.. this week was SO BAD!! i was SO relieved after i got out of econ.. oh man.. =) but yea.. i'm excited for the weekend.. bumming at home tomorrow.. so gime a call? .. only if you're cool. haha.. JUST KEEEEDING!! =D then apss-olutely ladies night/bowling on saturday.. weeeeeeeee..
* teresa 7:07 PM l


Wednesday, November 19, 2003

TERESA HATES ECON WITH A PASSION!!!!
..if you didnt know that by now.. yea.. =X

SO.. i actually read the 4 LONG chapters.. which was 100 pages altogether.. YEAA.. how LAME. took me 2-3 hours to read that. (that gives me more reason to read the chapter before his discussions) next i should try the essay questions from the optional quiz he has on his site.. soon ..... sometime soon.

you know what i realized?? even though i went to the rb library to study.. i only stayed for an hour & a half because i just cant make myself stay there.. i dont know. i got distracted a lot.. i actually read & understood stuff when i was at the school library w/ jessica.. i think that means i need people to go to the library with.. it's not like you need to talk to me.. just be there.. haha.. cause your presence will force me to study. dang. pretty sad, but whatevers clevers!!

ugh. why did i type about that? ..

sooooo.. i talked to dickson last night.. haha.. whata psycho!! "i want to get a tattoo with 'your name' on it".. my reaction.. "really?!" .. his?! .. 'not YOUR name teresa.. but "YOUR NAME"'.. lol.. shadddddup!! ya know ya love me!! haha.. but yea. just shows me how much i miss talking to some people.. and it reminded me that i need to call erick back. haha.. i'm good.. xP

my glasses bug me. i have to keep pushing them up. blah. =/

oh! randy gives GREAT massages!! too bad he's only letting me have 1 per semester!! darn you!! haha.. but yea. i really needed that. made me feel better.. =)

alright. no more procrastinating.

[ cont'd @ 10:47 pm ]

whatever! i hate econ! i get the concepts.. it's just freakn applying the ish.. i have three hours before class tomorrow.. i swear! i'll make myself to go the library!!

debb: NOOOOOOOOO
debb: dont get sucked innnnnnnn
me: hahaha
me: TOO BAD
me: already sucked in

me: i want snow!
me: share debbie!!
debb: ok i'll put from in a freezer bad
debb: *bag

i love talking to my other half!! haha.. dude. it wouldve been so fun if you came down this weekend though!! =/ but yeaa!! i loved how on the phone we were talking about a certain person.. haha.. "GUYS ARE SO FUCKN STUPID!!! AHHHH.. HAHAHAHA!!!" just yea.. along those lines.. =D sooooo freakn great.. but yea.. why cant they freakn learn from their mistakes?! .. it's like HELLO!!!!! oh well!! they make me laugh.. =D

ok. sleep sounds soooo good right about now. =)

EFF econ. =D
* teresa 3:51 PM l


Tuesday, November 18, 2003

"you're not going to sleep tonight!!" - dickson

'want me to leave you be? & read your magazine?'
"you're just trying to find a reason to go study.. HELL NO.."

.. DAMN. he knows me too well!! hahaha..

"..if you like them.. but sometimes its like dude!! .. stop talking!"

.. haha.. i asked him when guys like talking on the phone.. that was part of his answer.. lol.. oh wells.. i give up.

anyways. back to talking to the psycho. =)
* teresa 10:41 PM l




i should maybe explain why i was mad the other day. but who really cares?! it's the past. anddddddd.. i'm over it!! =)

alex: So when's the next time you're gonna come down? =) Haha.

.. =D i want to go again!!!

debbie & i talking about studying.. she's talking about how she studies:

debb: u just have to read read read over n over again
debb: till u DIEEE
debb: puhahaha

lol.. i need to freakn do that with econ.. study til i freakn DIE.. because if i dont pass that class.. i will.. so either way!! YEA!! i shouldnt have taken that class.. UGH!! =(

alex: Are you excited for Christmas?
me: kinda.. just cause i'll see you guys
me: =)

hey now!! .. 29 days!! =DDDD

school was fun today. =) ali bribed diana & i to hang out at the table with doughnuts!! that worked!! haha.. so sat there.. listened to music.. freakn randy.. singing about bunnies.. haha.. and clare.. little bunny fu fu.. =P haha.. randy thought we were crazyy!! it's not OUR fault his teacher never taught him that song.. haha.. shoot..

my hands are cold. =( ok. in dire need to study..
* teresa 2:44 PM l


Monday, November 17, 2003

agree or disagree? [directed to me. from today.]

"u deserve more respect than what u r given.."

rosemarie. thanks again!! <33
* teresa 7:18 PM l


Sunday, November 16, 2003

[ saturday, 11.15.o3 ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN AN!! =)

sooo i woke up at 6:30.. got ready.. went to jane's.. then went to pick up andrew & josie.. then.. ROAD TRiP!! haha.. got to see jane's house.. very nice!! i like her driveway!! haha.. but yea.. road trip!! =D went to UCLA to get chris.. then to.. uh.. yea.. the studio to watch the filming of family feud. dude. i never knew there was a particular way to clap. lol.. freakn a.. that show was ALL about the clapping.. gosh dang.. oh well.. all good.. it was fun. but yea!! that was over @ 2:30!! so i called up ALEX CHAOOOOOOO. and told him to meet me at the fox theatre.

he picked me up from the theatre. oK! i totally did not know the area.. or the people.. i was waiting for alex & across the street i see people smoking hooka.. on the sidewalk!! haha.. so freakn interesting!! but yea.. after he picked me up.. we ate at islands.. haha.. he's never been there.. i was like SHEESH.. but he didnt seem as excited as debbie was.. haha.. all good.. then went to his apartment.. i LOVE his apartment!! hahaha.. SO FREAKN COOL!! then went to the 3rd street promenade.. ended up telling stories.. walking a lot.. went into barnes & noble & you know what happened.. ^.~ .. i showed him "C D B"!!! LOL!! that place was so cool.. all those stores.. =) then we were going to go to the beach.. but it started to freakn rain.. =( but yea. we went to tea zone.. lollicup.. and talked.. DUDE. i totally realized i havent talk TALKED to him in a year.. ack. so i filled him in.. haha.. "DANG.. i totally did not know that!!" .. then clarifying some stuff!! xP then.. "i want to know more!!" .. so freakn nice. =) i love AL of EX!!! i even told him about the friends i have in san diego.. the missions.. the story behind my nickname.. and the story behind my newfound laugh.. krRrhahaha.. (dyna!! haha..) HE even started doing it.. it was great. "my boba is frozen!! i want to eat them!!" .. 'well.. you can..' .. "YEA!! & choke!! *makes choking noises*" .. "haha.. i wouldnt know if you were choking or laughing!!" .. lol!! hanging out with alex has always been fun. i missed that guy.. =)

so andrew called me to tell me to meet up with them @ diddy reese.. so i did.. people were there.. talked.. it was fun. when people were talking about dancing.. i saw alex do his little dance.. hahaha.. i wanted to make him do his "butterfly" dance or whatever.. but hahaha.. next time.. next time.. =) but yea.. left around 8:30.. jane's a good driver!! haha.. but yea.. i got home.. at 11? yea. dang. freakn busy day.

i just want to say those 5 hours hanging with alex is going to be SO worth my cramming all my work & studying to do on sunday.. oh man.. just..... HAPPINESS.. =DDDDD

[ sunday, 11.16.o3 ]

i can already tell you my day!! haha.. woke up early to work on the GEL project.. going to starbucks @ 2 to study w/ rhona & randy.. then home to study more.. then sleep. k. the end!

note to self: check to see if they have "Legend of Speed" (dvd) for austuny
* teresa 9:23 AM l


Saturday, November 15, 2003

FRiDAYS are coming back..?!

.. we havent hung out at innout in forever.. so that was fun. there was no one there, but diana, rhona & i made it fun.. lol.. FiRST.. my favorite bword picked me up because she's cool like that.. but as i was waiting for her to start her car.. yea.. her & rhona were just kinda trying to not laugh.. so i was like omygosh.. & i look up & YEA.. hahaha.. i see pieces of tissue hanging on my car.. lol.. then when i tried to get out to take them off.. diana locked me in!! haha.. oh man.. what a great way to start the night.. haha..

so we went to innout.. ate.. in the cold.. then "we're going to bring our trash inside?!" yea.. we sat inside w/ our trash because it was cold.. haha.. it was grrreat.. then afterwards.. we took pictures.. damn.. haha.. SO HiLARiOUS.. go look in my photos.. =)

so yea.. went home & pretty much went to sleep right after.. so that was at like 11:30.. that was nice until i got a phone call!! from the freakface!! haha.. jussst kidding!! so he woke me up at 1am.. i thought it was freakn 5am (DONT KNOW WHY!!) but yea.. talked to him & akmr.. haha.. yeaa.. them & their "party".. whatever! haha..

YEA.. no more. i need to leave soon. but i want food!! so yea! have a good saturday guys!!

.. i get to see ALEX in 8 hours!! =D
* teresa 7:11 AM l


Friday, November 14, 2003

procrastination. =)

so i woke up late today.but yea. went to school to study for psci. rawr. i hate that class. but not as much as econ. =D so the review kind of sort of not really helped. =/ sat in the dome afterwards & talked w/ people.. interesting topics.. hahaha.. geez!! i love how people tease me about certain things.. haha.. dude. rosemarie's great!! out of nowhere.. it was all quiet.. she was like "I LOVE YOU!!".. =D so nice.. haha.. but yea.. around 12.. went home..

i tried to go on alcohol edu.. but that site is being SO RETARDED!! omb.. DIE.. there are 5 chapters to it.. i'm stuck on the last section in chapter 1.. it wont let me go forward.. UGH.. so they keep repeating the lesson for that section.. it's on binge drinking.. YEAAA.. i've listened to it 5 times now!! rawrr!! =( then.. i want to do my GEL project thing.. HAHAHA.. so much!! looking at it makes me tired.. xP

.. ugh. i need to go to mt carmel in a little bit..

kat: hehe i wanna kno when ur gonna come visit me
kat: =P
me: hahaha
me: in vegas??
me: =P
kat: hahaha
kat: umm.. yea.. las vegas...
kat: new mexico
kat: =P

i miss my k of tkd!! =( 33 days!!! we have plans!! i'm excited!! =D

dudley's greedy!! he wont give me his cute fish!! =P

ok. back to doing something. or trying to do something..

[ cont'd at 7:24 pm ]

OMB!!! i am going to be STRESSING over the stupid acohol & project stuff for GEL this week!! omb.. SO LAME. rawr!! i hate it i hate it!! .. i should be studying for econ & psci too.. EFF!!! =((((

.. at least saturday will be good? i've missed al of ex!! =)

i hung out with michele today. haha.. she burned a cd for me!! YAYY!! <33 my cousin #2!! =D we visited clare @ the library.. haha.. then on the drive to michele's.. "tree!!" .. hahaha.. interesting pictures.. then yea.. went home.

came back. started my stupid project for GEL.. after realizing that i'm probably doing it WRONG.. i stopped. i hate it!!

.. my stomach hurts.. =(((

me: my stomach hurts dickson
me: =(
dickson: awww...
dickson: eat some mayonaise.....it helps a lot
dickson: mustard is okay....but not as affective
me: wtf?
me: seriously?
dickson: yea
dickson: it helps big time
me: no.. seriously???
dickson: yea
dickson: freals
me: how come?
dickson: umm.....it lines the wall of yur stomach
dickson: yep
dickson: but u need like 2 teaspoons
dickson: of it
dickson: or if u can do it....drink the whole container
dickson: lol
dickson: jp jp
dickson: =-O
me: freakn dickson!!
me: lol
dickson: lol
dickson: i got scared...
me: i was going to really look for mayo
dickson: i thought u might of went and got some
me: >.<
me: LOL!!
dickson: haha
dickson: lol
me: ew

hahaha.. i HEART that psycho!! =) he makes me laugh..

cuzzy derek sent me a bunch of songs the other night.. damn. too bad ALL of them were slow jams which means they were about heartbreak.. and all that lovely stuff.. -.- i need happy music.. =( it's making me depressed.. rawr.. and austuny sent me piano music.. its SO NICE!! but it kind of adds to the depression.. bleh.. soo.. my whole playlist consists of depressing songs.. mann.. =/

i still need to call erick back.

i dont know if i like nickeLs anymore. heh.. whenever i say that.. i remember joseph saying "what the heck?? i like quarters!!" .. whata loser.. =) but yea.. i dont know.. no more? no more nickels? =/

my head hurts. i'm going to lay down. too much!! i swear.. there's not enough hours in a day this week.. man.. the stress.. =(((
* teresa 1:52 PM l


Thursday, November 13, 2003

soo.. school was.. lame. GEL was nice. hehe.. biker boy was RIGHT THERE!! ahHh.. SO NICE!! hahaha.. clare.. you're hilarious.. "matching outfits are nice".. hahaha.. then the break.. i like diana's napkins!! so nice.. "SHUDDUP!!" ^^ then the lazy laugh.. hahaha.. a LOT of that.. oh man.. wtf.. haha.. we're rubbing off on each other.. xP

but yea. i went to talk to my econ teacher. the stuff he was saying was pissing me off.. i dont know. just. WHATEVER!! like i told him my situation - me being worried about passing his class & yea.. seriously FAiLiNG it.. & when i say failing.. i mean it.. F = Failure = Teresa. =( but yea!! he was like "cut yourself some slack.. you took a tough course with a tough teacher.." OMB.. so he freakn admits to that?! wtf is that!!! i dont know.. i hate it.. 10 more classes!! or maybe 9.. THANK GOODNESS!! .. why am i such a failure??? =((((( but i DID force myself to go to econ.. bleh!! freakn class.. i was sooo close to falling asleep.. sigh...

me: high school econ is SO MUCH easier
me: bleh
paul: yeah i bet
paul: ha what do they have u doing in there?
paul: i have worksheets and overheads...=-O CHILDREN'S PLAY
me: its like econ but a lot more complex.. the graphs are sooo freakn crazy
me: heh
me: easy
paul: look at mee! i'm equillibrium can you find me? weeee
me: LOL!!!

after school.. i took a nice 2 hour nap.. gyeaa!! then i went down the street & around the corner to my 2nd home.. =) i helped make peanut butter cookies.. YUM!! hehe.. fun stuff.. then had dinner.. watched tv with my "brotha" & yea.. OMB!! soooo my sister was talking to someone on the phone last night & passed the phone to me.. i thought it was patrick.. but nO!! it was KEVIN!! shows ya how long it's been since i've heard his voice!! (not that long, but still!! xT) then yea.. had my thursday night over there.. good stuff.. =)

then!! when i got home.. haha.. i got a call from clare!! lol!! you crack me up.. seriously!! "you have my approval!!" .. whoa there!! =) then the whole attempt at laughing like me & diana.. hahaha!! you're great!! =D

this weekend is going to be freakn CRAZY!! & BUSY!! argh!!

friday: studying for PSCI, work on stupid library research packet whatever, finish up alcohol edu, innout w/ my fav. bword (?)
saturday: burbank for family feud, LA (omb!! i need to freakn call ALEX!!)
sunday: hardcore studying for PSCI & ECON (my most favorite classes EVER!! -.-) & finishing up whatever i didnt do on friday..

UGH.. gotta LOVE college.

you know what ELSE i love?! .. i love how some people kind of CHEAT off of others & fuckn do better than those that try hard.. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! pisses me off.. reminds me of the lecture/paper ms. grant read to us sophomore year.. to make sense of that to those who dont know wth i'm talking about - there was a paper from an honors student that wrote about why honors kids cheat & whatever.. it was basically.. they did it because they didnt want to let their "image" down? or whatever.. then the whole thing.. where they cheat off of others.. but then in the end.. they didnt learn anything themselves.. argh.. i sound like i'm a preacher.. not my intent.. but rawr!! that's why i stopped cheating.. it's fuckn unfair to those who try.. but then.. i've been letting people cheat off of me??? YEAAAAA..

..... no more.
* teresa 10:25 PM l


Wednesday, November 12, 2003

it RAiNED today!!!! ^^

so that was fun. haha.. rain makes me sleepy. i didnt want to go to GES but forced myself to because otherwise, i wouldnt get the notes or the subject. heh.. go me!! =P then went back to the dome.. diana got bored & wrote stuff on napkins.. lol!! that b-word is a k-word!! but she is still l-worded!! anyways.. killed time in there.. then it was time for PSCI. joy.

on the way there.. rhona made a comment about me not being THAT tall.. haha.. so randy's all like "go teresa go!!" .. followed with a pause & then.. "GROW rhona GROW!!" .. LOL!! cracked me up!! =) friends are great. but yea.. when we were thisclose to the arts building.. rose was all like "i dont want to go to class.." & i knew everyone would end up falling asleep anyways.. so i was like "ok.. i want to ditch.." hahaha.. so.. WE DiD!! .. =P we're good like that.. SHADDUP!!! hehe.. so hung out in the student lounge.. got free food!! or rose & randy did.. i took one of rose's sandwiches.. =D

then went to work on econ w/ pam.. YES.. i understand SOMETHiNG!! ^^ stupid class.. i only have to go to it 10 more times.. sigh!! so yea. after that.. decided to go home.. OMB!!! the weirdest thing happened when i was walking out to the parking lot..

SO!! i was all walking down that path.. & there's this guy sitting on.. yea. whatever.. and he turns around when i'm like a few feet away from him .. "are you a nice person or a mean person?" so i was like "i would like to consider myself nice.." & then he's all like "good.. my name is chris".. so i was like kay...... o.O? the whole time.. haha.. so he whips out this black thing.. and i was like "ohmygosh.. is this the magazine thing?!" & he was all like "noOo.." BULLSHIT.. then he was all like yea.. "look at this & tell me what you like.. you'll get a matta baby with it.. do you know what a matta baby is?" me.. "no.. what's a matta baby?" .. him.. "nothing baby.." ... OMB!! LOL!! cracked me uP!!!!!!! but after i was like yea.. no thanks.. all in my nice teresa way.. (heh.. shaddup!!) he was like ok.. go away. WHATTHEFUCK!! fucker. whatever. hahahaha.. that's a good one.. "whats a matta baby?" oooh MAN!! sooo whatever!!

anyways!! i went home & you know what? .. i liked my drive home. =) it was nice. the sky looked pretty. haha.. well, just the sky a few exits before RB.. =P there were sooo many gray clouds (a deRr) & i see a patch of blue with the sun shining down.. oh man. it was beautfiul!! i thought of john.. good thoughts.. =)

but yea! i got home!! & i got banana bread!! ^^ hehehe!! i love it!! so YUM!! then watched better luck tomorrow with my sister.. i swear.. that girl was bugging me.. o.O.. and i feel like the movie's not complete? haha.. but oh well.. it's still good.. =P

ok. i feel like writing in my real journal. =)
* teresa 4:29 PM l


Tuesday, November 11, 2003

good morning!! =)

haha.. i am SO TiRED!!! =D ah well.. i didnt even finish my econ quiz. xT but pam said she would help me after my 1st class.. sooo yep!! then.. i'm hoping to talk to my teacher about maybe dropping the class later.. but then if you guys know me.. i dont like giving up.. especially since this class.. argh.. i dont know. i just want a C. i swear.. too bad i'm FAR from that. =/

but yea. justin helped me out w/ it. he's awesome!! =)

hm.. i read my sister's blog the other day. NO FAiR!! i want vegas food.. haha.. sushi factory.. STEAK & EGGS!! oh mann.. and #32 from volcano!! hehe.. =D

so. i feel bad because i made people get blogs but yet i'm not blogging as much. haha.. or if i do.. it's not all in depth & detailed (like vinnie or chris.. DANG GUYS!!) i bet no one cares anyways.. but it's all good.. you guys still love me.. right? =)

bLub. time to wait for class to start!! yayyyy.. go GEL.. =P

[ cont'd @ 3:25 pm ]

monica showed me this convo between her & a guy.. & they were discussing why guys like their women like cars.. or vice versa..

guy: they do have similar qualities...
guy: for a guy anyhow
guy: for SOME guys
monica: haha similar qualities..?
guy: yeah
guy: umm
guy: they want them to look pretty
guy: they want to take care of them
monica: let me in on this..haha i wanna kno..
guy: they want to show them off
guy: they want them to be dependable
guy: and want both of them to wait until the guy's business is done
guy: and you mess with either the car or the girl....the guy will come after you
guy: that sorta thing
monica: hahaha
monica: interesting~
guy: and there are some more crude ones...
monica: crude ones..like.
guy: but that's for the general reasoning
guy: hahaha
guy: i'd rather not say
monica: nOo!
monica: tell me~
monica: please do tell~
guy: speedy...ready to "go" whenever guys are ready
guy: like to be "rough" them
guy: until they are both "exhausted"
guy: i wanna stop
monica: haha eR..
guy: i'm stopping monica
monica: hahah okaY

.. is that true?!?! .. WHOA!! HAHAHA..

soo.. econ REALLY fustrates me. but what else is new!! .. RAWR!!

i talked to my oslagab today!! cause i didnt get to at school.. because someone didnt go to school!! haha.. "alcohol in the afternoon.. that's how we do!!" HAHAHA.. i cant believe you thought i was drinking!! xP i WASNT!! oooh.. FUN STUFF!! talking to clare = good times!! =)

me: heyy.. what should i write about in my blog?
me: something insightful
me: haha
clare: hrmmm
clare: hold on let's seeeee...
me: k
clare: knowing what you want and what you don't want and not letting people tell you waht to do because they want you to do it

YEP!! we'll leave it at that.

then shea.. out of all the weirdness he's babbling on & on about..

shea: getting what you want and bein happy are two quite different things

that's a good one.. makes me think.. but nevertheless, it's good.

michele: so what did you do last night
michele: u sounded happy ..
michele: i havent heard u like ..that kind of happy in a long time
michele: =0))
me: aw
me: so nice
me: haha
michele: therefore ... I was happy that u were happy which made me happy which made u happy which made me happy

sooo nice.. =)

KAY!! i want to take a nap. xP
* teresa 6:55 AM l


Monday, November 10, 2003

me: today at school! some guy was like.. "youre sooo cute.. can i pinch your cheeks??"
me: and i was like awww!! patrick!!! =(
me: haha
patrick: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!
patrick: u serious??!?!?!??!!?
me: =P
me: yea
me: LOL!
patrick: awwww thats cute
patrick: did u let him pinch ur cheeks??
me: no!
me: only you!
me: and the ppl that tie me down so they can pinch my cheeks
me: haha
patrick: aww shucks *shuffles feet in dirt i feel so honored n special *sigh *sigh
patrick: teresa cheeks are holy to the touch
patrick: :-D

aww!! patrick's cool.. =D

yep. stayed at school for a good 12 hours. i HATE it. =) only ONE good thing came out of it. um. maybe two. haha.. ^.~

why dont people want to say my name?? it's ONLY 6 letters, 3 syllables.. ter-e-sa!! .. too bad when i say it.. it's like TREE-sa. xP haha.. namu-sa.. dang.. i remember that!! only because alan still calls me that.. freakn LOSER!!

the word for today was.. s h a d d u p!! ^^

anyways. i really need to finish my econ quiz. justin's helping me!! =)
* teresa 8:11 PM l


Sunday, November 09, 2003

ok.. sooo.. i'm procrastinating.. =)

but i FiNiSHED my GEL paper and i studied for my GES test at the rb library.. saw clare.. lol.. =P tried to start ECON.. but quickly gave up. i want to freakn' drop that class. but i dont want to give up. WHATEVER!! ..

38 more days. =)

i hope i get to see ALEX next weekend!!! ^^

you know what? .. i miss being in the same city as my kda. =(

i have too much crap to do. rawr!!

i wonder if my brother will help me out with the review for the CCR test. hehehe.. i need to bug him later. =)

omb!! i need to call erick back..!!!

but yea. i need to finish my econ first. ugh. piss me off.
* teresa 4:40 PM l




[ saturday, 11.o8.o3 ]

i tried to be productive today. started my GEL paper.. 2/3 done!! ^^ then started studying for GES & .. ECON!! .. YEA. that' just freakn OUT THERE!! >=T rawrr..

i fell asleep trying to study for GES.. =P

amanda was in temecula this weekend!!! sorry i couldnt hang out mui mui.. =(

then went to michele's around 3:30.. dang.. yea. took 1+ hour to do her hair.. damn.. but it DID look good!! =) michele, diane & matany looked very pretty!! damn & i was over there in my pjs.. xP haha.. whatevers!! i wanted to drive patrick's car!! "what are you talking about?? i got dropped off.." lol.. punk!! i eventually left & went home to be more productive..

HAHA.. that worked for awhile.. i got some more of my paper done.. then.. for the later part of my night.. i went to hang with people.. shea picked me up.. haha.. sucker!! we visited clare.. "yeaa.. she lives far!!" i couldnt find the stupid door handle.. haha.. we tried to name shea's car.. then islands.. errr.. that cherry!! *shiver* "i need more brownie!!" .. rawrr.. you guys suck!! haha.. so yea.. shea, john, nik & i went over to edwards to watch the matrix revolutions.. i'll just say there were some pretty interesting parts.. and that i'd probably like it a lot more if i watched the 2nd one.. xP then.. homeward!!

some punk got in an accident on my street.. bleh.. sucks. =/ but yea!! i think it was really nice of shea to drive me!! haha.. i bet he'll never ask if i need a ride ever again.. right?! =P yea.. ok. i'm SO TiRED.. i need to do some major studying later today. sigh.. why the heck do i blog before i go to sleep?! i'm weird.. =( k!! goodnight!!
* teresa 2:17 AM l


Saturday, November 08, 2003

[ friday, 11.o7.o3 ]

no school!! haha.. went to sleep around 2am.. talked to diana, shea & dana online.. haha.. shea's darn questions made me think!! .. i miss thinking.. heh.. so GOOD JOB freakface!!

sooo.. i woke up when my 2nd mother called me up.. haha.. i went on errands w/ her in poway.. bookstore.. sooo fun!! haha.. i like books.. and reading.. shaddup. xD then oh MAN.. funny story of the day.. we went to get lunch @ submarina because i've never been there.. haha.. sooo i order my sandwich.. whatever.. & they just get the stuff out or whatever they do & she orders what she wants.. then she gets a call from her husband who wants to have lunch @ marie callenders.. so she's all like "oK! stop making my sandwich!!" & omb.. hahaha.. i felt bad.. xT but yea. she gave them a dollar tip.. so yea!! we went to marie callenders.. oh MAN.. i saw this cuteee guy working as the host.. or whatever.. oh man.. ^.~ but yea.. lunch was good.. the pumpkin cheesecake is SO GOOD!! *droOL!!* and then.. went back to my 2nd home.. i helped make banana bread!! YUM!!! haha.. dude. i'm such a nerd. anyways. banana bread is YUM stuff!! i remember when carrie would bake & bring some to school just for me. =) so nicee..

then!! i went to pick up michele.. stupid parking lot. i always hated it. freakn 2 ways to get in & out.. anyways. found her after i called patrick up. then we went to coldstone in mira mesa. sat there.. =/ sorry michele.. i felt bad.. i didnt know what to say... =/ and then.. went to my house.. hung out here.. boring stuff.. haha.. i curled my hair out of complete boredom. -.- sad, huh!! haha.. all good. michele was screaming a lot today. geez!! haha.. "i swear.. my grandma's going to think stuff!" then.. left to go watch twobuckshort play @ hot java.. you guys r0cked!! haha.. so cute.. then waited for rosemarie.. then hung out in that area.. then! dropped michele off.. "dart mouth".. xP yea yea.. smart one..

after that.. went to hollywood video.. saw annie working!! =P then!! me, rhona & hoppho went to jane's where she & chris already were.. we start watching "pretty woman".. and then chris ho comes!! =) haha.. yes i read your blog.. but i still have a life!! that suckedd!! =( then!! shaheen comes!! oh man!! i havent seen him in awhile!! it's nice to see people!! =) .. especially if it's people from the group.. *thumbs up!* haha.. some people left.. but me, annie, jane & chris made SMORES!! with the cool smore maker.. that thing is freakn awesome!! haha.. the marshmallows!! ^^ hehehe!! john & clare came later on.. lalala.. finished the movie.. left around 1am.. YEA. it was a good night, if i do say so myself. =)

other funny stuff of the day:

- kevin called his mom. then she passed me the phone. he told her he needed to make an important phone call & that he'll TRY to call her back. haha.. right after.. he called me. but i had to pass the phone to his mom. "hey mom!! i was talking to an important person!!" .. hilarious.. =)
- people attacking/tickling me in the dark!! haha.. damn it!! =X
- chris p trying to steal my socks!! wtheck!! haha.. good thing annie was there!! lol.. weeeeeee.. =)

i drove a lot today. that means i need to get gas later. =(

ok. soooo tired!! goodnight!!
* teresa 2:44 AM l


Thursday, November 06, 2003

bleh.. school SUCKS. -.-

.. i'm AT school. haha.. NO FUN!! dang.. kill me. oOH! i skipped my 2nd class EVER.. and yes.. it was econ.. WHATEVER!! haha..

since we're STiLL talking about school.. let me tell you what i, along with clare, learned in our lifelong learning class today.. we learned how to have safe sex!! haha.. oh man.. it was sooo hilarious.. soooo weird.. xP i dont know.. YEA.. the whole thing about putting a condom on correctly & then how to use it effectively.. oh MAN.. wtf.. haha.. you know how you see in movies.. or whatever.. they usually use bananas? yea.. NO.. she had a model of a penis.. weirdd.. cracked me up.. haha.. and then.. she had volunteers go up.. they had to put themselves in order in how to put a condom on.. the first guy.. oh man.. i felt so bad for him.. so the first step in putting a condom on.. first you need an.. erect penis.. haha.. she was all like.. read what you have.. he was like "i have.. an erect penis".. LOL!! hilarious!!! xP sooo interesting!! haha.. i learned more stuff from sex bingo.. hahaha.. ahHh.. interesting..

ok. anyways. didnt go to econ. roxy blocked me from leaving & diana was all like "lets go to the mall!" .. so we went to north county.. the ride to the mall.. i was SO paranoid.. i shouldnt have sat up front.. -.- so the mall was... KAY. clare & i went into bath & body works.. heh.. we were looking at the lotions & she finds a lotion w/ shea's name in it.. lol.. it was rice flowers & shea.. hahaha.. it smelled like play doh.. xP haha.. then we looked at lotions.. i didnt know there were words that described it!! haha.. the lotion i use.. romantic.. whOo!! .. i GUESS!! haha..

then!! went back to school.. clare & i went to the computer lab to be productive. haha.. after 10 minutes.. i was like "k.. break!" haha.. & distracted her.. YAY!! lol.. sorry oslagab!! =P umm!! then went to the apss meeting.. oh MAN.. i want to see alex!!!! .. i'll be in his area.. kind of on the 15th.. ahHh!! must call him later!! haha.. i miss that guy..

sooooo when i was all blah yesterday.. i remembered something kat had in her info:

Next time you're having a bad day imagine this:

You're a siamese twin.
Your brother attached at your shoulder is gay.
You're not....
He has a date coming over tonight
You only have one ass...

.. hahahaha ..

debb: i'm 'with' u
debb: samee boat

she's my other half!! you better be with me!! <33!!

sigh... OH!!! .. then.. i called john's dad back today.. dude. kind of weird.. but i dont know.. it was kind of nice hearing his voice.. he's a nice man. but i dont get the whole thing.. but yea.. anything for john.. <33

my sister went back to vegas today.. or she's on her way back.. booo!! oh well.. 41 days.. =/

oh MAN.. i am SO playing out the song amanda sent me.. OH YEA!! hey guys.. want to send me songs?? =) i swear.. i have like.. 10 on my computer.. send me more? =) i'll love you forever & ever!!! ok.. but yea.. you guys should get "i wanna girl like you" - joe ft. jadakiss. i LOVE it!! =D

[ cont'd @ 7:11 pm ]

soooo.. i called my mom..

me: i'm sooooooooo boredd.. (followed w/ a lot more whining)
her: i think you need to get a job..

HAHAHAHA.. my mom's hilarious.. =) dude. i miss my mom's cooking!!!!! =(

.. k. i seriously need to stop slacking. ugh. i make myself mad.. rawrr!! ....
* teresa 2:45 PM l


Wednesday, November 05, 2003

me: andrew, can i lean on you?
andrew: yea.. that's what i'm here for..

...... so nice.

* b . i . t . t . e . r . s . w . e . e . t

thanks for listening to me rosemarie.

like i told rose.. i dont think it's something i want to talk about because i can be feeling like this right now.. but tomorrow.. it can be a different story.. & with me.. it usually is.

i think debbie said it best: "whateverrrrrrrrr :fake smile:"

< / 3
* teresa 2:09 PM l


Tuesday, November 04, 2003

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KEVIN!!!!!!
heyy brotha!! hope you have fun doing whatever.. party!! cant wait to see you when you get back for thanksgiving break!! i miss bugging yoou!! =( but yea!! have a GREAT day cause you're AWESOME!! love ya!! <33

b o t t l e c a p s.. i want more!! =( haha..

i SO didnt want to get up this morning.. i was SO comfortable in my nice, warm bed.. plus.. i slept at 1am.. woke up at 5:30.. ugh..

but yea. i talked to justin again.. DUDE.. seriously. everything he's been telling me is pissing me off.. i want to kick butt.. or i'd settle for yelling at them. =) haha.. when i talked to him.. i re-realized (is that word? i'm too lazy to check..) that some vegas people can be freakn shady.. always causing their own damn drama & whatnot.. living in each other's shadows.. copying one another then calling the other a biter.. wtf is that.. talking ish about people in front of their faces.. and being SO DAMN FAKE.. some people really need to grow up.. i just feel bad for the people that get sucked into that whole thing.. if they seriously think that that's how life is going to be.. being a follower & not a leader.. then.. good luck.

.. a . N . y . w . a . Y . s ..

i want to meet someone who's favorite color is white. =)

R A i N !!! .. hehehe.. good stuff..

"DONT TOUCH!!" .. *glare*

[ cont'd at 9:22 pm ]

.. i got to see my cousin's baby. jasper. i LOVE that name. what a cute baby!! oh man.. little kids & babies are the cutest things.. =)

debb: just..how change, changes everything
me: yea...
me: blehh
debb: and how distance changes everything
debb: yea
debb: it really sucks
me: YEAAA
debb: sigh..
debb: i miss you guyes
debb: sucks toes
me: not butt.. but toes now?
me: hahaha
me: NICE
debb: haha
debb: hella since my toes are cold
debb: soo ya know ya know
me: hahaha

debb: i have to pee
debb: but so lazy
me: hahaha
me: WOW
me: hahaha
me: nice

omb.. hahaha.. my other half is sooo hilarious!! i miss yooooooooou!!

oh yea oh yea!! my oslagab came by to show me dexter!! haha.. very interesting.. too bad hermit crabs freak me out.. i dont know.. haha.. i just dont like them? or touching them.. haha.. havent ever.. and dont plan to.. =)
* teresa 2:12 PM l


Monday, November 03, 2003

aw. i missed seeing my friend's faces @ school everyday!!! =D

it sucked waking up. but i did.. haha.. i walked outside & WHOA.. you guys know i like rain right? yeaa.. i dont know.. i like it when it rains.. but when i walked outside.. it was GROSS.. like it smelled soo.. bad.. maybe because of the fires? yeaa.. =/ oh well.. everytime it rains.. i just think of it.. as a fresh start.. cause everything bad that happened before.. it washed away.. heh.. i'm a nerd.. shaddup.

anyways!! diana brought 'c d b' to school.. haha.. seriously.. joseph got SO amused.. haha.. "whoaa!!! i get it!! C D B!! there's a BEE!!" hahaha.. wowww!!! cracked us up.. =))

i learned in GES today that blue isnt reflected under orange light!!! haha.. that means the lights we have at school!! haha.. soo yea.. i shared that with diana, shea & nik. they thought i was nuts. whatever!! haha.. then PSCI.. we got our tests back.. dang.. yea.. i'll just say i'm disappointed. =/

hung out in the asi student lounge today.. yeaaa.. interesting stuff went on!! haha.. found out stuff about my stalkeree & trish!! haha.. oh well.. all good.. i just never would've thought!! then clare, andrew, jessica, trish & i went out to eat.. yumm.. mexican food!!! =) yea. that guy was a monet.. haha.. good far away.. not so good up close.. xP then!! it rained!! weeeeeee.. then!! went back to school.. stayed for the meeting.. played that 10 fingers game again.. i learned more stuff about my b-word!! haha.. it's cool.. you're still my favorite b-word!! haha.. but yeaaa.. i dont know.. i hate staying at school for that long when i dont need to be there.. =/ eFF..

the "street team" hung around afterwards.. my stupid planner got sticky.. rawrr!! bad times.. =( then the guys were being jerks.. diana & i just wanted them to walk us to our cars.. and dang.. it was freakn dark out.. "they're probably going to rape each other.." .... wtf.. argharghargh!! yea.. cause we're dykeadeLic.. YEA RIGHT. freaks! but yeaa.. i GUESS it was nice of them to actually walk us ALL the way to our cars.. uh huh. geez.. freakn WATCH me get hit by my own car door!!! krackmonkies.. -.-

diana: boys...wuttah joke!
me: heck yea
me: ughh
me: whata BAD joke
diana: hahahahahha
diana: nicE!

omb. i want boba!! #32 from volcano pleaseeeee!!! =D

why the heck is is SO cold now!! oh man.. i love winter.. but not.. haha..

you know what.. i talked to justin last night.. dang. it's so surprising to hear that some people havent changed at all.. our mutual friend.. yea.. it sucks to hear that she's still a messed up person.. argh. oh well.. some people need to seriously live their own lives.. not in the shadows of others..

i talked to the 3 monkies saturday night.. before they all went off to illegals.. haha.. aww.. dickson, mike & austuny.. =) those guys are fun.. =) mike's xanga entries are very insightful. it's great. it sounds like it's out of a book. =) and yeaa!! austuny's right.. i need to make some racer friends over here.. haha.. and you know what!! all of you said you'd call me back.. *waiting*.. not cool.. =(

YOU KNOW WHAT i FOUND FUNNY?? .. how a LOT of people.. knew about me & not wanting to do missions anymore.. haha.. everyone would rather read my blog than talk to me.. HAHAHA.. oh MAN.. wtf.. WOW.. very interesting..

soooo.. randy acts like sam. i dont know. sooo simliar to one another. o.O

and another thing.. apss is reminding me of how it was in key club 01-02.. =X

yea. random blog. whatever. you're the one that read it.. heh..

J E A L O U S . jealous. jEaLouS. teresa is JEALOUS!!
* teresa 10:01 PM l


Sunday, November 02, 2003

soooo!!!! this whole day.. i was just all sad.. because of.. thinking too much.. and about john... yea... =( sooooo!! just now.. i got back from being away.. finished talking to clare.. haha.. ikea.. funny stuff.. but YEA.. came back & i see JOHN sign on!!! bolded & everything.. so it stood out ... i mean...... i KNOW it's probably his dad.. or someone in his family.. but DUDE..... this WHOLE day.. and yesterday.. i've wanted to talk to him...... and YEA.. wtf?! .... FREAK ME OUT!!!!!!!!

debb: i still dream of hugging me
debb: seeing him
debb: heearing his voice
me: omb.... i want to hug him.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!
debb: just hugs that could fix almost anything
debb: feel as safe as possible
me: yea.....

debb: its ok
debb: we just love john
debb: and ..just he's always with us
debb: so it's nothing odd
debb: or out there
debb: his thoughts and opinions are still with us
debb: his remarks

i'd give anything to have another day, week, month, year, or yearS to have him here.....

alright. no more. i need to be strong. john will always be a part of me. because i love him. my brother. sigh..........
* teresa 10:32 PM l




so!! life has good & bad stuff in it, right? yea.. right..

the bad stuff..? there's a lot. family. school. friends. guys. other stuff..

i'm content with all the people i have in my life right now. i kind of want to stop doing "missions".. i'm done with it.. i'm always down to meet new people.. but it's just... i dont think i need any more people that might distract me in what i need to focus on: school. argh. and school itself is stressful.

blah... that brings in the whole john thing.. dude. today's the 2nd, huh? ...... 4 months. am i being weird for keeping track?! .. it's not like i MEAN to.. it's just.. yea. last night.. after i blogged.. i took a look at my old blog & read what i wrote to john..... and started to get sad.... and teary... the whole thing about doing good in everything is do.. what makes me want to do even better.. is to make john proud.. as much as i want to make my parents proud.. i want to.. know.. that i'm also making john proud.. as WEiRD as that might be.... i just want to show him that he is what drove me to be even better.. it's in me.. i just need to use it.... i remember what one of his cousins said.. & will always remember.. her talking about fate & destiny.. & how maybe it was his destiny.. to show us that we can do just as much as he did.. john worked hard in being the best.. being the overachiever he was.. oh man.. i used to make fun of him for that..... =*****( i hate it...... I STILL MISS HIM!!!!! SOOOO FREAKN MUCH!!!!! .. i hate i feel like i'm doing so bad in school..... i feel like i'm letting him down.... if he were here.. he'd probably be like, "tesa, i'll help you study.." ... because he was great. he was the fuckn best.

i HATE it SO much.. he's supposed to be here with me.. in san diego. why am i still dwelling on this??? .. there's nothing i can do to bring him back.. i cant settle knowing that he's up there & i'm here.... i'm so selfish... i dont feel right talking to people about ... this.. because it feels like.. i dont know.... i feel as if i should've let go.. let go. ya know? .... i hate it. on nights like these.. when i had nothing to do.... i wanted to call john up to catch up just like old times..... i still have his number. i still have his screen name on my buddylist.. & i have pictures to remember the good times.. but it sucks.... knowing that's all you have of a person....... i dont know. i mean.. sure.. he's taught me a lot.. to do the best. be the best. live life. to reply w/in 5 seconds with a "i love you too" if someone says "i love you" to you..... but having him here... would be so much better.....

i miss my las vegas friends. specifically debbie, katrina, monica & alex. i'll always miss john..... <3

earlier.... when i was talking to clare about some of this (plus more).. i was telling her how when i was driving diana home.. we saw a car accident.. it was baddd.. i thought of john again.. (wtf is wrong with me!!) and when i got up to that point, clare was like "wow.. john really is your guardian angel, huh?" .... i guess so. he's been keeping me safe. but then again.. isnt everyone's lives planned out? ... so you dont have control of your own lives? ..... yea.

i'm being very pessimistic right now....... and feeling morbid. and helpless. and hopeless.

i hate this. no way but up from here. right...?
* teresa 12:49 AM l


Saturday, November 01, 2003

[ friday, 1o.31.o3 ]

so what did i do today? went to sleep @ 4am. -.- i dont see how diana, jessica & shea stayed up.. sheesh guys.. woke up at 11:45.. because my 2nd mother gave me a call. she wanted to go to the movies.. @ 12. -.- haha.. all good.. got me up & running.. but yea.. ended up making plans for later today..

i went down the street & around the corner around 3.. went on a secret mission.. sooo i'm not going to talk about it.. haha.. but it was interesting & fun. =) she bought me the truth or dare jenga from target.. haha.. she was all like "this will be good for you!! you can bring it to the party!!!!" hahaha.. oooh man.. so funny.. i love her.. haha.. then went back to their house.. & left around 6..

did nothing interesting. picked up diana. went to jessica's.. randy, diana & i played truth or dare jenga.. jessica had it!! pfft.. no fair.. haha.. all good.. now i can tell my 2nd mother that i DiD play.. hahaha.. and i DiD!! .. i LOST.. but hey.. whatever. =) ooOH!! i liked trish & lex's costume.. they dressed up as each other.. very nicee.. haha..

blub. so yea. then i just hung out with everyone.. had a couple of sips of.. yea.. drinks.. i dont know. i dont think i could drink just cause.. i'm bored or cause everyone else is. so why did i drink? i dont fuckn know. the peer pressure? .. the pressure w/in myself maybe.. if i do things.. i blame myself.. not others.. i'm so stupid. whatever. i amused myself tonight.. "dang.. i've never seen you like that.." - jane. heh.. =/ i dont know.. i was acting all drunk/hyper.. & damn.. lena & marlon are right - i AM more fun when i'm like that. =/ what the fuck ever. but yea.. watching diana was funny.. but not in a way. yea. i'm SO talking in fragmented sentences. it kind of surprised me to see people i wouldve never expected to see drinking drink.. heh.. but yea.. hanging w/ everyone was nice. i felt.. out of it for some reason.. and other reasons..

k. enough of that. i want to finish watching "the others" someday. it seems VERY interesting. like whoa. fosho.

i think that's enough of a recap.. not as detailed as jessica's blogs, but hey.. i can blame it on me being concentrated.. or yea.. not so concentrated.. whatever!

i'll leave you with a picture..



[ saturday, 11.o1.o3 ]

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SHEA!!!
hope you have a good day.. whether it's nice & relaxed or hectic because of finishing up your essay, you freakface. =)

anyways. i'm going to try to sleep early. so i can wake up early. get back on track. sleeping @ 2am-ish & waking up around noon.. is NOT cool.. bleh. so yea.. i'll blog later.

[ cont'd at 12:24 pm ]

i love how debb & i have the same emotions at the same time.. we're one.

debb: yea
debb: dunno its just like...wenn? wenn will it be happiness for us?
debb: are we not good ppl?

debb: i hate..the feeling
debb: wen u get in inactive in school
debb: for a long time
debb: and u just feel like ur a failure
debb: or ur doing bad in all classes
debb: blah~
me: yeaaaa

............... yea. time to be productive.
* teresa 1:30 AM l

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